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Mm.. finally received the photos taken by SNAG the other nite at clubbing.. so long already.. tot no more le..

Somehow i think it looks abit weird.. am i this dark?? mm..

Went Momo last nite.. it was mad.. first tiem i went clubbing i was drunk.. but it was super dun like Kailin promised me.. thanks girl.. it was really fun..

It was ZhanPeng's bday.. met few new pple like darren, jeffrey and this guy name Ah Doink..

shall talk abt this ah doink later..

Saw some familiar faces.. like tengjay, zhixiong and not forgetting my Ben.. mmm.. could have sign him in..but then since hes going with his gf.. i don think it will be nice.. ..gave him a hug..

O.. cos i went there straight after my class.. it was really a coincidence that i met kelvin.. the pangwei's friend on my way there.. haha.. so he was supposed to be heading home.. but since he saw me he tot its fated for him to go down momo.. haha.. so we went down tog.. he taught me how to take bus down.. haha.. to save some money.. he wanted to sign me in as well la.. but then he went to look for his friends instead..

Drinks came around 1.. and i don rememebr how much i drink..but i remember everyone was drinking.. and zhanpeng was really gone.. i think i was seh for almost 3 hours.. before i regain my conscious.. i knew wat was happening.. but its jsut blur.. and i was v high.. and yeah..

of cos when pple is high... pple do stupid things.. its about ah doink.. i just remmeber he pulled me up from my seat cos i was resting.. but he asked me to dance it off.. so ya.. i was dancing.. and once again.. like i say.. i was really high.. and so is kailin and carol.. so they were dancing away.. and for god's sake.. i was dirty dancing with ah doink.. bleah..

I don remmeber much.. i just remmeber i kept hearing Kailin screaming behind me .. like AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH........ cos i was being so called NOTTI.. bt i seriously high.. thanks to all the drinks.. and to add on to the scandalous part.. i kissed him... bleah.. again.. i heard kailin's scream and felt zhanpeng's hand pulling me away..

Blur for awhile then he suggested i should rest at the seat.. so we stepped off the platform and sat down.. and we started chatting.. and again.. becos i was so HIGH.. when he asked me to be his gf.. i agreed.. yes.. boys and girls.. i am attached to this guy i did dirty dancing with.. great..

Got to know him better.. he doesnt sound like such a bad guy la.. kailin think hes ok too.. so ya.. at teh getting to know him better stage.. at least he can take care of me .. unliek some bloody idiot name DARYL..

before i move on to Daryl.. i would like to declare here that .. i m still in the get to know him better stage and he din try to be funny with me .. i can take care of myself.. and will know when i should back off.. and NO MORE i m going to do silly things that will hurt or affect me.. i promise.. so pls don worry for me ok.. *hugs*

Back to daryl.. well.. i msg him to ask if he wan to come momo with me.. cos he wanted to drink earlier on.. he then call me back..

Daryl: Why ur phone off..
Me: Cos low batt, trying to save some batt..
Daryl: ok.. i going velvet.. come with us la.. friend's bday
Me: I cant go in.. so nvm la..
Daryl: Rick ask u come leh.. anyway.. we will be going phuture and zouk first lo..
Me: Its ok la.. u all enjoy..
daryL: then ok lo.. next time ba..
Me: Mmm.. see how lo.. cos i think i will stop clubbing for awhile..
Daryl: Why.. why u like that?
Me: Huh? i like wat.. i have to stop for my school and money's sake..
Daryl: Haiz.. ok.. tell u wat if later i coming i give u a call ok?
Me: DOn need la.. ur friend at velvet bday then u just stay there lo..
daryl: *silence* then where are u now..
Me: outside my school lo..
Me: ok la.. anything u just call me lo.. cos i will divert my phone to my friend's phone.. enjoy ya..

Haiz.. wanted to go with him la.. but then i tot i shouldnt.. so i headed to momo.. maybe tts why i dirnk so much.. i remmeber theres this point of time i was also screaming.. cos i was v aggitated by him.. i was SEh.. so i used KL phone to msg him..

