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♥ 20050130

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Thats what happens when a small group of 2 or 3 girls go clubbing alone.. u will just find strangers crowding around u..

Mm..went study with mao earlier in the day .. did study a little.. but both of us know tt we are eager for tonite's clubbing!

both were broke.. so we decided to go MS - Rush since its free.. so i tot.. "why not..i miss techno anyway.." big mistake..we couldnt find anyone to go there with us! everyone just got so turned off when they hear RUSH.. haha..and most are staying home.. siGh.. but we dun want to gif up!

So i manage to get kAiLin.. n she was telling me its free for ladies at Coco latte.. all excited.. we decided to go.. n wanted ming to join..

we went to rush first.. to get a feel of techno.. n left our bags at the locker .. n we felt so out of place..so we just went to check out the entry for guys at coco.. then we know girls have to pay too.. sucha turnoff.. mao became like so sian.. we decided to go back to rush.. then we ask ming go home..

we stayed a little while n we really felt so out of place.. we have lost touch! n we seems so old in there.. finally cannot take it n we headed back to coco to find kailin..

So we went there.. just e 2 of us with kailin n friends.. n we started dancing at dance floor.. ok.. its bloody warm n no ventilation.. btw.. it just seems tt mao n kailin hit so well that they were so comfortable with each other.. then kailin's friends left.. so only the 3 of us..

and i saw 2 cute guys! one in black n the other in white.. lol.. one on my left n one on my right. ended up they are friends.. i like the way they dance.. heh..so i din get to tok to them since they left v early.. ah well...

the music was quite boring at first.. then starting to have more fun as kelvin n his friend came to join.. as well as another group of girls stnading behind.. they were v friendly and we started to have fun together.. n we even take photos with my phone n theres this Passerby A who pops his head in as we took the pic.. lol..

n it gets funner! somethign interesting seems to be happening at the platform/bartop watever.. theres this eurasian woman that was so open that the indian guys just put his hand into her clothes to touch her breasts.. and damn! everyone was cheering.. including me.. n she just laughed.. so tt irritating guy continued to 'rub'.. diao..

so me kailin and mao was all surrounded by strangers.. guys.. very soon..

the most interesting part of all.. theres this group of malay punks with a efw chinese guys who dances quite well.. they just stood beside us.. then there was this cute guy.. i noticed.. he just stood behind me for like 1 hr? or plus.. and i meant "stand behind" as in like my shadow.. no matter where i face.. he will just be behind.. so i tot.. ah.. what the heck.. probably with his friends or something..so i just dance.. n i really starting to get high after all those things happening around..so i just heck..

so he stood behind me for super damn long when suddenly he just whisper into my ears asking me if i wanna dance with him.. so i just said nah .. its ok.. cos i tot he was a malay n i din really see his face cos all the while hes behind me.. so then he went to join his friends la.. then kailin was telling me theres this cute guy standing behind me all the while.. n then to realise hes a chinese!

then kailin seems all excited over him.. so i just went to ask him name.. his name is Gerald.. mm... n he type on his hp.. and ask me if i wanna dance again!!! so i was like.. nvm la.. then kailin still looks interested in him.. so ziyu just pulled him over n ask him to dance with us.. then he was like "but she (me) say i cant dance with her.." then mao was like if u dance with us then can la..

then he staretd asking me questions like my name.. where i live n how old.. n great! guess wat.. hes 19 this yr! i m 20!! hes like.. "U dun look like u are 20.." .. ok.. i take tt as a compliment..i cant imagine lo.. i m really getting old.. wats the frequency of a guy hitting on u in coco latte and is younger then u.. siGh..

ok n as usual he was trying to get a little touchy with me.. but i still asume hes a little shy.. n tt kailin n mao started dancing together! leaving me n him! so awkward.. n all his friends started to laugh at him.. for being so silly i think..

party finally ended at 4.. n i headed to the door w/o saying bye to him.. n i saw him again at taxi stand.. he was smiling at me from the taxi.. so i just tot he will just be another of my acquaintance..n we will nv meet again..

but who would have expect.. once i reach home i check my friendster.. he already found me n send me a msg! Super efficient n tts becos he knows Kailin's friend i think.. OMG.. he said in his msg tt he wanted to know me etc.. n hes cute.. as according to kailin.. lol.. will decide tml if i should reply to him! since i m not too clear-minded now.. lol..

