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2 days down..

I stayed home the whole weekend to recharge myself.. haha..

GOOD!

anyway.. do this for me friends,

http://kevan.org/johari?name=Rene1205

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4:23 PM

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Hes gone.. hmm.. but i promised him to update the pictures for the past few nites for him so tt he can see when he comes back .. =)

P/s: this is gonna be a v long entry..

Wed..

Went to Marina to catch a movie and after tt followed by dinner at this Imperial La Mian Xiao Long Bao restaurant.. (its just a duplicate of Crystal Jade, the price and menu is somewat similiar)..

Him with his Suan La La Mian ..just like crystal jade.. there ramen is served in big bowl..

Me & my Zha Jiang La Mian (minced pork with mushroom sauce) .. i think mine nicer..

Hong You Chao Shou (Dumpling in hot chilli oil).. our side...

Trying to be artsy fartsy here.. him, playing cool~ and me acting cute..

After dinner.. craving for Tiramisu and was walking around to search for TCC.. how come i remmeber theres one in MS? hmm.. theres only coffee club~ wanted to have fondue but we finally settled on Tiramisu at Secret Recipe..

BIG MISTAKE.. it totally sucks man.. i know SR is good at their cakes but they suck at their tiramisu.. sigh .. disappointment..

Was deciding if wanna club cos mery and gwen was there..but gaf up the idea cos i figured its gonna cost abt 60 bucks for both of us to club..

He came over .. and we were browsing thru some websites then we had a small quarrel.. and off we went to slp..

Grr...

Thurs..

Went to work in the morning then he went home to pack him luggage..

tot he wont be picking me up cos its really a long way from his place to my office..but he reached before 6..

So happy cos he put in an effort to give me a surprise!!

Ta-dah! First rose from my dear!

He actually went to buy tt flower with his good friend, Weixiang after he went back to camp..

And tt rose is the most beautiful rose i have ever got.. i m serious.. its petals and all are v nice and big.. and its still sitting next to my monitor now.. and its still alive even after 3 days..

next to my comp..

FLower & me!

Us..

Met my parents at Clarke Quay and went to Jumbo for dinner.. (blog abt this before so will say no more~)

Gigantic claw of the Sri Lanka Chilli crab

Crab again..

Food was too delicious so i din take much photos..

Fri

this is D day..

He spend the whole day at home to pack up..

Headed home to sleep directly after work ..n was stil thinking if i should see him off at the airport..

Woke up at 8 and started studying for my audit..he called and ask me to go over his place to study & spend the last few hours together..

took a cab to pick him up at his camp then headed to his place.. as expected .. i din study the whole nite..cos i was busy on the msn while he do his packing.. just not in the mood...

Initially we were both doing our things.. then..as the time gets nearer.. we both talked lesser..

Packin up.. his messy room..

the light stick he gave me so tt i could put in my room at nite..

His $5000 Indian Rupee

Him, tryinh to look like a retard.. Lol..

Stayed up till 3 to talk to dearest mery..after tt its time for him to leave his house..

His dad helped him to carry his stuffs downstairs.. while i just walk behind him quietly..

at his house downstairs.. check out his big bag.. its abt the size of me..

Decided not to see him to the airport so he said he will drop me at my house on his way to the airport..

he asked to take one photo but i din wan to.. so he din bugged me further..

And as u might guessed it.. lots of crying.. one min we were jokin w each other.. the other minute we can be crying.. the cab uncle must be thinking tt we are mad la..

The journey home was fast..

Super fast..

As we were nearing.. i told him tt we should not say "byebye" to each other laterto avoid being sad.. so we ponder over wat we should say..

We came up with this dialogue:

Him: I reach home already then call u..
Me: Nah.. when u reach home go n rest early..
Him: i will give u mornin call tml..
Me: ok.. wake me up at 9..

We agreed to this dialogue and were supposed to say this once i alight.. pretending tt he will still be around tml..

However.. i couldnt finish it wat i needed to say.. after he said the first sentence.. i just alighted w tears.. couldnt say anything..

We dont even dare to call each other before he boards the plane..

so i went to slp...

Now i m counting down to his return.. hope he will be safe and sound...

Went to school today for my Audit test.. i only studied one out of 5 chapters.. expected to fail but in the end i think i did quite well.. so happi..

at least i m relieve now.. =)

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6:24 PM

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I m so gone......

its my fault, so i m not going to complain i got no time to study..

Supposed to be up at 9 am to study (and waking kailin up at 10) .. bt i failed.. no discipline..

Theres a voice in me tt says... " i m just gonna work extra harder for tt 20% in my final exams.."

But i promise myself.. this is e only test tt i allow myself to give up on...

Cos i wan at least 2 distinctions this sem.. i know its hard but i try............

Pondering over if i shoud go to Celia's bday.. scared i donno much pple there..

but i guess its more healthy to go out w Gwenie then staying at home thinking of him..

U know the feeling the moment i wake up is as if i had a breakup..? my heart aches.. haiz..

Wish me good luck for later's test... stay awak!

