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♥ 20041030

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I am "sick".. sick in the heart..

Met mao ytd at Wheelock for HIgh-tea.. sounds liek Tai-tai ya?? ahah.. but we met just one hr before we go to work.. so we din haf the whole afternoon to be tai-tai.. lol.. shes just sweet.. talk to her make me feel so much better since i dont know who to turn to regarding such problems.. thanz Mao.. *hUGgIes* Ironically, if it was 1 yr ago.. i dont think e first person i tot of is her when i encounter such prob.. since i believe she wont understand.. now.. shes different.. she has seen so much.. and know exaxctly how it feels.. its bad for her in a sense tt she must haf hurt so much.. but.. its a chance to grow.. yeah.. =P she must haf been pretty gad tt we din end up pon work and went for shopping..if not... she wont haf 5 Qs.. hey.. its all thanks to my chocolate mocha and carrot cake k.. next time u better treat me... u owe me once~!!!

today sat.. mm.. its nice to stay at home.. listening to music.. relaxing.. but.. nt during such period whereby i am sick.. hope music can heal... SiGH..

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4:02 PM

♥ 20041026

My Simple Life ♥

Yeah.. i have finish my papers.. hehe.. sounds not enthu huh?? yup.. thats quite true.. mm.. lack of rest.. sigh.. so hasnt been blogging.. although i haf got plenty to update.. ..

Anyway..mm..weiling saw my blog! hehe..just wanna say i love her too.. will hang in there! cheers..

met up w mao today and did some.. er.. walking.. cos i dont exactly call tt shopping since we are just walking aimlessly.. partly cos i am tired.. and shes eager to go home to watch her show.. mm.. shall meet up smtime later.. =P

anyway.. u believe to have done quite well for my papers this sem..yeah..i should say i have been lucky.. =P

some unpleasant things keep happening at work.. and i think i couldnt hang in there any longer.. sigH..

today is my dear bday.. sorri to disappoint him but i din really prepare antyhing for him.. (actually i did.. but then it din work out as plan..) havent got my pay so couldnt afford his shoes.. and mao was like very serious telling me NEVER to buy shoes for boyfriend.. so i am still considering.. hehe...

clubbing.. o i miss clubbing.. techno rnb retro.. watever.. need to relax.. but.. there seems to be no force to get me there.. cos .. i am lack of rest.. HAHA..

went to joyce bday party on sat nite.. mm.. its her 21st bday.. big day.. but she din look too ok.. i guess tat must have been becos she is sick.. din really tok much.. but i feel great tht such occassion can bring the crm pple back together.. mm.. i always feel there is a strange affinity binding the few of us together... which i cant really explain.. mm...

anyway.. i tink i will be organising a small chalet for my bday.. but still in the midst of considering.. since i dunno how many pple is actually going.. mm..

anyway.. i will be free next week k.. hopefully can find some programme.. anyone wan go out.. let me know k.. haha.. pls bk in advance.. hohoho.. no la.. just joking.. i hope to hear some pple i haevnt really contact with..

*and i am just wondering how u are.. =) hope to c u soon.. YES.. you..

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3:47 AM

♥ 20041020

My Simple Life ♥

todays is my second paper. First paper was co law.. damn.. i was so cnofident of it.. as i put in quite some effort in it. But i ended up doing silly mistake for a 15 marks question. There are part A and B to e question. I know how to answer B but i din know the Answer for A. So i left A blank. In the end, I realise that the answer for B is the answer for A, which means i even got part B wrong.. bish* i feel like slapping my face..so there goes my 15 m..