Lala.. i dun look like 20! hehe..

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5:43 AM

♥ 20050127

My Simple Life ♥

Just woke up from my fullfilling nap.. aWw.. feel so good...

Anyway.. i have skipped my 2nd test.. i took my 1st at 9 am..but decided that i really din touch the content of 2nd test at 5.. i decided to go home and slp.. take another day.. lOlz..

I know i was at fault!!

I shouldnt have gone clubbing when i have 2 tests next day and 1 report uncompleted..but my girls tempted me to!!! U know what they tell me.. they all (Stella and WEiling) told me they went becos of me! THen i was like.. i cant.. got lots to do.. then they even resort to intending to pay for my cab fare.. lol..so i guess i just had to go down n relax a bit..

BUt no regrets! IT was fun ytd nite.. no idea why also.. nothing much happen la.. but i just enjoyed myself.. like i say i can forget abt alot of things when i m boogie-ing!

And i m super happy to see my girls, Mery, stella, Weiling! BUt sadly, i was only with weiling at Zouk the whole nite..the 2 girls were at Phuture..keep wanting us to go over.. but we all know weiling is the ZOuk Girl!! and also for some reason i dont really feel comfortable with her friends la..hehe.. its fun to be just with her the whole nite.. i dunno why also.. i din get bored nearer to the end..on the contrary, i actually gets higher!

Saw Tim and his GF at the members..n he got a bottle of Stella Artois for us..i din want to drink! esp i only ate some food in the evening and skipped my dinner! but then i have to la.. u know.. social drinking..

And you know.. its always like when theres no guys with the girls, those strangers will just come to approach you.. this is especially so since i m with this super hot girl, weiling..wearing her ultra short dress.. everyone just want to see her up at the podium..

Met this few guys around 30 years old.. cant really remember the name..ones alex and e other one is? no idea.. but guess we will nv meet again.. we were near the girl's podium and they just came over and offer us drinks.. v funny..they kept offering us to drink even tho we like rejected them a dozen times.. and they even resort to giving us their drinks coupon.. but we hack it anyway..

Then alex was like asking me why dont i drink.. dont i trust him? he meant no harm.. i was like -_- . so i just said i need to go school tml.. n he was like "Then why the hell are u here tonite!" OMG.. damn funny lo.. being with them makes me feel so much younger.. so i just told him.. "Cos i m young and i want to have fun!" when he asked for my name.. i told him my name is FAte while weiling's is Opportunity.. LOLZ!

O..btw.. this alex is a charmingly cute bald guy.. and he happen to be the system manager of Procter n Gamble ..mm.. rich guys! adds on to my name card collection..

n i just agree those things weiling told me on the cab.. guys.. tsk..
trying to hit on girls even though they are like attached.. but who cares.. they have all it takes..

It was a fun nite.. even though i cant help being depressed when i hear "In the end".. but anyway.. tt was already like 3.. and i was supposed to leave at 1! according to mery.. she got a class like at 830 n i got my test.. in the end i reach home at 4.. wtF?

To my dearest girl.. dont worry too much about it.. everyone makes mistake.. just take it as a dream..come to think of it.. its nothing great actually..however me n ling just need to be harsh to u cos we want u to wake up ur idea since u seems so "all round the moon" n dunno what u doing..hope to knock some sense into u..that feelin is gonna live with u la.. but it takes time to get better lo..its gonna hurt so much if u continue and we dont want u to get miserable and finally hurting urself..u know..and pls pls.. dont let that "G" feeling get over you..love urself ok..*hugz you know whats good fer u..take it as another crazy nite! do call me if u need me or meet up alrite.. i m here 24/7..

I love you gals! Thanks for loving me too!! lOl..

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7:27 PM

♥ 20050125

My Simple Life ♥

Would like to upload some pics from AH mao's birthday!!

First, must intro the bday girl.. *Ta-dah* n her 2 bday cake..n i only manage to eat one mouth-ful *Sob

Zikai helping with e fire~

..with Ming and Siaohui helping w e food~

me n Jasmine .. with e sotong ball..