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11:37 AM

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Hours before ur departure..

Dunno wats got into me.. doesnt look forward to seeing u later.. prob not looking forward to leaving u..........

AH~!!! this sucks.. nv had such problems cos none of my past rships put me thru this ..

I m so sad.. i so crying.. i m dying..

imagine how many days i will spend crying over it.. until..

until he comes back.................

Din know it feels this way..din know i cant leave him..

Come back soon.

Baby is waiting for u at home..

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8:30 PM

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I m dying..

I realised i dont know how to juggle btween my work and studies..

Full time working n part time studying wil definitely kill u..

I m so shagged.....

i have given up so much for these.. i just hope its worth it..

Luckily pple at work has been nice and my colleague Amanda often help me do my work when she sees tt i m overloaded with work..

But i m sooo tired.. i got no time to rest.. esp these 2 days... dear is flying off and i tried to be there with him before he leaves...

Things may be better after he leaves.. (not tt i m dying for him to leave but..) I can rest more and study more and most imptly have more quality time w my friends..

Haven been seein my friends due to my work n school.. i miss clubbing w Gwenie. chilling w Stella & Mery, hanging out with Weiling, i miss the crappy jasmine.. i miss dining w hanzi n grace.. i even miss Eric.. I miss all my friends....

Dinner at Jumbo last nite w Dear and Mom and Dad..

Nice dinner! Amounting to about 90 bucks for four person.. got my favourites Chilli Crab, Cereal Prawn! Hee.. so happy..

Thanks dear for the wonderful dinner and for trying hard to please my parents.. U did a great job and u pleases me too!

After dinner, went dating.. initially my mom wanted to join us for desserts but my dad drop hints at her that they shld go back first..lol

Sat down by Clarke Quay.. nice weather.. we din talk much.. just enjoying each others company..and the cooling breeze..

He suddenly told me to take care of myself during the month that he will be away... and tears just flow uncontrollably.. the tot of not being able to talk to him abt my problems is sucky.. e tot of him going to be very far away from me is sucky too.. (dunno wat other words to use other than sucky)

Sigh

Was tired so he sent me back early and skipping the Tiramisu.. Hmm.. had one at Secret Recipe Esp the nite before and it sucks..

Test is on BLoody Saturday and i have not touch much of it.. luckily its a MCQ test don have to memorise much..

still pondering if i should go n see him off~ cos i wont be going for the company dinner at No SignBoard tonite.. and i wont be going for lecture cos i prob wont listen.. and i figured the only way to pass now is to go home and take a rest and study the whole of tonite..

Anyway i jsut got my desserts for eating the crabs and all last nite.. my wisdom tooth is popping out. and fark it.. it has caused great pain in my head as if it is abt the crack...

To dear,

I tried to be strong and tried to be e one telling u that its only a month that u wil b gone.. and luff and joke abt ur leaving..its not like a year or forever.. but i just felt the inevitable sadness.. day by day.. the nearer to ur departure.. the more depress i become..

I dunno why i m feeling this way.. i love u and no doubt abt tt.. prob i got no faith in myself..

But dear, i wil take good care of myself and wait for u to come back.. will study hard and still not be late for work even without ur morning call.. be good and save money.. have fun but will have my limit..

I'll miss u too..

Love that rose u gave me.. thank u for making an effort.. =)

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8:29 AM

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Guess all of u might have heard abt the latest NYP sex scandal.. hmm..

I myself have seen the clip forwarded by friend's friend..

Well.. if i were Tammy.. i really dunno wat i will do.. shes so popular and everyone knows her...

I kinda sympathise with her.. cos i guess half of singapore has watched the clip..

However, i think if its normal couple why would they take down their make out scene?? (or is this the "in" thing now tt i m not aware of.. hmm..)

And I dun understand why is all the focus on tt girl..so far.. i heard nothing abt tt guy and Tammy's rival..

Note to all: pls delete away watever CONFIDENTIAL photos/videos from ur phone once u have transfered them to ur comp or watever.. nowadays.. so many sadists and psycho..

Have no idea what the culprit is trying to prove.. and apparently.. he/she hates her to the core.. to be doing such a thing to her...

SIgh.. wats e world becoming??

Been to some forums and their arrow seems to be pointing at NYP.. from last time our lecturer Susan Chua (she had an affair w one ex student and was exposed) to the hottest scandal now..

some says.. nyp girls are loose.. like duh? Stereo typing.. and wat has it got to do w loose anyway?? shes doing it with her own Boyfriend.. tts all? does taking video means loose?? i dun get wat the pple are trying to say la..

i mean .. its not like other Polys Or JCs or Secondary schools doesnt have pple making out and making their own porn..

I received one email last year.. its a few snapshots of couples making out in one of the Poly Campus (Not NYP)..

Why wasnt tt reported?? why wasnt those pple expelled? like hello? They did it in Campus lo.. whereas Tammy did it out of campus.. so wat has it got to do with NYP??? no link leh.........

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12:21 AM

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I have completely no stand in this matter..