I think i am really lucky..i had the entire weekend to study for my paper today.. and guess wat.. i was either sleeping at home or watch tv all day.. i tried to stop myself everytime.. i told myself i will start the next hour.. 10 more min..until night time then i say i will start tomorro morning.. so for the entire 3 days i din touch the notes..until late last nite..and i was v tired and slept at 2..which is rather early for me.. supposed to wake up at 9.. i guess u all know what happened.. i woke up at 12.. did some last min study..and went for exam.. and guess wat.. the paper was chicken 'toes' to me.. was surprised cos even last min study i find the paper so easy.. mm.. or maybe i find it so easy cos i got everything wrong.. hahaha..i think i m really cut out for last min study.. so next time i will keep everything till last min.. hahah

Tomorro is my last paper.. its the worst paper and my greatest fear.. cos this is the only module that for the whole 1 sem.. i din attend any lecture and i din even touch my notes nor seen the tutorial question.. my notes were still blank at last week.. so this is the most power module this sem.. cos i really hate it to the core.. i hate the teacher.. thats in short.. haha.. so i really dunno how i am going to pass the paper.. since i got to jam the whole 10 weeks of knowledge into my 56 k brain in a single nite.. and YES.. i haven start.. hahahaah... wish me luck..

after tomorro.. i will be so happy@@! i made lot of plans.. but sadly i haven gotten my pay.. mm.. i need to get presents for my dear and a belated present for Kailin and a present for JOycelyn.. hopefully i can manage to buy all.. I plan to go Ikea to find some nice things to decorate my room.. OMG.. my room is so plain.. ARgh..

Been looking for some nice restaruants to bring my dear there.. asking around and got a few recommendations from MERY..thanks girl.. will try to find time to take a look over at those places.. =)

ANyway.. think i shall be a good girl and study.. and shall blabber moer when the paper is over tomorro.. =)

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1:00 AM

♥ 20041015

My Simple Life ♥

Deleted a few entries..well..mainly those unhappy ones.. hoping my mood will return to normal...

anyway.. to all those who are concerned abt me.. thanks alot.. i am feeling better.. and things are fine.. sometimes its just about being calm and think abt everything..

these few days been mugging hard for me exams.. not actually hard.. but this time round.. i am surprised tt could be so slack in my revision.. Mm.. i still have the time to watch TV etc.. just like now.. i am supposed to be doing the memorising for my Co Law paper tomorro.. but.. here i am.. at 3 am.. online and reading blogs..

took a nap at 10 and told myself when i wake up i 12.. i should start... but i ended up watching tv.. ugh.. why m i so slack?.. sigh..

these 2 days has been a good rest.. parents not at home most of the time .. and i stayed at home from everyone and everything .. listening to my new CD.. i just love the peacefulness.. =)

Came across Weiling's blog thru mery's blog.. and read a few of her entries.. mm.. interesting girl..been long since we had a good chat.. met her around at town sometimes.. still as pretty as ever.. n i couldnt believe what she wrote in her entry.. she was complaining abt her being FAT! omg.. obviously.. she dunno whats the definition of fat.. if shes fat.. wat am i.. mm.. makes me kinda sad though.. hahah.. cos if shes fat.. i am enormous.. haha...

dunno if she will ever haf a chance to read my blog.. but i will always remember her care and concern for me back at school days.. i still remember those times when she really made an effort to make me feel better.. i dun usually call pple and cry.. but shes one of those few i will call in the middle of the nite to cry my heart out.. and the way she console me is, i dunno how to say.. but the words is just so meaningful and healing.. although we are of e same age.. i really treat her like a big sis.. i wont dare to say we haf been good friends all the while back in school days.. cos i admit we did haf some unhappiness and misunderstandings.. more of me not being too nice to her.. but we were young back then!! haha.. only found out how precious to me when i was around sec 3 or 4, but by e time we already not very much in touch due to different class..

well.. hope she takes care of herself.. and able to find some time together to catch up.. =)
o well.. shall start my memorising. but i think i m v sleepy already.. *yawn

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3:12 AM

♥ 20041007

My Simple Life ♥

Life is going to well for me.. lack of sleep.. lack of interest to work and study.. 0_o

Sigh.. exams in 2 weeks.. and i havent really started.. just changed my schedule to nite.. tell u.. someone gonna give me black face again..