The secondary school ones..er..why m i in the centre?!

Me hanzi Jasmine n Siaohui..check out the specs!

Poor Jasmine~ the other 3 trying to showoff their height!

Mm..i like this one~

XIong n Vipez..hasnt seen the 2 in a while..but they still as fun~

Nice shots.. but things start to get out of hand............

Look where!?? only Sh manage to get it rite..

and so on.. not becos we kept fooling ard lo.. but guess how many cameras on the action?? theres about 3..taking pictures at the same time.. trying to make us feel like celebrities..

UNcle RYan trying to clean up the place~although i dunno him well but things he said at the beach i will always remember~

Last but not least..

Ming and the plastic paper cloth! Lolz.. cheeky boy..

Theres still alot.. see if i can rearrange them n upload again..

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10:53 PM

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Feeling calmer rite now..

Trying to get some work done.. i have a report due on Thursday.. but i havent really started it..

haven been sleeping these 2 days.. i stayed up to 5 am last nite..

HOpe i can sleep earlier today~

Day was ok.. i din go to school..nothing much happened today.. just dazed lo..

I am missing clubbing..(tt day at Forbbiden City not counted).. or maybe i just miss the fun n numb feeling inside.. u cant think of anything in that noisy place can u?

Watched Seed of chucky.. its a damn lame show..but its kinda cute.. mm.. i can still remember the part Glenn (or Glennda) greeted chucky n tiffany in Japanese! "Ohayoo Okasan, Otosan.." its so cute..
On the other tot.. u guys should watch it.. BUT don ever watch it on weekends.. u will probably kill me.. haha..

P/s: YOu may be thinking wat i wanted to say but din finish at the library.. i just wanted to tell u if one day u were to become like what u said u wan to be..come tell me.. cos i think tt will be the day whereby i probably wont matter to u anymore.. cos there will just be too many pple in ur life that you will probably forget abt me..There will just be too many serenes in ur life.. =)

now tt i have told u..Maybe u wan to consider telling me what u wanted to say on the train then.. or maybe u have already forgotten what u wanted to say already?~

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9:35 PM

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I got myself Jay's Concert CD last nite.. figured that might keep me occupied whenever i m alone..

Love jay~

i would be lying if i said i m not affected at all by what happened.. but i know if i were to choose to let him be in my life.. i will just have to forget watever i was told..

As long i m special.. as long as i m Serene to him.. but not any other girl in his life.. i think i should be ok with it...

I hope..

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11:47 AM

♥ 20050124

My Simple Life ♥

Met up with my dear girls in the evening.. they are such a sweetheart.. *hug* always making me feel much better..even tho at times our opinion doesnt match .. but they always look at things from different point of view!

Anyway.. went to chill at HOlland V Coffee Club.. alrite.. so i havent been to Holland V before.. whats the big deal! Doesnt mean i have to be there since i studied in Clementi Town before lo ! hehe..

Some heart to heart talk..some laughter and lil' tears.. but it was a great talk.. and we sat all the way till 12 am before we started heading home..

Again, i have learnt alot of new things from them... i believe mery has learnt alot from us too.. lol..but serious.. they are the most sensible person i know.. those that are mature enough to know what u are talking about.. and at the same time giving you opinions on some issues or details u may miss.. and ones who doesnt judge.. and ones who wants to protect me! heh...lala

come protect me ba..

i m fragile.. pls be gentle..

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2:23 AM

♥ 20050123

My Simple Life ♥

Despite the dread feeling i have in me.. i still decided to update on ziyu's bday..

shall start on 21st ba..

it was a PH and i was super tired..woke up in e noon.. watch some tv and met mervin, hanzi, wh and birthday girl at 830.. hehe..as e rest were all late..me n yu decided to pull a prank on them.. yu acted as she was angry then wanted to leave.. haha.. and yu is a poor actor can.. she cant stop herself from luffing..

the prank was a success! n it nearly blew hanzi up.. lol..after tt we went to CHinatown jalan..and eat! - Bday girl's all time favourite! after which we walk back to clarke quay..it was a long walk.. cos we always walk then stop..take pictures..