I couldnt make up my mind..

there are so many factors to consider...

Weighing between my Mom, my studies, my finance and my work.. (note tt the Taiwan trip is not a factor for consideration)

Wats impt?

Seems like its no longer a holiday anymore?

I still dunno if i should go to the trip w her.. i m so confused...

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4:45 PM

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Dear's gonna fly off in 5 days time.. haiz.. took this special weekend to go dating w him.. turn down quite a few dates with my girls.. sorry dears~

Went to school earlier in the noon.. met up with him after my class.. and headed to chinatown to check out the agencies for our trip.. asked a few of them but none meets our budget.. so after some rational discussion together.. we decided to post pone the trip to next year.. when he has found a job.. so mean while. we plan to go somewhere near.. and we decided on Genting & KL trip.. hohoho...

Good, at least we can save up the money.. =)

Dinner at SUntec..

Country Manna.

Decided to dine at Country Manna cos we had a voucher to claim for a main course / dessert..

It was my second time there, first time was with Gerald.. =)

Waited bloody long for the food to be served..

Dear: cant wait anymore.. gonna eat u!

EVil AH doink..

I where got! SO innocent.. *pukes*

This baby was caught having a whole chicken chop to himself... v cute.. his small hands cutting the chicken chop..

Food was finally served after half an hour..

Dear's Teriyaki Chicken and Salmon Combo.. must try.. the salmon is heavenly~

My Beef Stew w Spaghettis.. it sucks.. luckily its complimentary w the voucher..

After dinner, we headed to MS for movie, bought tickets for THE FOG at 12 am...then we went to Topshop at Suntec to exchange his belt which is too big for him.. but in the end.. i bought a skirt that i have set my eyes on since some time ago.. but it costs $89 so i always din buy.. now its 50% off! paid only $45 for it! hohoho .. so haPI!

Movie at 12am.. bumped into Kenee at MS.. i really agree with Kailin that hes EVERYWHERE..

imagine i go out once every fortnight yet i still bump into him.. now i know why Gwen keeps bumping into him.. cos hes EVERYWHERE!

ANyway.. he saw me first so when he called me & i was not mentally prepared.. i think i blabbered some nonsense to him and quickly siam.. without saying Goodbye or anything.. haiz.. i think i made a fool of myself la..

SUcks lo.. how to get him out of my life when hes everywhere~~~

and i just hate the idea of seeing him when i don think i look my best...

Boo..

Anyway.. The Fog is not v nice i feel.. give it 7/10 ba.. its no scary at all..

Love the feeling of just walking around aimlessly w him..

Gonna miss him.. =(

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3:21 AM

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Initially, i had a dilemma to choose between Bangkok and Taiwan..

but we decided to spend a lil bit more to go Taiwan..

Then i was confused whether to go to somemore i can stay longer (e.g Malaysia) or Taiwan..

In the end, we chose Taiwan and stay for 4 days..

Now.. when we are so determined to go Taiwan!

Cousin jio me to JAPAN in MARCH!! *Lightning*

Pengs lo.. the thing is .. my mom is v keen to go.. but then! tt means i cant go overseas with dear liao!

And my aunt is not going.. so if i go.. e chance of mY COUSIN going w/o her mom is higher!

And my the other aunt who is the organiser of this trip.. offers to pay for us first and we can return her by instalment.. and she will also pay for our airport tax (don need to return).. only shows shes v keen too! everyone is so keen!

Now i dunno.. '

Dear will be disappointed.. n the trip is so ex! 1200 for 5 days.. haven include expenses..

but my mom told me something tt makes me feel tt i must definitely go w her this time.. she says she is afraid tt she cant travel few years later cos shes getting old.. and not as healthy.. and shes afraid her leg will ache whenever she travels long distance.. and i know shes been dying to see the Cherry Blossom~~

Haiz... i think i will be going with my mom la...i can go w dear any other time when he ORD rite??/

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4:00 PM

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Valentines Day..

Its my first Vday with dear... hee.. although we couldnt celebrate cos he cant apply leave and i got class in the evening.. but dear is v sweet to cook me a meal~@ Hee..

The taste was below his standard.. probably its becos he was rushing for time..but i m touched!! cos he only manage to book out at 6+ and he went to buy the ingredients for my dinner and rush down to my school in cab and waited for me to finish my class!!

So nice~ Hugs..

shared the food with bestie Gwen cos the quantity he cooked was too much..

Then we spent some precious time on my way back home.. while he was heading back to his camp..

Thats our Vday nite! wahaha.. met for less than 2 hrs .. but doesnt matter la.. everyday can be valentines day one ma! and dont feel bad for not getting me a pressie.. that meal u whipped up for me and the Taiwan trip is my best present!!!!!!!!!!!

Its wednesday nite.. and i don feel like clubbing~ cos i wan to save.. and catch a good rest~

Hes leaving for India soon.. less than 2 weeks time.. gonna miss him lots.. =(

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8:49 PM

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My Blood is Boiling while i m typing this.. time now is 6.50 pm.. meeting Mery 8 at town.. i might be late if i type this entry.. BUT I DON CARE............