Me: hey.. i m drunk.. can i go home with u?
DaryL: i m now stuck at zouk.. rick gone too.
Me: O.. ok.. nvm then..
DaryL: i just carried 2 friends out..

And then he called.. but i told kailin i don wanna picked up.. and he never call again..

After e party.. me and kailin and carol were still high.. so kailin was lying at this area looking at the sky.. silly girl.. alot seems to be bothering her.. i understd how she feels la actually.. just go with ur heart ok girl? hope u will sort out eveyrthing soon my dear.. i m here to support u..

Tried calling that idiot who play me out but he din ans.. bet he is having his scandalous nite too..

Went for midnite curry at Punggol with the group and then after that Ah doink wanted to send me home.. but for god's sake! he lives in Jurong west lo.. the cab damn chor la.. we argue v long .. but he still insisted that he send me home.. haiz.. but then in the end.. we loiter till 6 so tt there wont be midnite charge le lo..

slept at 7..woke up at 12..

shared the first hand news with my bestie, gwen.. and only to find out that .. daryl did call her up last nite.. prob becos he cant find me???

SiGh..

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9:33 PM

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A beautiful saturday afternoon.. decided to stay home and rest and blog my afternoon away..

Updating the pictures from Genting as i promised u guys.. =)

Happy happy! On the bus, marking the start of our getaway!

Theres only 5 passengers on the bus.. really enjoy the journey there.. cos we got all the space.. left our luggage everywhere.. lol.. and the stars and coolness of the nite.. =)

And since we got nothing to do.. and got inspired by our dear grace.. we started posing funny poses..

9 and er..10??

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The ride to the mid stop at Ayer Hitam took us about 2 hours.. we played games and took pictures and some of us taking rest after a long day of me.. and thats me.. ahah.. Hanzi reommended the Ice cream stall to us.. cos she says scoops are v big and nice flavours!

Image hosted by Photobucket.com Me and Gwen sharing this waffle with Vanilla Berry and Raisin ice cream.. hehe..RM4.. cheap cheap.. *eyeing the waffle*

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After our supper.. the journey to our destination continue.. most of us were tired by then.. haha..so i was catching some eye rest.. but becos of the waffle.. my stomach was v bloated.. so couldnt really sleep well.. then all of us wake up to talk and play some games.. and continue munching food.. haha..

Reached our desti around 4 am in the morning.. it was colder than i can remember.. but i love th cold! Hanzi, on the other hand, was freezing.. she cant take the cold.. bleahz.. she commented that i m not human being.. well.. i m .. haha..

Finally reach our destination! *smiley* .. wheres yinghan?? cant stand the cold.. squating on the floor.. wahhahahaha

Proceed to the hotel to Queue for our registration.. Hanzi and Grace used their "Auntie Spirit" and chiong to Q.. so it got us quite a good place in the Q.. while waiting for the registration to start.. we decided to eat again! some titbits we got.. and posing for them.. .

Image hosted by Photobucket.com Me grace and yu..and e roller coasterS!

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haha.. this is a no image photo.. i m becoming like the other 3.. no image.. wahhaa.. *sticks tongue*

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The titbits Trio!

Got our Q no. but as we cant check in.. we went to explore the whole place.. even though we have been there many many times.. but its still exciting!

Of cos.. the first thing we do is to have our breakfast.. and the only place that is open at am in the morning is this noodle shop.. similiar to our Ajisen in Singapore.. me and Gwen shared this v nice Penang Prawn noodle.. Yummy..

After that we went outdoors for the early breeze! So nice!!..

Its really freezing out there.. so we have to chop chop.. but ended up taking alot of shots..

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we took a total of 10 shots or more.. and my favourite goes to..

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cos hanzi finally realise by taking a vertical shot.. everyone can be captured.. don need to squeeze.. -_-

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We are freezing.. Brrr....

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me and gwen.. i like this one.. v misty.. as if we are in some far away country..

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Presenting Genting Highland!

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SErene: looking right..
Gwen: Lookin left..
Grace: Dunno what u 2 doing!