N we finally reach our destination! Went to Forbidden City, Indochine..the place is super cool.. way too cool! v good chill out place.. n we managed to snap up the seats with lots of cushion.. the feeling of Empress.. hehe.. i had my Appletini and the rest ordered, Sex on the beach, BUttery Nipple etc.. chill till 3 plus.. a pity i must go home since i have got paper going on next morning..e rest stay till 6..hoho..n i m definitely gg back there again soon!

22nd Jan:

Woke up damn early for my SAT paper..it was a breeze for the maths section.. but i guess its kinda hard for e english.. but ah well.. wats over is over..

feeling super tired..i took a long ride home by myself.. went to carry those super heavy wings! for yu's bbq.. carry them home myself and help to marinate it..

Hanzi was late to come my house.. so i met up with ziyu's friend - Guoli n we took cab down.. o.. its so ex.. but he paid for it..

i reach super early lo! i was the first to reach with wings and beehoon.. then the bday girl came.. with merv ming etc lo..

the crowd started coming in.. n i just stick to eve n jasmine..then came hanzi, xiong, siaohui, syqfiq, joel, sengyan, khaikhin..those pple whom i din get to see for a long while!! its so fun.. like a secondary school gathering.. and depite long time no see.. we can still talk like no body's biz.. esp khaikhin and sengyan.. they are still as crappy..

Michelle eric and weihao came later..but they abit AS la.. haha.. sit by themselves the whole nite..

initially i tot i m going to be v sian.. cos i dunno much pple.. but then to realise i know almost half of the pple there la.. so it was ok.. quite fun..

Took some pictures, ate v little then went to the beach to rest..see stars.. constellation was v nice! with SH, jas, han.. some lame jokes kept us luffing throughout..

Oh.. and my crush was there!!!!! hehe.. mm..not gg to mention the name cos u know, nowadays pple link their blogs and he may happen to see this! Haha.. lol..and i talked to him! the most ever since i knew him.. hes so cute! *excited* Lala..

after cuttingt e cake, pple started to leave in groups.. even the irn group..

leaving with xiong's group and the few of us.. playing cards and toking cock.. n mao kana some disgusting drinks and after tt we went to the beach to chat..

was kinda affected by what my friend told me abt someone..so i tried callin mery.. but she was asleep as expected.. n JQ din pick up my call! n finally i called weiling.. cos i know this dear girl will nv slp so early la.. so we had a long chat.. it was really nice of her..the news just broke out to me this way tt i least expected it..just wanna enjoy the nite .. but siGh..

Finally, it was only left with me jasmine ming mao bryan eve.. then started packing n finally left the place at 3.. and just as all were tired n dragging our feets.. our dearest bday girl has to give a false alarm claiming that she lost her wallet.. diao.. and we search all around for her and i nearly search the rubbish bin lo.. luckily ming stopped me.. n ended up she packed it into one of her presents.. haiz.. sotong girl..

Ryan sent me back n eve send mao ming and jasmine back.. but i think before they left for home they went to Mac Cafe.. but Ryan wanted to go home cos he gotta work tml.. hehe.. uncle need to slp more.. Lolz..

Btw, i m proud to declare that i m the first to raech.. and the last to gO! see i so good.. mao must know what to do ok!

Anyway, i was glad tt i was accompanied by them.. making me feel so much better.. not lonely in that lonely nite.. =)

*longing for a chalet!

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1:47 PM

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Just raech home from Yu's bbq.. the time now is 4.30 am..

feeling all tired..upset..used..naive..hurt..confused as i found out an ugly truth from a friend..

Not exactly a truth until i have confirm it...

But in the case.. i just assumed what i heard is true .. since theres no pt lying to me about it..

i am just..... torn apart..

Anyway.. the bbq was great.. initially kinda boring.. but the fun starts to set in around midnite.. in the end left only me, ming, mao, jasmine, eve and ryan..

Shall update more tml.. feeling tired and no mood..

And i m home safe n sound.. thanks to ryan who gave me a ride home on his comfy car with cushion! Lolz..

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4:31 AM

♥ 20050119

My Simple Life ♥

Just woke up from my nap..

and i dreamt of him.. it seems so real.. not abstract.. just the 2 of us.. with he sitting beside me talking to me ..normal chatting.. and i just listened.. i like to listen to him.. talking about his life and stuff.. cos most of the time he just nv talk..