I m just plain pissed OFF...

Some no life pple out there has been reading my blog...

TO that Certain-someone-out-there who has been reading my blog to find out if i have been seeing ur boyfriend..

let me tell u now..........

I HAVEN..

so now why are u so interested in my daily activities???????????????????????????

Issit just to see whether we have been seeing each other?

If the answer is YES.. then pls grow up........

I have got my own life.. my own relationship..i love my boyfriend.. alrite.. even if i have a fling..... ur boy is not one of them anyway...

If u don like anything i write abt here..... or anything u wan to know.... can ask me~ don just hide behind the com everyday and sulk over wat i wrote..don go n give shit to ur bf becos of wat i wrote......

HEs a FRIEND... cos me and him has officially broke up almost half a DECADE ago....

THEN WHY are u nailing my life???? why is tt becos of u i cant write wat i wanted in my very own blog????/

Why is tt i cant miss ur Boyfriend? my good friend???? DOnt u have one v special guy friend in ur life too??? one that u know u 2 can nv be more than friends??? issit very against ur principle to remain friends with ur ex lover?????

You are very selfish.... u think the whole world only I will miss him issit... there are plenty of Marys and Janes missing him out there.... if are really interested.. i suggest u track them down...

NOT ME.

I didnt come in between u and his rship.. i stayed far away from his LIFE..

And one last farking thing i wan to bring to ur kind attention................. i dont only have one EX BOYFRIEND which is YOUR CURRENT BF.. when i say EX BOYFRIEND.. it can be ANYONE..

I m not trying to start some cat fight here to fight for one guy.. i jsut wan to let u know how ridiculous u can be.....i doesnt write.. doesnt mean i din see him.........and doesnt mean hes not seeing anyone else.............

I don wan him to be sandwiched in between..... if u really wan me out of his life.. then i will... IF That pleases u .... and pleases him.......

p/s: i m really disappointed when i rcv ur msg earlier on.. i always tot u are someone sensible.. obviously.. this is not my fault... but u blamed me for the shit u are getting.. who can i blame for letting this bitch invading my privacy..

how many of u can actually stay in contact w ur ex bf.. and knowing tt wats between both of u is pure friendship.. no romantic feelings involved? i was silly when i tot i found one..and i was proud to tell everyone abt this SPECIAL friend i made in my secondary school days who has been there for been for a long time....but so wat.. i lost him to a pathetic girl anyway...............................................

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6:49 PM

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Friday must be the worst day for me this year~

Woke up earlier than usual..but almost got myself late..

while i was rushing into the office.. i fell and injured my knee cap and arm at the loading bay.. the floor was rough, mind u..

Now my knee cap is swollen and blue black.. pain even when walking.. same goes for my arm..

All i need is someone to ask me....

"How are u".. or at least pretend to worry abt me if u are really tt busy..

Yes.. i m REALLY pissed off.....

I called and he was busy as usual.. his response was "O then are u ok now?" followed by a "dear, i gotta go.."

T_T

He has been super busy the whole week.. or rather recently..

Been outfield and couldnt use the phone.. for a few days... it was hard even wanting to talk to him for 10 mins//

Finally ytd afternoon he called and said hes back.. and can chat w me in the nite.. even tho he couldnt book out.. i was happy to discuss the overseas trip w him over the phone..

Becos of all these SHIT i m getting from him..Now i m starting to question my determination to change for the better for this relationship.... i m dubious..

The injury hurts but i din cry.. however, the moment i hang up on him.. my tears just fell lo..

I just felt v hurt.. i dunno why..

its not tti m not being understanding of his commitments.. but surely i have the right to complain and demand the care and concern from him..

Just felt drifting further and further away..

I have no idea how far these are gonna take us.. i m just taking a step at a time..........

Maybe.. MAYBE.. the one month seperation is good......

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3:27 PM

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Stuck at home on a lovely Sat nite~ hee..not tt i m not enjoying the peacefulness of it anyway~

Went to class earlier in the noon and i felt i completely wasted my time~ was half an hrs late and spend the last hour outside the lecture hall w Kailin for sometalk..

This girl is sooooooooo happening lately.. so envious.. =(

Dear is upset over some family problems.. and din wan my company either.. maybe its nice to leave him alone to enjoy the cool Sat..

Got no plans yet for V day.. dear wanted to cook for me.. but then he cldnt get a day off.. (only nites off) so we called off the dinner thingy so he cant have the surprise he planned for me liao.. but its ok.. cos i told him.. the biggest and best present i can get is to go Taiwan with him.. So he promised me..Pinky-chop promise~ if he go back on his word.. he will have acne and pimples.. wahahah..

Yup.. so here i m.. in front of the computer looking at the Info for my May trip~ so excited.. and also found so cheap deals from Agency.. 4d3n only $228! hoho..

Bestie Gwen just msg.. she said she got no life .. cos shes going home later to do project.. ahah.. i guess its ok man..

