got an offer from one bio chemical mnc. and will start on 10th May.
tendered the very next day. my vp didnt take it too well. she was v upset that i chose to leave her at this crucial period (my finance mgr tendered earlier and his last day was on 30th Apr)
she said she didnt expect me to stay here for 3 4 years, but she was confident that i would stick w her at this important period. and by choosing to look for a job now, it means she "misplaced her trust" & i was out to "set her up" & i have intention to create "chaos" in the company.
to me, my decision to leave the company wasnt a sudden one. i have been looking since last Oct. but just tt the right one never came. and as luck has it, i managed to land myself a good offer with this biochem MNC.
its a personal choice. its a wise decision made.
i had no idea why she over reacted. so i tried to think from her point of you, i can understand how she is viewing this whole saga. she feels lost. i understand that. and i would have felt the same if my staff does this to me.
but unfortunately, i am just making a choice that i deem is better for me. if one day the company decided to sack me, would they spare a tot for me too? NO.
i just did something that anyone would have done the same if putting them in the same situation.
if the SM have treated me better, listened to me more, help me when i shouted for help, everything would be different. fact is, after my FM tendered, none of the mgt pple spoke to us and assure us how things will be, and how everything will be in place. NONE.
none have ever told me or Irene how important we were. for 2 and a half yrs, headcount was 2, regardless of how many new entities and how much changes there are. we are obviously shorthanded.
instead of appreciating us, we find that we even get bullied by other pple in the company, those who help company to generate profit. no one ever, except my FM stood up for us when there are problems. blame is forever on us, even tho most of the time we made certain decisions for the benefit of the company. but it gets overwritten over and over again.
it gets quite frustrating u noe. being a professional, but they don treat me like one.
and when i tendered, my VP told me right in my face that i was not being professional and didnt see what the impact would be if i leave now.
i never expect that my resignation will cause such an ugly drama. 2.5 yrs, what i got back was disappointments, upset faces, interogating vp and anger from the mgt.
they keep saying its my fault. altho till now i don see why issit my fault, because its normal for pple to keep moving on for better prospects. issit because they haven found a replacement for my FM, thats why i cant leave?
i am really upset. really really upset. i have always respected my VP, but to her now, i am just an ingrate and unprofessional subordinate she had. and that she have learn from this incident that she will never trust pple easily again... i have no idea her words could be so strong and made me cry for v long..
no gratitude from them, no well wishes. they shd have think its a good riddance that i am out of the picture. but i noe that i didnt made the wrong choice to leave for my own well being. alot of pple supported me.
i wouldnt miss the work of cos. but i will miss my work space. our little finance room full of titbits. a patient finance manager. and the other 2 friends whom i have worked together with.
my heart is feeling heavy now while i type this. 2 and a half years is not short. i keep asking myself if given a choice, would i choose the same? or what would i have done differently to prevent this type of ending. sigh. but tts the way life is - no room for regrets and ifs.
the only regret that is probably the unhappiness i have caused my VP.
but i am thankful for the friendship i have gained from my tenure with the company. thomas, irene, clarisse, eugenia, denise, kelly, shirlyn, kumi, ellen, lulu, tracy..