DUe to the weather.. hanzi suggested going back indoor.. and we went to explore the entire place.. all the way till 9 and we went to the lobby waitin to check in..

Checked in shortly after 10.. rest till 11 and we headed to the KTV for lunch.. the K lunch there is like so cheap.. RM 8.. and the Nasi lemak is superb..

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Went shopping around after lunch.. and dinner was at KFC suggested by Gwen..

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The meal consist of 2 VERY BIG piece chicken, coleslaw, mashed potato, wedges and drink. costing RM13.

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Feasting at KFC@!

Dessert for me was fruits, while hanzi and grace opted for chocolate coated watermelon.. and me and gwen saw this thing we really hope to bring back to singapore..

The chocolate Fountain!!!!

Nite ended with movie fantastic 4..

Day 2.

Breakfast was cup noodles..headed straight to the theme park.. but due to weather conditions, a lot of rides were not operating..

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Ice cream on such cold weather.. COOL!

ACt cute Trio in action again!

4 of us at the theme park..

DEcided to take cable car instead of walking back to genting hotel for our lunch..

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"See wat see.. we anti social one ok.."

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The lovely couple: " haha.. we look more friendly.."

After lunch, some shopping then some theme park again..

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me and gwen in ferris wheel..

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Day 3

Started the day with breakfast at macdonalds.. some last minute packing and we checked out..

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in the hotel room.. preparing to set off..

Headed for some last minute shopping and arcade ended the whole trip..

on our way back..

Image hosted by Photobucket.com hanzi just like to stick her head in lo.. its supposed to be me and gwen only..

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Chicks..

we finally took this when hanzi din realise.. look@ so nice without her face! haha..

trip ended with a tired mind and body..as i said.. its a really nice trip.. looking forward to the next one.. thanks girlS!

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5:32 PM

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Fell aslp on e bed last nite when my msn was on.. sorry.. guess i din reply to quite a few pple..

I realised tt i cant go all out to prove to him tt i m worth it.. cos i don think hes worth it.. i kept recalling those times when i first knew him.. and the Daryl recently.. i really don like him now.. he told me his internet access was cut off cos he din pay.. so wat and why and how is he doing on MSN at 1am in the morning..

I m starting to Question.. but theres no ans.. but i also realise that i have no right to demand anything..

I was online the entire nite.. his mode keep switching from Busy to Online.. guess he is gaming.. from 11 to 3 am.. we din click on each other.. but my mode was On The Phone.. woke up at 3.. and to find tt he did click on me..

Dary: Nitez

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4:45 PM

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I seriously dunno whats happening regarding me and him..

just really in the noon today.. me and kailin decided to go all out for the one we like.. for me, its daryl.. and for her.. her G.. was really excited since i have made up my mind to be firm with my stand.. tt is to make him feel that i m a worthwhile gf..

So.. i msg him to ask him if he will be free tonite.. i am going to buy him dinner.. his reply was better than expected.. he said he will call me after his interview at 5..so i waited.. and waited..

5..6..then 7.. the call nv came.. went town to meet my girls..was really moody initally.. until his call came at around 8..

He told me he just got something from his friend.. and is at Boat QUay.. and since i was supposed to buy his dinner.. i asked if he had his dinner.. he said ya.. then i was like a bit piss lo.. i waited for him to take dinner.. but ended up he already ate.. so i was saying .. i got nohting to say.. then i ask him to go home since hes full and carrying the stuffs.. but he insisted that he come down to meet me for dinner.. "UNless u don wan to see me la.." after some arguement.. he decided to come down..

Intro him to my girls so that they can judge him for me.. my girls tink he looks decent.. and tt includes weiling.. weird.. o.. and its beeen super long since i last met her.. glad tt shes a happy girl now..

Met Yu and Shawn at Yoshi for dinner.. after tt met up with mery and stella again to chill at Rocky master.. well.. hes making me sick of him..

Its v weird.. cos whenever i m with him.. i don feel really attracted to him.. or have tt special feeling.. its only when i am not with him.. wat does this show??