Stella said, Simple is Good~ =) guess its a phase we are going thru.. we need mental and physical rest and make my parents happy by staying home.. Hee.. and can save money..

See? so many benefits for staying home~ so wats wrong w staying home????

PS: I Love my dear.. =)

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8:47 PM

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I need some advise..

WEnt thru some websites on travelling and decided to go either 1. BangKok or 2. Taiwan.

The price are as follows:

Bangkok:

Air ticket - $484 for 2 person
Accomadation - $200 for 4 nites
5 days trip
Budgeted expenditure $800 for 2 person

Total expected to fork out = $1500 for 2 person.

Taiwan (Taipei):

Air ticket - $814 for 2 person.
Accomdation - $260 for 4 nites
Budgeted expenditure - $600
5 days trip

Total expected to fork out = $1700 for 2 person

I wanted to go Taiwan.. more things to eat.. but the air ticket expensive leh..

So i don mind going BKK la.. cos the air fare is relatively cheaper.. so can buy more things.. but my dear is scared of language problem and difficult for us to get around..

As for Taiwan, language is not a problem ma..

Please give me some advise! if u were me where would u go!~ or got other cheaper air fare or hotels pls let me know.. thankie!

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3:41 PM

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Hmm.. to all concerned.. i m fine la.. there wont be any changes to my current relationship.. just tt... i didnt feel quite good when i was just told the truth.. now i m better la..

Cos tt guy obviously has lost interest in me liao.. e way he talk to me is like as if he cant be bothered..

Yes.. like wat Gwen says.. will strive for my happiness.. and i wan to give my dear happiness too!

Hee..

Was talking to TF online.. and he keep tempting me to go canada with him n Gwen.. mm.. so gian.. but no money... =(

Maybe plannign for a short trip w mery n stella since its gonna be their break soon~

or maybe i should go Japan with my cousins end of march.. Hehe..

Mood: Travelling mood

Had set aside money to buy a new phone and a new monitor.. Hmm... but now i got both for free.. but i dunno where the money i save went to!

Lets say the monitor is 400 .. and the phone is 400 too.. total savings = $800..

Wa.. i deserve a getaway man~

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12:27 PM

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I m feeling v shit now~

Slight numb and confusion...

When i have already made up my mind to be a good gf!~ giving my all and best to my dearest..

Its too late now... even if u tell me now... I promised not to think abt Kenee Low ANYMORE..

Me: wanna ask u abt ken..but u are always so busy.. i cant guess his feelings, des..
Des says: aiyoh can juz call mi mahz silly ger
Des says: OMG he like u for the longest of times la
Des says:even since we went clubbing together
Des says:which to mi is god knows how long ago
*~^Serene*^~ lack of rest.. says: he like me?
Des says: oops.
Des says: did i say smthing i shldnt have?
*~^Serene*^~ lack of rest.. says: i tried guessing and guessing
*~^Serene*^~ lack of rest.. says: but i dunno
*~^Serene*^~ lack of rest.. says: so tell me
*~^Serene*^~ lack of rest.. says: wat u noe
Des says: haha i think i oredi told u wad u need to know.
Des says: probably after introing him to u
Des says: not much reason for him to go clubbing wid mi but one - most of the time.
Des says: and tt reason is you~~~~~~~~~~~~
*~^Serene*^~ lack of rest.. says: scully its becos he join ur clubbing then he like leh?!
Des says: pls lo.. he is muc more of a clubber than me.. he had no problem finding any kakis..

all the guessings.. not impt anymore..

Yes, he like me.. i mean, LIKED..

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11:14 PM

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Took a day off on Monday cos i overslept.. =X

Haha.. it was a lazy day.. woke up at 3 pm and went out to run my errands..

- collect my jeans (checked)
- Repair my Ipod (checked)
- Buy a pair of slippers
- Buy one belt (checked)

Felt so happy especially after i sent my Ipod for service.. hopefully i will get the replacement thingy soon! dying without music T_T

Saw some disgusting people on the train on my way home.. this couple.. age late 20s to early 30s was sitting at the end of the cabin..it was during peak hours and the train was crowded..

A Malay lady with 2 kids board e train at Little India. The elder boy was abt 5 yrs old.. and the younger girl was abt 3.. and the mother was carrying lots of stuff.. and they were standing right in front of that couple and tt guy din even have the decency to give up the seat!

Instead, he was striking a super "act-cool" kinda pose as if was v interested in wat the girl was saying.. i have no idea how could the girl be impressed by such a guy!!

The little girl was whining and the mother had to carry her.. and that bloody guy simply look up at the Malay mother and continue their conversation. To make things worst, they started giggling and whispering into each other's ears.. imagine doing tt in front of young kids! No shame at all..

Well, i would say, if its younger school students.. maybe.. MAYBE.. i can tolerate.. cos .. they are young.. and being young makes them able to be thick-skinned.. but they are working adults and doesnt even act like one.. WTF!

Tuesday..

Went to work as usual at 830.. had a lunch with RZB's (a bank) stuff for a small gathering.. so me and 3 other colleagues left for Fullerton at 1130 ( an hr before lunch time)..

