My mind is slowly adapting to the crazy things happening ard me...
alot of pple commented that they are surprised at the way i deal w the issue. too calm. unlike my usual self.
seriously, u have no idea how hard it is to appear like its nothing when he don even give a damn abt me. and when everything else is also falling apart..
i try not to rely on alcohol to get on w life. but i noe i need the sleeping pills to put me to sleep.
very tempted to rely on that pillar and shelter tt is there for me now. but i know i shouldnt until i heal.
anyway, mery is right. guys will be guys. once they set their mind to it, even 10 yrs they can also move on and wouldnt be bothered if u haven. they prob think "serve u right" and start laughing hysterically.
me, on the other hand, have no clear direction of whats gg to happen. neglecting work and family. fancy sobbing in office and hiding in toilet for 20 mins. luckily my female boss knows of my predicament and offer me support. i m grateful.
there are alot of pple that i tot i can rely on. but apparently i cant. v disappointing. and i know there are pple who wants to be there for me, but i had to shut them out, just because i am tired of reacting to shocked faces and why this why that. the more i hear, the more confused i get.
and there is absolutely no need to keep telling me why issit my loss. tyvm.
its so sad that we have just became strangers over night. somehow, i believe it only proves my point that, it wasnt me that he really want to spend the rest of his life with. but prob someone, that will follow him thru his master plan.
i may be wrong. but since i dont have anyone to answer my question, i will just take it as that.
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i lost my bag ytd in a ktv pub that i have been going. sigh. n i didnt want to be there yesterday.
for some reason i was holding on to my phone~ which i usually will put inside the bag. so i m considered lucky.
the most precious item lost will be my wallet, which consists of my CCs, IC, 150 bucks and the wallet itself. its my first branded wallet and its in patent pink. :(
still carrying hope that someone will bother to return the bag or whatever without the cash n all back to 139.
this have to happen when i m like ultra broke. my ib device & uob atm card got lost together and i have no access to any cash. life sucks yes?