I hope i can lose my feelings for him soon.. cos hes really not my type.. arent cute.. nor humorous.. and he likes me lecture me.. he said i was IMPRACTICAL since i shopped at Genting.. etc etc..

On our way home there was some misunderstanding.. and he tried his v best to explain to me.. before he alighted form the bus.. he told me to msg him when i reach home.. but he later change his mind and said he will call me later..

He commented tt i smile 200% more after i return from my genting trip..

And he also told me tt he has watched Sin city and Fantastic 4.. and since most of the time he is spending the time with me or so called sleeping.. where does he have the spare time to meet other pple ?? i am starting to be dubious abt his words..

I hope i can lose this infatuation soon.. and live my bloody life away from his.. its making me mad... got no strength to hang on at all.. siGh..

I CANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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12:15 AM

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SUddenly tot of my dearest Kailin..

Guess shes having her date with her crush.. i m so envious.. .. guess she will find her happiness soon..

Where is mine?

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8:50 PM

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Had an early rest last nite.. trying my best to recall abt the trip so that i can update here..

The trip was great!!! guess its becos its with my dearest friends! and we have been longing for this getaway since Secondary graduation.. and i was looking forward for this trip so that i can take my mind of unhappy things .. haha...

I love the journey there.. cos.. theres only 5 person on the bus.. and yes.. since there are 4 of us.. theres only one stranger in the entire bus.. an uncle.. whaha.. we were chaotic ..wats new.. looking at stars and chatting and catching up..

The moments we reached there.. i wasnt feelin really welll.. i could feel my tears rolling in the corner of the eyes.. i tried to control it.. i don wanna scare my friends.. but they noticed it anyway.. and mao's consolation made my tears flow.. i was reminded of weihao. the exact place we took photos.. we sat.. that merry-go-round.. everything is the same.. but hes not with me anymore...............................

Well.. the 4 of us did something which most of those pple who have been to genting find it weird.. ahaha.. guess wat??? SHOPPING , that is.. .. don say other pple.. i myself have been there like 4 or 5 times.. but i have nv shopped there before! and i just din know the stuff there could be so damn cheap!!! luckily we jsut went to genting.. imagine we stop over at KL... i will have spend my whole months pay!!!

Gwen bought the most.. grace bought the least..i m e first runner up.. but e difference between me and gwen is tat, she bought the things mostly for others.. as for me.. the things i bought are mostly for myself@!!! sorry dudes.. if i din get u guys anything.. pardon me.. cos u guys should know i don really shop in Singapore.. bt over there i really see one buy one..Wahaha.. let me surprise u guys with the things i bought and the prices i got them at!

- 3 bags from radioactive (one sling, one handbag, one shoulder-carry) @ RM25 each
- 1 skirt @ RM 23.70
- 1 B.U.M Equipment wallet @ RM 37 (U.P 139, sold at 70% lesser)
- 1 Pencil case @ RM12
- 1 Watch @ RM39.9
- 1 pair of heels @ RM31
- 1 bra from blush @ RM39
- 1 wrist rest @ RM6.90
- 1 Calendar Clock@ RM16.90
- Lots of titbits/ FOod @ RM30 ++
- 2 Polo Tees @ RM 20 each

theres more.. but i cant remember already..but actually i like tt see like nothing much leh.. but i carried 4 big bags in total la! Almost jam the scanning belt at the custom! so paiseh..

my star buy goes to my BUM wallet! all thanks to Gwen for spotting e value buy!

All in all, i think i only spend about $200 for shopping..or lesser..

Went to the theme park with my girls.. i could sense the "suicidal" mood in me.. ahha.. why i say so?? those who went theme park with me before.. should know i m damn timid one lo.. i din expect myself to join them for most of the rides (except for the 2 most scariest one) .. haha.. guess my guts got bigger the more i hang with Gwen.. cos she gave all her guts to me liao..well.. i m surprised by myself too..

And after this trip.. i realise i m becoming as nasty as them le.. normally i m the one keeping the order in the group.. but now i m joiining in the chaos.. and gwen said she will nv be gentle with me already! Opps..haha..

