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Finsihed my second paper today. which almost equates to finsihing the entire examination cos my next paper is next friday. which i have got ample time to study.

But i screw up the paper today. again...

i find no words to describe my feelings now..

so lost.. so disappointed.. so upset..so desserted.. so...screwed.

I was fully prepared i swear. But the paper was so farked up. I haven seen the questions anywhere in my life before.. and i didnt manage to finsih it either.. there is no way i can squeeze 35 out of 70 marks out of this paper. Everyone tot the paper was hard. But i m sure even if there is moderation, i m not gonna make it either.

I am ruined. so ruined.

I just feel like walking out of the road and kill myself right after my paper.

I cannot. i cannot take this stress.

And the feeling sucks even more when u called up ur so called bestie.. hoping she might want to cheer me up.. or maybe just listen.. or just hear me cry..

but when her response was simply: shes depressed too.. because she cant get a Distinction

I hope she understands that shes rubbing it in.. tt feeling really sucks.. as much as she is upset too cos she didnt do that well..my condition seems to be severe.. but nvm.. i know it doesnt hurt when it doesnt happen to u.. maybe just not everyone will feel for his/her friend when they are in trouble..

How useless of me.. .. ..

HA HA HA

The only thing i wan to do now.. is sleep. .. .. i want to sleep...

just sleep forever while this realisitc world evolves..........

nothing is gonna change without me.. everything , everyone.. will be the same..

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12:30 AM

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I lost all the motivation to study.

Cos Yinghan ask me.. why? why that assignment i only got Cr? but they got Di?

I dunno hw to ans. maybe its becos i m stupid. Thats why i am left with one more sem? How depressing. Cried after i got off the phone w her.

My IQ seems to have deterioted ever since i finish my Os. I can only think STRAIGHT. if there is a tricky qn, my mind will like go blank.

Exam is in a few days. I have been studying hard, but its really hard to juggle w my work, cos its like so demanding of me.

1 week. in 1 week i gonna be free. i gonna party, i gonna eat, i gonna travel, i gonna watch movie, i gonna sleep, i gonna finsih my piling work.

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Its so hard to convince him that nothing is going on between me n this guy.

this guy suddenly just pop out from no where..

hes angry. hes freaking mad at the guy. Maybe he feels threatened.

I hope he doesnt do anything if one day we bump into each other on the street.

Haiz

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12:58 PM

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OK. This really weird thing happened to me on my way home..

Do you guys believe in signs and omens?

Like those signs in Final Destinations and 666 means Devil and the No. 23? (lol)

So right, back to wat i was saying..on my way home from sch the other night..i had 4 Mambo songs playing CONSECUTIVELY on my Ipod Shuffle.. Not quite normal.. cos i have about 3 hundred songs in my Ipod and i only have 4 mambo songs.. u do the maths.. i dunno wats the frequency of that.. but definitely small..

So i know its a sign! to either tell me i must club on the coming wed (haha) or something weird was gg to happen..so just as i took out my phone to msg Kai regarding these "OMEN".. i did receive a msg from someone "unusual" --> unusual in a sense that usually i wont receive msg from this person.. HAHA..

i might have accidentally influence tt person to sms becos of my strong will power..but he doesnt seem to believe in the "signs" thingy.. alright.. maybe i shld try it on my examiner whosa gonna mark my papers.. influence them to pass me. HAHA

Actually.. i think i m reading too much into it.. watched too many movies and maybe thinking too much becos of the stress from work and school.. DAMN.

Exam is in a week

some of my frenz have already finsih their paper.. lucky u..wish me luck.. cos i am again, way behind time.. =(

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12:15 AM

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"Sexy Love..Im so addicted to how shes the sweetest drug
Just enough..still too much"

love this song, caught it on my way back from Mambo the other nite. =D latest addiction.

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3:51 PM

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How can mambo be so fun?

HAHA.. i knw why! cos got kailin and her gang! They are super happening can..? I can go with them EVERYWEEK.. haha. i was super high..

+ all the ALcohol i had.. WEE! HIGH! no high price to pay this time round.. as i was able to wake up n go to work as usual.. but i don quite recall the events of the nites..

Didnt stay till the end of it.. cos my friend drove me home.. should have stayed at phuture! since so high rite.. HAHA.. i guess i had quite a bit.. and my friend told me i reek of alcohol.. =( but i believe i still smell good.. cos i sprayed lotsa perfume!

It was a unexpected and last minute decision.. hehe.. and ended up there was only me , kai (2 girls ) , sam, samuel & bf.. =) *Lesbians love*

Had lotsa fun.. last week and this week.. hehe..like Kailin say.. how can WE stop clubbing?? LOL..

*high even reminiscing abt tt nite*

" we will always be together.. together with eletric dream" **Dances**

*Clubbing Lurve*

*How much of myself am i losing?? Ans: Totally.. i totally lost it.."

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9:47 PM

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argh.. finally project month is over.. WEE@! at least will have a peaceful sleep from now on..

=)

But it also means exam is getting nearer. O shit! no time no time!

nvm.. even no time also nv stop serene from having fun. =) zouk tml anyone?

LOL..

Baby is bringing me to Bangkok after my exams .. WEE! love him *muack*

Next time when pple say it is not possible to meet potential partner at Clubs, i will reply: " SAYS WHO?!" .. cos i know i am not the only one who met someone.. Right kai? *wink*

Work is ok. Getting some new job scopes. away from that "possessive" colleague of mine. HAHA.. i m sure i have complain to alot of u.. and u shld have know.. bt.. things are getting a lil out of hand.. and i m not talking to her anymore.. YAY!

All i can say is she is a selfish person.. stubborn..watever.. no wonder she got no friends.. HAH! *evil laughter* alrite.. shouldn gloat at pple's misery.. LOL..

To Gwenie, i hope u will feel better soon.

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11:55 PM