I know the scene.. i know the exact place we sat down and it was a rainy evening..

When suddenly.. "Beep!" .. an sms woke me up.. my group mate sms me to remember to hand up my project plan..

it ended at a point when he is trying to tell me something important that happened to him.. and it was just cut off like tt.. tried to put myself back to sleep at the most comfy position.. but nope.. i m awake.. i cant weave that dream again..

Just felt so uncomfortable all over..i remember all the details he said.. its so real.. but why is it when i open my eyes.. hes no where near.. n i was forced to return to reality... ... ...

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5:19 PM

♥ 20050118

My Simple Life ♥

You just brought the words across to me so lightly.. like u don even care.. like it doesnt even concern u or anything... how could you...

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1:20 AM

♥ 20050117

My Simple Life ♥

Whats on winamp: All this favourite - Numb, Linkin Park

took down some of my entries... just don feel tt they should be up there since ..u know.. no pt elaborating anyway..cos no one bothers..

Anyway..Com been gifing me problems.. its time to change to a new com..

Whats on winamp: Jie Kou, Jay..

Mm.. why is tonite so cold again.. i dont even have to on my fan..

Surprised by the significant effect music has on my life.. if there were to be one day theres no more music.. i will die...
so.. STOP PIRACY! lolz.. look whos talking.. heh..

Shopaholic in action today.. bought 2 new top from FEP.. heh.. both long sleeve.. and i super like the Mickey MOusE~ its kinda cool.. hehe..its been kinda long since i last buy things.. other than those little items like toothbrush, eye shadow brush, pore pack etc.. ~

Its been the dunno how many times that i have failed to catch Phantom of the Opera again! First time was supposed to catch it w mao..but she couldnt go home late..2nd time me n wh actually bought the ticket but we couldnt wake up to go for the movie!@

3rd time is the worst.. and the funniest..again.. we bought ticket from AXS..and alloy got the wrong ticket! He wanted to buy the ticket on 12th for the movie on 13th.. but instead he bought the 12th ticket! and we used the 12th Jan ticket to enter the Cinema as the conductor did not realised too! n we go to CInema 7 as stated on the ticket n looked for our seats n to realised tt someone is sitting on out seat! and that is only when we know we have got the wrong ticket.. n this guy blur2 still want to go out.. so i just say no matter what i m not leaving as we already paid fer it.. so we stayed.. know how much i prayed tt its phantom!? but it ended up to be national treasure.. disappointed.. i went to explore the rest of the theatres alone.. hopefully i can find phantom or any other show tt i find intersting .. n i ended at Alfie.. have to say.. its raelly a good show.. heh..

Anyway.. today i din manage to catch it again due to the guilt i have after spending so much.. ah well.. guess i m not fated to spend tt 2 plus hours watching it..

Spend some precious time at library to look for my project info.. den went straight home after dinner at Subway.. Yum..

Whats on Winamp: Lian ai da guo tian - Twins..

Katek intro this song to me.. was talking to him online.. ah well.. as usual.. nothing much to talk abt.. some surface stuff n recommending of songs that we always like to do.. erm.. used to like..

Super happy.. manage to find a song i rather like in irc despite so little server now.. heh.. Careless whisper by Kenny G.. no vocal tho.. =(

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11:43 PM

♥ 20050116

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MIssed the feeling of writing watever i want in my own space..

Not been really bz recently...

Just tot i needa go away and tidy up my emotions a little.. just didnt want to face the life less screen and 'talk' to it..

I felt used.. and unwanted.. am i supposed to feel this waY?

I really dunno.. no idea..

I just dont understand why there are some pple around me, so called friends can used me.. when i treat them with all my true heart.. and treat them like a close one.. pple like eric and katek.. those whom i have treated so nicely.. i was there for them.. n just used to hang out together.. n now.. its like.. on the surface we are still friends.. but we talk like as if we were complete strangers.. where are those times when we can talk on the phone or irc for hours? Just talking cock.. maybe its really my problem.. maybe theres some misunderstandings tt both of us din wan to clear up..and this 2 person i have mentioned is just one of those many who walked out of me.. . . .

On my Winamp: Westlife - Swear it again...

