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♥ 20110406

My Simple Life ♥

i m in mild depression.

hes starting to notice my abnormal behaviour lately and i tink it has rubbed off him.

i am scared.

everything can be nice & sweet until some weird tot goes thru my head and i just becomes so emo. :(

i hate this. i hate myself.

i dunno wats wrong. i tried to control but i feel smthing eating me from inside.

issit work stress? issit insecurity? or issit just.. silly weird tots.

i feel the need to just be alone. .. .. but.. do i really want to be alone?

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10:44 AM

♥ 20110401

My Simple Life ♥

the uncertainty of the upcoming trip is weighing down on us. pressure from friends, family and even media. we r only 14 days away. ** haven met him since tt few hours on monday w his friends. i don quite remember whens the last time we only meet once on weekday (other than when hes flying), we didnt make plans to meet tonight either. sigh. hes been ard in sg. and i haven seen him because..... ... .. ..... .. no idea. ** why do i feel wrong missing him. why do i feel wrong that i don enjoy my space too much, i rather have the 2 of us together? i m not a v dependent/sticky gf, am i? u said u alr have enuff space and don need more~ when u say u wan me to stick to u, and u wanna bug me, and we are not NTT cos its not enuff n wan more of me, are they all sugar coated... i do so wonder. i m just an ordinary girl. i don like to keep on guessing if my bf wants to meet me. or not. :( i gets excited every single time when i am gg to meet u. but not all the time, i get tt excitement from him. maybe all this is because of expectations.. or maybe he just don show it.. i don hate him. i m not angry at him. i just feel angry at myself tt i m so weak in this rship. i know its because i love him more than i love myself. and he loves himself more than he loves me. . . i love u. do u tink i enjoy feeling this way. when i try to deal w it. i just hope u can be a bit more patient w me..

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11:19 AM