Lunch buffet at Fullerton wasnt fantastic.. in fact.. i don think its good.. little variety and the taste is so-so.. the only thing i like abt hte entire lunch is that...it was a 3 hrs lunch.. LOL..
Reach office at abt 4 pm then left for class at 6..

Heez..

Bestie Gwen came to crash my lecture~ she was sitting beside me and tried v hard to concentrate on her studies.. she did la.. initially... when me n hanzi were listening to the lecture.. but we couldnt hide our sian-ness and started chatting and giggling with Kailin~ Lol..

Anyway Gwen learnt a new word call "PERPETUAL" and she tried to use it on me..

"Serene is a Perpetual FLIRT".. i was like... Deh! wrong example.. hahaha..

Absorb quite a bit tt nite~ v happy!

I hope every class is as fruitful as this one.. then i will not be scared of my Final Exams..

.

Mm..

dear has been jeolous of my bestie Gwen! lOl

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5:39 PM

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Till now.. no one can explain wat causes the sudden change in behaviour of Kenee Low.. i hope someone can tell me the reason behind the sudden change.. haiz...

Had a super bad day at work on friday nite..

In order to make me feel better.. Dear skipped his Guy's Nite Out to keep me company.. .. so nice of him.. Hmm..

Went to Marina Sq for a walk.. then sat down by the Esplanade.. started feeling better...but the silence around him seems to stir up something in his head.. before i knew it..hes upset...

he started thinking abt wat happened at e chalet the other nite.. he started to think alot.. probably worried since he is going for a one month exercise in less than 3 wks time....haiz..

I dunnno wat to say to him.. cos even if i promise anything.. its not gonna help.. hes just insecured...

Everything will be fine, as long as i try hard enough.. i shall not be lazy and work hard for us.. I promise..

Sat nite at MOS was sucky.. Argh.. luckily i only paid 12 since its before 1030.. hiakz..

was there with Gwen, dear, daven & friends and this guy, lets call him X..

its been v long since i last clubbed with X.. hmm.. felt bad cos he seemed quite sian to me.. but anyway.. nv seen him happy when clubbing with me la.. hmm..

It just feels weird, like Gwen says, clubbing with ur current Bf and X bf.. and more weird when both of them are like so ANTI-social.. me n gwen was damn bored...

Gonna abandon my BF the next time i wanna have fun at clubs! LOl..

Music sucks, crowd sucks.. Mos really sux.. so wat if its so big?! they should do something abt their bloody music can?!

Bump into some horrible things!

Horror 1: (Yucks!)

Our Famous Bit** from CT.. Geraldine (now, i dunno whos gonna read this but like i care? dont think i m the only one who hates her anyway..).. seeing her is bad enough.. seeing her dirty dancing with Hubert whom i USED to think is cute was WORST.... yucks.... frenching away..i couldnt help but scream my head off at the dance floor!! i hope i nv get to see such things ever again.. (i hate her.. so wat?!)

Horror 2:

This is not exactly something v horrible la.. but .. haha.. its definitely amusing..

My boyfriend was hit by another girl..

mind u, shes HOT.. pretty face and nice figure..LOl.. and gwen happens to know her... Gwen keep saying tt that girl is friendly..as if she don wan to believe tt my bf is being hit by tt girL! lOl..

Wat happened was, we were dancing in the SMOOVE room.. and he was standing next to the fence.. then this group of pple was outside drinking.. so wat seperates tt girl and him was that wired fence..

Initially she was chatting w her friends.. (i saw wat happened cos i was facing the fence).. then all of a sudden.. she was grinding the fence..facing my bf.. real hard! as if trying to get him to grind w her or smth..LOL..

Before long, my dear started smoking .. tt strike a conversation..

Her: Do u know tt u cant smoke in there (dance floor)?
Him: DIn know.. then how?
Her: You should come out and smoke and accompany me to dance... (waahahahahah.. good pickup for a girl)
Him: Sorry, that girl in black tube (me) is my girlfriend..
Her: T__T (she showed him this face)

Damn farnee can... probably tt girl is drunk!!!! hohohohohoh.. he must have regretted not dancing w her.. hahahahah... next time, darling.. i will make myself scarce! LOL..

Daven and his friends got drunk.. it was around 3 am and a little while later, we all headed home.. stupid nite...

Slept till early noon on Sunday~ cooked simple lunch with dear and we went to rent some VCDs to pass the time since my parents went for a one day trip...

Nothing fantastic.. watched Whhite noise.. but the disc was problematic..

there goes my weekend..

spend time w my dear and time with my bestie Gwen...

Rating = Good.

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5:29 PM

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First thing in the morning in the office.. i m gonna blog~

Bestie was v understanding of the entire situation (although she still insists that we can be friends.. well.. we can be.. but after i lost interest in him.. i.e Daryl's case).. i m so happy!

Was so afraid she couldnt understand.. or gets offended~

Din expect her to delete his no on her phone too! she did it for ME!

Hehe.. thanks girl.. Love u so much~ u are the impt one in my life too!!