met some not v pleasant colleagues at work..DUH.. i just felt like taking off the apron and run away.. bt i have to think far.. sigH..

so many nice colleagues has left.. Cheryl, Lih Chee, Nat and Faris and Jaslin are leaving.. duh.. feel so lifeless over there.. cos my cliques all gone..

managed to clear 1 test 2 project ytd.. Woo.. did well for both project.. but i think i buang the last test.. when i was pretty sure i noe everything.. yes i noe everything.. but it wasnt according to what i noe.. e format so diff from tut.. sigh.. teacher so cruel! and for the E-biz project better still.. supposed to build a website in a group.. and the proj consists on the evaluation fo the website and individual knowledge on dreamweaver, he will ask u to show him how u create this and tt.. i was so afraid.. cos i din manage to follow since week 3.. and i din bother to catch up.. ended up he asked me to do a shopping cart.. then i just tell him i dunno how to.. so he asked me.. "so what u noe how to do?" then i say rollover image (tt was the only thing i tried to learn 5 min before the test.. hahaha.. then he say.. ok.. then u show me.. and he loves our website.. HAHAHA.. there goes my 40% easily! and i m still v overwhelmed.. =P

Pray hard everything goes well soon..

*if u love me.. why hurt me..

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8:25 AM

♥ 20041003

My Simple Life ♥

I have been bz.. neglected plenty of things..

Last nite went to movie with mao. mich. and weihao. FINALLY we get to watch movie together.. =) we watched WHITE CHICKS... its damn nice.. highly recommended..initially i tot it was not worth that 8.50 since it is a comedy.. in fact i was disappointed when i couldnt catch Resident Evil.. but .. the movie is simply great.. keeps me entertained throughout the whole show.. and i din feel like i was watching a movie ya... all those clubbing scenes and RnB makes me feel like i m in it too.. and i begin to move my body as i watched...

was in a rough patch ytd.. well.. din know how to put in into words.. but ... wasnt feeling too good..its a little .. er.. u noe.. kinda feeling tt u cant explain.. its upsetting to see that u and ur friends belong to diff world.. and ya.. i tot i was the 'victim'.. but after wh talk to me..according to his "findings and anlysis"..he told me tt i was the one in the wrong.. cos he can see that my friends has been trying hard to meet up last nite.. and it just happened that our timing couldnt match and i was the one who cant turn up.. so i shouldnt be blaming anyone or anything..and come to think of it.. i think i am really e one in the wrong.. =( sigh..
sorry gals.. how can i make it up to u.. sigh..
we went thru my list of friends and he was telling me how fortunate i am that i still have some of them who really cares for me..and its surprising that even after so long we can still catch up once in a while.. even tho our life is just so different..thats mery n stella. and mao also.. always can shop with her.. watch movie .. tok cok.. and EAT with her .. LOLZ.. they are real sweet hearts..

and it was sad to see that there are just a few whom i really cant bring myself to care abt them anymore..

some are simply hack-er.. sms her regarding some outing issue and she din even bother to reply AT ALL. and the next thign i heard from a common friend is tt.. she has "no mood to talk abt this".. this really pissed me off.. who was the one who got so angry abt the previous trip tt i couldnt go..? SHEs the one.. and i felt so guilty abt making her wish for nothing in the end.. so now i m trying to make up for THAT.. does she really think i got nothing better to do?? does she really think i got the mood for THAT? when my exams is just around the corner.. and i need to work like shit to pay for everything??? NOPE! i dun wish to talk about tt...but @ least i made an effort.. and lets c wat i have got.. only one out of three is raelly interested in my suggestion.. **.i really appreciate the one who is always so supportive of everything** i agree.. everyone has got a depression.. i've got too..i dun wish to say this.. but.. everyone is just as busy as U are.. or ever busier.. and life still goes on.. its not as if u are the only one....

OK.. i am getting on my nerves as i write over here.. shall stop talking abt tt..shes a FREN after all..

need to rush my project and stuff.. exams around e corner.. sian..

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5:17 PM