Back to my old self.. depressed.. lonely.. don wish to do anything..isolating myself from all..

Theres nothing left to be said.. if thats what u want to do to me.. then so be it.. i m still me....

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2:59 AM

♥ 20050109

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Nice weather out there.. but i hate the sticky feeling of the air outside.. Nah..

Lets tok abt wat happened ytd.. Mm..

Was supposed to meet ben..but he kinda call it off the last min.. becos he wasnt in the mood to meet.. alrite.. o.O fly aeroplane..is that what u call it?? just hope hes feeling better ba..

Went to work in the noon, and met with my girls..weiling and mEry..Mm.. been seeing them more often lately.. which is quite good..cos they can always make me feel better! Despite weiling's nonsense.. haha.. j/j.. went for dinner at Crystal Jade..with 2 of ling's friends.. n it sucks.. haiz.. maybe becos of wat i ordered.. and the food makes me feel sick in the stomach.. ah well..

After the dinner. 3 of us went to Heeren to shop for her blouse.. was moody then... din really talk.. just walked aimlessly.. saw WL w/o the siGht of JQ.. been so long since i last saw him..haiz.. i just tot for tt moment.. if i get to see his joker face.. i may feel happier.. Hmm..but figured that hes attending a wedding dinner..

Decided to chill at Coffee Club.. tot some choc fondue can cheer me up.. but in the end 3 of us ordered.. Tiramisu mudpie..Muddy Mudpie and a Strawberry Romanoff.. and the last one sucks.. Eew..

Some bitching therapy..glad the girls understand what i m trying to say.. n we manage to resolve some hard-to-understand man's ideas.. e.g why does their friends always hates us???

Shortly after, Nic and Steven came and last came Colin..actually despite the hatred for steven.. i still think that these guys are great company.. at least we get to hear what the guys thinks..

For example: Nic told us that he learnt 2 things in life.. i forgot the first but the second one is.. Women are born to be victimised..what an interesting philisophy..

But to a certain extent i agree with what he says.. alot of girls brought those troubles upon themselves...ah well.. maybe..but i think we dont want to turn into victims ourselves, do we?

well well.. Men are from Venus, Women from Mars..

O.. n i like WeiLing's theory too.. about man only walks out of his "cage" when he sees something interesting and want to know more about it.. thats when they fall in love.. LOlz..

Ah anyway.. glad in the lonely nite i was accompanied by them.. even tho we failed to go clubbing cos mery is sick.. but.. its interesting la..

Maybe joining ah mao for Mambo next week.. see how it goes!

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1:38 PM

♥ 20050108

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This is my 108th entry since the opening of my BLog..and it probably marks the last day of dependence.. =)

"Its the circumstances.." he said to me.. its been like almost a week that we have seen each other .. and the last time we saw each other was like sunday~ just a few hrs and went ahead to meet my friends.. it was partly my fault for not able to meet up actually.. nor did i made an effort to call.. but close friends should know what happened to me...

know what i really hate about him?? it is that he seems to cant remember any single thing i tell him.. its ok that sometimes he cant rememebr the details.. but then..whenever he tried to recall.. he will end up telling me an entire diff thing from what i told him.. either i said wrongly or he simply wanna guess his way thru..

Alrite.. so i hasnt been a real understanding gf isnt it.. He told me its the circumstances that doesnt allow him to do anything fer me.. and he says tat I should know why he needs to work~ So be it.. he and watever he says..

I was sticky.. but he reminded me to have a limit.. so that it wont be hard for us to cope since hes going for his NS.. those nites i needa talk to him.. but he went to slp after a long day of work..so now i learn to be an independent girl.. i stop asking or intervene with his work.. i keep myself occupied with my friends.. i go clubbing..i know more pple.. and he couldnt take it.. he will end up complaining to me that i has been cold to him! Fact is, he has no farking time for me.. all we can talk abt is work.. before both of us ended up sleepy..

So i called him today.. tot i'd ask how he is and stuff.. ok.. i admit.. i did blew my top for nothing.. or rather something small.. but he should know why.. i was angry.. i hung up n he din call back.. so fine.. i calm down and called him a while later.. n w/i like 5 sentences he said he needa go work~ so i hung up again..

