Feel the need to blog.. siGh.. i m so screwed up last nite!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!everything was just so wrong..To begin with.. i din study for my MA test.. siGh.. luckily it wasnt tooo hard..
THen.. me and gwen and hanzi couldnt make up our mind on momo... we kept changing plans..finally after i met kailin.. she already decided that she will sign me in.. so i decided to go to gwen's place to meet up with her before heading down to momo..
Its good to see her anyway! glad shes doing fine.. other than her work part.. sat down at the playground and chat ourselves away with hanzi..and she decided to come down with me to momo.. slowly made our way down by bus after mid nite.. saved a bit.. =)
Ben chose not to come down cos members all full.. cannot sign him in.. argH.. but then in the end ah doink got in free.. and he told me theres alot of space on the list somemore.. diao..
Ah DOink was
unhappy with me since i was sick and still wanna go down.. but i knowhe don wan me to go down cos Desmond was there.. and hes worried.. but anyway.. i wanted him to come too la.. since the moment i reach..
poon, darren, baoyong and all were asking abt him.. saying wat he nv wear uniform is under me etc etc.. so i m responsible for him..lol..
Then dance my nite away.. drink abit.. not alot.. but enough to make me dizzy but yet still know wat i was doing.. jsut remembered walking around with kailin n gwen.. then keep throwing him alone.. cos he v sticky.. then i don really like since i am at club..
So the
climax of the nite was around 3.. when the last round of rnB finishes.. i met
Desmond and group ..
Initially i only wanted to test
ah doink's tolerance level.. and i started playing finger guessing game with them.. and drinking .. with des and kenee.. then who knows.. i play till i high.. then keep playing and keep drinking and was rather close to the 2 of them.. i
din realise wat i was doing.. until 4.. and doink has to drag me out of the place..
Last thing i remmebered was .. Kenee tried to kiss me and left his hand on my waist.. but i really din feel it.. and Doink was really pissed off..
Doink was really really angry.. then i ask gwen was i overboard.. she said
ya.. if she were him.. she will be angry too.. then i know i gt myself into trouble..
the worst thing? he heard something i told kenee that he shouldnt have hear.. i told kenee that i don wan this bf already..
wtf! din know why i say that.. playful i guess..i really don mean it tho.. but he overheard.. damn.. it must have really hurt him..
no wonder hes so angry..
Upon coming out of the club.. i was with Gwen.. and i only saw Darren and Baoyong trying to pull him away from me..asking him to go home now.. and don bother abt him.. AH! fark la.. i always try to put a good impression to that grp.. cos they v scary one.. gossipers.. but then now is like.. they must haf tot i m some bitch la..
Apologise to dear straight.. and i was really guilty.. even tho my head was still spinning. everything was clearer to me..
he did forgive me.. but i also heard he complained to Gwen on their way home too.. ..
I am surprised that he manage to control and save the face for me without confronting me and that Kenee guy.. and obviously i can see that hes really concerned abt me..i told him
i m really not worth it.. cos be4 i know him.. i was already liek tt.. before i met him.. i nv club with my ex before one ma.. so i din have a limit to the things i do..and i don know i m overboard.. but he say if he don think i m worth it .. he would have threw my bag at Kenee and went off.. instead he chose to stand there and see me have my own fun..
Got scolded by Gwen.. cos she say i got nth better to do then doing those stupid things.. even kailin also say that its not funny lo.. i tot it was la.. but not after he was so angry..Hmm..
Some shit happened to
Kailin.. haiz.. this girl.. recently seems to have alot on her mind.. i hope she is having a good rest? silly girl..
anything u still got carol or me or darren they all ma.. be strong!overall i guess i did have fun.. thats my definition of fun..dunno what u doing and screaming and shouting.. but gwen said its one of her worst clubbing session ever. gues it just diff kind of fun she looking for..bleah.. i tot i could let her haf fun.. but i guess i myself got carried away.. feel guilty and sorry..
And like wat she says..
I must treasure wat i have now.. cos hes really like another weihao.. tolerated all my shitty stuffs..and can see all his effort he put in for the rship..i m going to treasure him.. and try to make us work out..
Jia you! and be good..
(^^)Vbtw.. gonna rest for a while.. my body and finance and mother all cant take the way i m clubbing now..