Thanks Kailin too!

I will let u know once i have sorted things out~

see ya on sat! I dont mind joining TF.. but dunnno his family mind or not.!

Haiz.. 3 days continuous of school and work is driving me nuts..I even thought for foregoing e mj session tonite to catch some precious sleep.. but hanzi has set everything.. so ya~will be there!

MY eyes are closing.. i m so so so so so tired..

Gwen is going to visit Kimmeh at Canada, how i wish i could go w her..

Spore's too boring.. ! but the futhest dear can bring me to is JB for one day now~ sian.. cos hes going over seas soon.. can take much leave..

I wanna save up! and go overseas w him or friends this year!!!!!

Taiwan, Thailand.. if save enough i wanna go Japan.. NO JOKE!

Lets say one month i save 300 la.. its gonna take me 4 mths to save 1200.. enough to go Taiwan..

But 300 is too much.. mm.. maybe 200 per month? then i will take 6 mths..

Just nice dear ORD.. wahah...

SET!

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8:34 AM

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I am in a very foul mood lately..

My Shuffle is spoilt.. theres no music when i travel to work, to school eveyday.. tts v sucky..

I am easily worked up.. take for example, Kenee's incident.. it doesnt really affect me and i m not sad.. but the tot of him agitates me greatly~

I lost interest in work... as u can see.. i m blogging this during office hour.. as well as the past few posts.. while everyone is doing their work.. i was blogging.. reading blogs and more blogs..

I lost my drive..i cant concentrate in class..

I dont feel like stepping out of the house but yet i yearn for fun~

I dunno wats wrong w me..

I got the spending ability but i cant do shopping... i will just get fed up then walk out..

i wanna talk to friends.. but i dunno wat i want to say~

NO one understands...

I .. Feel.. So... Unwell.....

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3:08 PM

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Last nite..

received a sms from Weihao..asking if i wanna meet up to chat... tt was like 11 pm.. i was on my way home from school..

I agreed cos its been v long since i last saw him.. and even longer since the last time we had a nice talk..

He offered to come over to my area..so i asked if he wanted to come up for a drink since my mom still miss him..

He reached my place shortly after 12am.. he talked to my mom.. and i can see my mom was quite glad to see him again and was enjoying the chat~

kept wondering if he feels uncomfortable sitting in that familiar place w familiar pple but distant feeling..

CHatted till one.. could feel his awkward.. brought him downstairs to continue.. just me and him..

Hes so thin now... haiz.. army really suck him dry..

In between our conversations.. his tone was depressed.. especially when we talked abt last year..he told me last year pass by v fast.. alot of things happened.. but all were bad....

Does he mean our breakup?? I dunno... No guts to ask him..

He tried to smile whenever i look at him.. he tried to cover that depressed look.. i know hes got a lot to share.. but we just talked abt other pple's things..

He started smoking... i got no comments... hes like giving himself up and theres nothing for me, as a friend, can do to help...

I dont wan him to smoke..
i dont wan him to drink..
I dont wan him to lose himself..as a friend..

Only as a friend.. wat else can i be?

Always got pple asking me.. "If he ever wants u back.. will u leave your bf for him?"

My answer will be No..

We tried.. it din work out.. and it will nv work out...

Moreover, given his character.. he wouldnt want me back... cos he would rather be sad himself than letting me suffer with him...

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2:05 PM

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Comtemplated for sometime before i decided putting these into words..

Talked to Kailin on way home yesterday.. and she told me i should "tell her nicely".

But i dunno how to tell her in the face..

Maybe writing over here will be a better idea....

Note: If this doesnt concern u..u may choose to read on..then dont bother to ponder over wat i said.. can stop reading here..

To my bestie out there,

You know how it feels like when u are the link person but ur 2 friend just started contacting and going out without u .. i.e TingFeng and Jas case..

Its like, well, Kenee's my friend and u are my friend and he started contacting u when hes not contacting me anymore..

it isnt ur fault cos u arent the one who initiated..

I m not trying to make some Hoo-Hah abt this thing. just wanna tell u how i feel in case u don understand..

I felt kinda insulted by his actions..... just take it that i m low life la..

I just hope u dont contact him.. for my sake.. for my feelings... and my 'ego'..

at least for now.. when eveyrthing is still fresh.. and i m v determined to break contact w him.. and i cant do it if he keeps circling the pple around me.. esp my best friend..

I hope u can understand where i m coming from.. and not be offended becos i m selfish..

Haiz.. ok.. starting to sound super silly rite here.. but.. ya.. continue..

I also know u will keep bumping into him in town..tt cant be help....and theres really nothing i can do abt tt..

Whether or not u can understand this entry, u are still my best friend.. and if u still feel like contacting him.. u are still my best friend...

Just kinda hoping tt i can feel better soon~ cos tt feeling sucks..as i m still an ultra sensitive person..

Hope i dont sound too harsh over here.. cos i really don .. =) and i hope u can understand..

and if this make u upset or angry in anyway.. i m sorry.. pls let me know if that happens..