Ahaha.. so.. 2 change in me after the trip!

Also watched movie for both nites.. Fantastic 4 and The island... watching The island e second time i simply a torture when i m sick and tired... it was really a torture.. and hanzi didnt allow me to go back to the hotel room alone due to safety reasons.. so ya.. i had my worst show ever..

The weather there was good! Colder than usual.. but i simply love the cold.. unlike the other 3.. haha/.. cant stand e cold.. haha..

We just spend the days shopping and slacking and plenty of EATING as well.. haha.. love the doughnuts!

We even hit the arcade the last few hours before departing from Genting.. haha.. played DDR and Para like mad.. reminds me of the younger days..

Shall update the pictures once the girls send it to me.. bleahz..

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8:13 PM

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STill kinda excited over the genting trip during the past weekend.. it was supposed to be a get away to make my self feel better.. and yup.. with my little angels around.. i did feel better.. 3 days without any contact with pple in singapore.. feels kinda carefree..

Words was going thru my mind on my way home so that i can blog abt my trip..

But.. a big mistake when i came back.. i went 2 see his blog.. i feel so..hopeless all of a sudden..

there has always been that special person in his heart.. but i din know it was her still.. tot the failure in our rship is due to another person who came along.. i tried to put the blame on others.. but only to find out that, i wasnt able to let him love me like he loved her..thats the only failure..

Hes e best bf i ever had.. i was the happiest when i was with him.. i nv had that kinda feeling before..probably becos it was short.. i treasure the rship we had.. i had an infautation with Daryl cos Daryl behaves totally like him..

and seriously.. hes the only person i feel like getting back with but at the same time i know its impossible..

The rship we had probably don even mark a part of his life.. but it still remains as impt to me..

Perhaps.. he thinks that i will forget him in a matter of time.. but i didnt.. sad to say that i don think hes no longer sorry for the pain he brought me.. i dont want him to either..

I dont wanna admit.. but i really miss him..terribly..

Its only the memories we had left in me.. .. ..

Listening to: Mr. Lonely..

So hapi.. but now so lone.y..

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12:04 AM

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Was supposed to be home early tonite to pack my things and get rest for my trip.. SiGh.. but i just reached home..

Wonder where i went??

Here goes..

Day started with some work of cos.. a lil bz today.. then on my MSN..

DaryL: Sick.. =(
Me: aiyo.. better tc..

*Followed by lots of crapz*

Daryl: clubbing tonite ar?
Me: Ya
Daryl: Got girls?
Me: (sian half) ya..can intro u..
Daryl: WeeeehEeeeeeee...

Haiz.. i dunno.. just got this feeling tt both of us is trying to GEK each other with words.. i kpt telling him abt my guy friends.. while he talk abt girls.. and even comment in front of me..

But sometimes, he will comment that, well, i have got a lot of guys around me.. treating me nice..

all of a sudden when i was busy with my work..

DaryL: wat time u finsih work.. want me go fetch u?
Me: DOn need la... will jam
Daryl: u meet me smwhere else la.. then wont jam lo..
Me: Then wats e pt of fetching me.. aha..
DAryL: (cant remember wat he said)
Me: Dont want la.. mad leh u... sick then stay home la.. i maybe got class..
DaryL: recover liao.. talk to u better liao.. got class then after dinner i fetch u there lo..

wanted to see him, so i agreed.. who knows.. i gotta OT.. by the time i finsihed was already 730.. tired and pissed.. decided not to go to school..

Went for dinner and after tt went to Bishan walk walk.. supposed to go town find ah Gwen.. but jam.. so ya.. we dropped e idea.. he suggested Bishan.. dunno why also.. nothing to do.. then he wanted to go compass point to see phone.. bt at the same time he wan to watch a movie.. so we were loitering round and round J8 and cant come out with any plan..cos we wanted to chill at wine bar with rick etc.. but cant seem to get the plan rite.. and hes sick.. so he scared the theatre will be cold.. took us half an hr to finally decide to watch a movie.. and to keep him warm.. i lend him my PINK shawl.. wahhaah..