I started sms him on my way to school.. telling him how unhappy i was regarding his behaviour.. and he called a while later... telling me in his "what the hell" kinda voice n ask me if there is anything i want to say.. call him.. don sms.. he claims that its v irritating to rcv lots of smses at one go.. and i was like.. fark.. i send u one only after u reply.. so its one everything.. its not as if i bomb ur phone or smth??????? Fine.. n he was telling me how much more sensitive he becomes over the month.. just tt its not significant.. hah..

Alrite alrite.. perhaps its just all my problem.. u don like me to go clubbing ya? So be it.. i love clubbing~ its just like u love ur job..

U complaint that we have got lesser time to meet and seldom talk.. wheni call u at nite.. u are abt to slp already.. u finsih work at 8.. n most of the time i manage to get u only at 1 plus?? i had no idea where u go.. and i din bother to ask..

I know it has been hard of u these 2 years.. and i know you has been very stressed.. to cope with ur family.. n me.. i know i had been super unreasonable.. super dominant.. and u super dote on me.. You tolerated me.. for whole 2.5 yrs.. u has been a really

n i guess u are tired.. u should be tired..i know its mainly my fault for this..its becos i cant be understanding enuff ..

From today on..

There will be no more cuddling from you..
No more supper u bring to my place..nor breakfast in e morning..
No more mid nite calls to wake u up when u are super tired..
No more forcing u to hear me sing..
No more crying on your shoulder..
No more of u listening to my nonsense..
No more bruises on your arm due to my abuse..
No more photo taking using my phone..
No more feasting at restaurants..
No more picking u up from work..
No more shouting at you over the phone nor in your face..
No more demands for you to do things for me..
No more complaints about my life..
No more deardear..
No more baby talk on the phone..

You told me that if there comes a day that i m gonna leave you..dont forget tt if there is at any pt of time i need u.. i should tell u..I know u would like to be there fer me.. but..i think u had enough of ur nonsense.. i have learnt to be independent.. i hope u can be independent too.. =)

I know u are hurt.. i m too..i m sorry.. its all my fault~Please.. hate me..

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2:43 AM

♥ 20050105

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Dilemma: Situation in which difficult choice must be made - Oxford Dictionary

Decision: Judgement so reached - Oxford Dictionary

How many times in life that you are actually force to make decisions?

How many times in those decision makings you actually faces dilemma?

How many times in your mind you fear that the decision you make will cause regrets? To yourself n others?

I believe things will be lot easier if the final decision affects only you alone. But how many times in life these final decisions you make involves more than 1 party.

Lots of factors you will have to consider then.

Well, not to say that i am a very nice person, but, when i am force with such decisions, most of the time i just wish that i can be more selfish, making decisions that only benefits me. At least i can be happy. But, i m not those kind of pple, thinking of only self well-being eh..

I hate decision making. Friends who knows me should know. I have hell-alot of problem making decisions. Even simple decisions like : WHere to eat, what colour to buy and even whether to go clubbing~ Let along decisions i need to make that will simply change my life.

I have never been so unsure about something before in my life. And i have dragged long enough. But i know whatever the decision is, i wont be happy, i guess..

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1:22 AM

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Its because of e weather.. tts why i m feeling this way..

Its such a lovely weather.. i started to think of me.. think of u.. think of us.... .. . . .. .. .. ... ..noe how much i miss u... ... .. . .

will u take a good look at me.. its me..

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1:51 AM

♥ 20050102

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Hey ho..new blogskin.. for a brand new year..

Haiz.. something sad happened today.. i lost my bracelet.. i love the charm bracelet alot..its a heart shape and with little diamond studs on it.. i wore it to nye.. remmeber taking it down n left it in my bag.. but its no where to be found.. haiz... this is so depressing.. hate the feeling when i lose my things.. e other nite at subway i tot i lost my anklet.. but luckily i left it at home..

Haiz.. hope i can find my bracelet soon.. pls let it be around..

Today did some shopping again.. spend quite a bit.. bought 2 pants and 1 spag top.. cost me around 80 bucks.. haiz.. this has been the worst splurging month of my entire 19 yrs.. i believe i nv spend so much ever in my whole life.. ah well.. i like the jeans i got.. n i m so even happier to find out tt my i can wear a smaller size now as compared to e last time i buy jeans.. total difference of 3 sizes.. hehe.. good news..