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8:45 AM

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First of all.... Happy New Year to all...

4 days of slacking and now finally back to work..

A fresh me..a brand new year..

Shall spend more time with my friends and those who love me..

Not gonna waste my time on uncertainties anymore..

Anyway.. it was a POCKET-FULL-FULL new year for me! Total Red packets amounts to $704 till now...yup.. but gonna giv ehalf to my mom anyway..

I din club.. i din play mahjong.. all i did was playing poker at my house with my cousins .. hehe.. won quite a bit... around $50 bucks.. but spend it all on cab fare la..

Chinese New Year Eve.

Dinner with UNcles and Cousin at Thai Village .. shark fins great.. other than tt.. nothing great..met up with dear after dinner for movie.. wanted to watch I Not STupid 2 but ended up catching Dick & Jane. Not v nice.. a boring comedy.. or probably i wasnt paying much attention to the movie.. haha..

Chu 1

Went to Uncle's house Bai Nian. Got lots of Hong Bao (from there as usual) and had nice nice home cook food~ my aunt is a great cook

Wanted to go out so badly. and since i miss Gwen so i msg her asking her if theres any plans later on.. she wanted MJ but tt reason cant buy my mom since my cousins will b playing at home~

Gwen said want to go town! and i was dying to get out of the house so with the help of my cousins and all.. my "VISA" was granted! haha.. but only to know Gwen n Hanzi decided to catch movie at YIshun.. sian..

Decided to meet up w my dear again.. to catch I Not Stupid Too.. i knew he will be late.. so i drop by Ben's place to pay him a visit...

I MISS HIM SO MUCH..!!!!!!!!!!! i dont care his gf or whoever is gonna read this.. but i just wanna tell everyone tt i miss him and the talk was really great!! its gd to see him again... and the idea of driving somebody to her grave is simply~ WOOT!

OOpps.. =XXX

No slots again.. so din meet up w dear..

Chu 2..

The other group of cousins came early noon to visit.. so good to see them! cos we are all around the same age and always have a lot of fun hanging out.. had a lot of rounds of poker.. and i won 40 over dollars.. just kept winning and winning.. hohoho....

Went to see their new house at Yew Tee after that.. they also wanted to watch I Not Stupid 2.. haha.. but in the end we din bother to do it cos one of my aunt offered to treat us dinner at Boon Lay Raja.. my 2nd Yusheng.. starting to dislike tt taste~

Too much of something is nv good~

Gwen jio to go MOS~ but then i cant go home late if not my mom will be mad at me.. so i din go.. din really want to waste the 20 bucks for 2 hrs of music.. just not worth it.. =)

NO SLOTS FOR I NOT STUPID 2 AGAIN!

fine.. so me n dear headed home when his mahjong at TPY was cancelled..

Was on cab when Gwen msg me that she saw Kenee... at MOS of cos..

well.. it was kinda expected.. and the next msg was like..

"We said Hi and Happy CNY.. and he was hugging another girl. ya"

Heart drop.

but wasnt broken.. i tot i will go crazy and start hitting the things on the cab... prolly scream.. i waited for it to burst. maybe tears flowing..or calling gwen up and scream..

But i didnt. i did none of the above

I was v calm.

Seems to me shes always the one breaking these kinda news to me la.. haha.. last time was Ben, then Daryl etc etc.. now is Kenee... ahaha... shes really my best friend after all.. waking me up at the most critical moment...

& for some reason.. i actually felt relieved.. probably becos i know i don have to keep telling myself what a great guy he is n cant give him up~ now that i know hes not simple.. and hes just like any other guys around..

so i gaf him a RED CARD.. and out of my life, he goes~~

No more Kenee,i can change now.. and not afraid of losing someone whom i tot was a RARE SPECIES.. Hmm.. theres no rare species afterall..

End of Kenee-&-Me..but i cant hate him.. cos he has all the rite to be with another girl or fling or ONS or watsoever.. cos hes not commited to me.. so he doesnt owe me anything~

Doesnt have to guess anymore.. finally see thru u..

Chu 4

Dear came over to Bai Nian.. accompanied me till noon..we had a small fight in front of my mom..cos i wanted to go back on my words to visit his place.. and he was dying to bring me home~ but in the end, it was my mom actully told me i should go.. so i went..

First time i saw his mom.. not v friendly.. but he say thats her.. well.. i just don think i will get along w her la.. she gaf me an ANg Pow and then went out..

Hmm.. After the visit to his house, we went to his friend's Kenny's place.. cos again, he was eager to show me to his best friend, WeiXiang..so i oblige since its CNY..

Showed up for the sake of showing up.. had a few games of Poker and we went off to see I NOT STUPID 2!! hhaa. finally rite..

O.. and i had Yusheng for the 3rd time~ =X

It wasnt tt fantastic as i tot it would be.. but i guess its worth it la..

So this was how i spend my 4 days of CNY~ kinda boring i know.. no clubbing and no mahjong..

DUnno when wil be the next time i gonna club again lo~

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8:43 AM