930, The Island.. its nice in a way cos its abt cloning.. but its too draggy.. the show was 2 hrs long.. and i was damn cold.. so i guess i din really enjoy e show..

After the show, ZhaoXin called.. asked me to get back with him.. i was really pissed.. don wish to elaborate..

WEnt for supper at geylang.. on the way we were talking .. n he mentioned abt his that Girl friend who lend him the car he is drivin now.. i always don think their rship is simple.. who would lend a CAR to a friend??? ya.. and he mentioned her.. saying tt she msg him to fetch her just now.. but he lied to her that hes aslp.. somehow.. it made me v uneasy.. i dunno how they are related.. but i don think its simple.. or maybe i just ttm again?? her msg to him is "GOodnite sweetie.." mm.. normal not? i dunno.. haiz.. i msg pple like these too.. but..

Anyway.. it was again a long talk on way home.. abt his work.. although its v long.. and i don really understand.. but i m glad he went on and on.. when he couldnt finish.. i invited him to enter.. to finish what he wanted to say..

When he left.. i got the urge of hugging him.. but i din.. din want to give him the wrong signals.. haiz.

It was a great evening.. we had lots of laugh.. and it was really enjoyable.. he tried holding my hand whenever we tried to cross the road..he also commented tt he cliques v well with me..

As wat i can see now.. i don think we are going to get together.. we are just gonna remain like this.. good or bad.. time wil tell..

Looking forward to tml nite.. was supposed to meet him for Delifrance tml .. but really no time..

SiGh...

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2:47 AM

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I am writing this entry becos...

I am finally talking to BEN.. wah finally lo...

And i m trying to tell him.. how grateful i m talking to him now..

cos i know he can ans all my queries... but i choose not to ask him tho..

but he said something which i think is v true..

just 3 words.. he1 bi4 ne1? (hanyu pin yin)

Yeah.. WHY.. why i choose all these miseries sia.......

I seriously miss Ben.. idiot.. u better come out and mit me soon!

For some reason.. he can always make me feel better... QueeR!

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2:00 AM

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Was on the bus today.. so crowded.. saw this sweet couple..

the girl was sleeping on the shoulder.. and wrapping his hands around his arm.. for some reason.. i m so envious..

When was e last time i actually lie on someone's shoulder? tt peaceful and sweet feeling.. guess it was before me and gerald got together ba.. i just miss having someone special by my side.. but i know.. Daryl wont be the one..

Upcoming genting trip in 2 days.. i wont be in spore for the weekend.. i m so happy.. finally a getaway.. but somehow or rather.. i m afraid of that place.. tt familiar place..

Just went there last yr with Weihao.. everything is still fresh in my mind.. hope i can be strong enough to face it.. i don wan my mood to affect my friends..

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11:27 PM

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Back from supper at Serangoon with Rick n Daryl again.. it was a fast supper.. go and back..

The only reason for me to go is becos Daryl gave his old monitor to me.. he bring it to my house with Rick and fixed it for me.. i m grateful.. cos my old monitor is v blur.. the colour is dull.. so ya.. he brought his monitor over .. and i m grateful.. ya.. he came over with rick to bring the monitor over and fix it before we go for the supper.. happy now tt i can read better.. all thanks to daryl and his monitor..

yeah.. i know i m repeating the some pts over and over again.. SHIT.. i think its coming back.. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!! go away pls...... ......

SigH.. whenever i see couples nowadays.. i m like so envious.. although single is good.. but i m one who needs companionship..

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1:35 AM

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Every new person i meet in my life.. i learnt new things.. by usually in a hard way..

saturday noon.. woke up around 1 pm in the noon.. he called and ask me to go TPY with him to meet his friend.. i declined.. continue slping..till evening time received a msg from Rick, asking if we want to supper together.. and since i had nothing to do after 11.. so i tot.. why not?~ so i said ya.. no prob..

But i was suspicious.. why is rick the one who asked me and not daryl? so i sent a msg to him and ask if he is coming.. his reply was.. "u wanna come black?" .. then i was confused.. so its black or supper.. only for me to realised in the end..Rick did not ask Daryl along..

i mean.. why? Daryl was the one who intro me and gwen to rick.. dont he find it weird when he asked us to go eat without askin daryl?