Met up with my girls.. wait fer stella to finsih her hair n we went ahead to have dinner.. nothing much happen today.. other than the part Mery told me abt.. Lolz.. ah well.. nothing much to say too.. heh...

O ya.. btw.. pls tag my board if u happen to read alrite.. esp u hor LJQ..

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11:33 PM

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My Simple Life ♥

The first day of a brand new year

Decided to stay at home for the day. Cos mom is rather pissed that i din return home last nite.. and i hasnt been a good girl recently.. so.. should be staying home .. ah well.. see how it goes .. =P

Recently met up with an old friend of mine.. weiling.. hehe..manage to catch up with her during our meetings with Mery..some updates about each others life.. shes still as energetic as ever..

Weiling is one of the strongest and coolest girl i have ever met.. nothing is too big for her to handle.. of cos there are times when shes really affected by some stuffs.. but it didnt take her long to pull herself back together.. sometimes i wish i could be as brave as her.. =) saw her ytd too.. shes having some serious issues with her dear one.. hope everything is fine by now.. *hUg.. she says wat she think and nv beat round the bush.. a very good friend.. cos she might not be able to always keep in contact with u but when there comes a point of time whereby u need her.. she will be there. No doubt about that. And i just got scolded by her ytd cos i said something bad about myself.. Oopz.. hehe..

And a special thanks to my angel Mery, thanks her for always being there fer me. Shes simply an understanding sweetheart. Just like wat i told her the other nite at wine bar, thanks for everything..even though i am a disappointment..SigH.. same goes to weiling.. its becos of their warm hug that din make me feel too cold that nite at zouk... i always feel bad.. having friends like them to always watch out and take care of me.. catch me when i fall..and i would like to emphasise that, even though whenever we come out i seldom talk.. its not always becos i m v bored.. but i m forever listening alrite.. what can be happiest to go out with u guys! =P

And another thanks to Ziyu.. my new shopping and jalan and CLUBBING khaki eh.. meet her like at least 4 times a week kind.. haha..go shopping, eat.. talk cock.. eh.. shes another girl who will be there if u need her.. but i m there for her too la.. hehe....even though most of the times our frequency is different.. a v fun loving girl..i m not as crazy as her la.. so sometimes i think we go out she will be v sian.. haha..but i love her company.. cos u will be so entertained by what she say or do..even tho i always pangseh u to go clubbing ar.. i love to club with her just in case u dont know.. =P *Hug mao..

Thanks to JQ (again).. dun have to say much la.. i always talk abt him but he always nv show gratitude also.. so.. i dun want to waste my time writing le alrite!

Special thanks to Ben..always listen to my bitching on ICQ.. always drag him to talk with me and doesnt let him go home..and tt few clubbing sessions.. lolz.. thanks thanks.. shant say much here.. cos i m sure he knows what i m trying to say la hor.. =P *huGz

Thanks to Stella.. mm.. what can i say about her.. well.. i felt a little.. just a little distant from her now la..but shes definitely a helpful and fun loving girl! Love her company too..

Thanks to Grace and Hanzi.. even tho we kinda meet lesser eh.. but its still good to have u 2 around! Happy new yr!

Thanks to Weihao..for always jalan with me la.. shopping la..let me "abuse" him.. tahan my unreasonableness..thanks for being so nice to me ok~ lol.. eh.. u get what i meant.. *hUGz

THanks to my poly pple.. Jaslyn, Cheryl, Kailin, Joycelyn etc friends i have known thru clubbing..friends i have known thru friends..

And finally.. thanks to all those whom i have left out but our paths crossed this year..thanks thanks..

My language aint good eh.. so i hope u guys know what i m trying to say..

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4:26 PM

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Feel so happy now.. love a song i always hear at club.. but no one knows the title.. was out at town when i heard the song is FOX.. hehe.. and now i m online looking for the MP3.. and e song is on 98.7!! i always like the feeling.. like u are humming the song and then suddenly u hear it on radio.. hehe.. like the DJ can read ur mind eh.. Lolz.. HippIE!

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4:23 PM