So in the end, i agreed to meet Daryl at black instead.. and rick sounded quite pissed tt we are not joining him.. *shrug*

Anyway.. this was a crazy clubbing week for me after so long.. wed, fri and sat..

only decided to go down around 11 pm.. i was online then.. saw jasmine.. and she said shes going too! haha.. then i was like so happy.. got company liao.. in case i cant clique with daryl's case ( i m glad i went with jasmine anyway).. also.. Alex gong gong dai dai got pulled by us there too! haha..saw him on msn.. and i told him tt i will go pick him up in cab.. then he kana pull down for tnohing.. haha.. so poor thing..but really v long nv see him.. so good to see him..

anyway.. Q at black was madness.. we rch at 1230.. the Q din move at all.. only got pple giving up half way lo... Q for 2 hrs with jas and alex.. bobby came over too.. but in the end he chose to watch a movie instead.. mm..

230.. finally in black.. Woo.. e crowd sucks as usual.. but music was ok..had a hard time trying to look for daryl.. i gave up.. but he continued looking for me.. fianlyl after 1 hr or so.. met him..

Anyway.. my feeling for him simply diminished over the nite.. just like a miracle.. just like the way i lost my feelings for ben.. i got so turn off by him.. cos i can see how bastard he is.. NO.. he din dance with any girl.. just the way he behaves.. i really doesn tlike it.. so ya..

Clubbing seem so meaningless nowadays.. u see all weirdos and despos.. SigH.. its not fun anymore...

Like friday at coco latte with gwen, ming and lian jin.. the whole nite.. there was not a single soul tt i think looks acceptable.. i cant believe it! the only person tt caught my eyes was Anthony..

YES!! hes my nooch crush remember! wa.. i see him every where.. so got fate.. haha.. but i fail the chance to talk to him again.. bleahz..

Anyway.. for those who vividly rmemeber theres this so-called bf of mine in army.. yeah.. we broke up already.. haha.. but then again.. i don consider us being tog in the first place la.. aha..

life is back to normal.. hope daryl wont try to be nice to me .. or else.. i will have illusion again.. haha...

SO happy but now so lonely.............................................................................

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8:53 PM

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Yes. i admit.. i was very affected.. wed nite class i attended half way and went to slack with Kailin outside the LT.. reminds me of outr poly days..

we talked alot.. basically abt each others life.. i m so sorri i made her worry for me.. but being such an insensible girl.. playing with my feelings.. siGh.. its not gonna work.. i m not gonna be a player.. cos i cant.. i m sure shes not the only one..

she said alot.. that makes me think shes prob rite.. i also manage to
calm down.. and give up waiting for his call.. its true.. he might not think that i m worth loving anyway.. since i appear so insincere to him.. and he caught me lying to him a few times..

Rushed to Zouk after work.. tot its gonna be a wonderful clubbing nite.. but it was such a disappointment.. basically.. its the crowd in phuture.. i don wish to elaboarate.. but.. it really disgusts me..

Was there with Gwen, Xiong, KhaiKhin, Kat and Cynthia (some1 new)..shocked by the crowd in zouk.. its v packed.. and there was a pretty long Q..

Half way thru.. he called..i din picked up.. followed by his msgs..

Daryl: Slp le ma?
Me: Nah
Daryl: ON the phone again?
Me: In Zouk
Daryl: ok. enjoy then. i going to bed le.

Choose not to reply to him.. but i was kinda happi tt he called..it was around 130 am then...

Headed home after the party.. the moment i alighted from the taxi.. he called again.. it was 4am..

Daryl: where are u now..
Me: Just got down from taxi.. why u haven sleep..
Daryl: Dunno.. cannot slp leh..
Me: tot u say u going to slp..
Daryl: dunno.. u not tired ar.. clubbing and working ..
Me: OK lo..i slept alot the other day just to accompany Gwen.. and v long no club with her..
Daryl: its not like tt one lo.. doesnt mean u eat ytd then u dun need eat today wat..
Me: haha.. okok..Call me back in 5 ok..

asked him to call back cos i m getting into the lift.. scared no reception.

I got home.. wash up.. and he still hasnt called.. so i decided to call him back..

Daryl: Wah i waited for ur call till i want to slp le leh..
Me: Told u to call me back in 5 min wat.. but i tot u say u cant slp..
daryl: Ya lo.. cant slp.. tot u still outside so i call u see how u
Me: haha.. ok..u are tired la.. go slp ba..
Daryl: ya.. i going slp le.. u pls go to slp too ok?
Me: (reemphasizing the pt) tot u say u cant slp..
Daryl: Dunno leh.. but tired now.. call u tml ok.. nite..

Cant get to slp after tt..called gwen.. and she told me theres a possibility that he is waitin for me to reach hm safely then slp.. (anyway.. sorry girl.. i have brough up the unhappy things in u..)

Dunno if i should be positive abt all these all wat..

Next day morning.. i rec his sms..

Daryl: Morning. Super tired leh. u?
Me: Morning. Me too. Half dead. ><

*followed by lots of crap.. he tried asking me abt last nite at zouk

Saw him online later..

Daryl: u wan curry puff?
Me: curry puff?
Daryl: Yah. the one crispy on the outside.. curry potato on the inside.."
Me: haha.. i want leh.. but here nv sell..
Daryl: I wanna share the curry puff with you.
Me: haha.. stupid leh u.. eat half way le then tell me u wanna share..
Daryl: I havent eat..
Daryl: i wont eat until u eat..
Me: siao.. better eat la.. if nto cold le..
Daryl: i will keep it for u.. meanwhile i keep between my legs to keep it warm..

haha.. in the end.. nope.. i din get the C puff.. but i m kinda moved by his sweet talk..

Then just nw was talking to him on MSn again.. he told me he is v disappointed in himself.cos he din finsih the assignment due today.. hes kinda down.. and i realised.. maybe all those things i think abt is too much.. hes just stressed and yet i m giving him pressure.. i hope things is really how i think it is..

Before he left.. he said " Sorry for not calling u.. stressed"

Felt so much better.. but we shall see how things goes...

i know we wont get together.. we will probably end up like my last rship.. but i just want him to treat me the same as before.. hope its not asking for much..

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9:29 PM

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AFter a few months.. i have finally heard from Gerald.. basically.. i received a msg from him.. asking me how i m and stuff.. hes doing fine.. in OCS.. and ya.. everything between us is rather normal now.. simply friends.. i m so glad that he msg me in e middle of some dispute between me and daryl.. wat an irony..

sigh.. gonna call him now.. mm..be it good or bad.. i must settle by tonite.....

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1:05 AM

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Eugene said, i am someone pathetic who has spend 19 years of my life not learning anything.. i tried defending myself but to realise.. well.. hes quite rite abt that.

At the age of 19.. going 20..theres alot of things i still haven learn..

Controlling my emotions.. saying NO.. giving up at the right moment..or fighting for my happiness..

1 pm in the office.. its after lunch.. feeling kinda low.. no idea why..looking forward to work end.. and so tt i can go to school.. not really becos of the class.. more of seeing my dearest kailin and hanzi..

Enough of fun for past weeks.. i m going back to my solitary mode..

I miss Ben.. very long nv hear from him. his msn is forever bz.. his tags are missing from my blog too..

*knock knock.. u there??

Guess i just have to stop replacing the space in my heart with anyone who comes along and leaves..its not doing me any good..

I tried.. to go on like i nv knew u.. i m awake.. but my world is half asleep..i pray.. for this heart to be unbroken..

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1:18 AM

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Thats it.. i have come to a decision towards Daryl, whom i have been seeing for 1 week..

Basically.. hes just another man... another man just like anyone u can easily find on the street.. MCP.. take me like a toy.. with his " i don wanna hurt u", "why are u so nice.." type of shit..

HELLO??????If you don wanna hurt me.....................then why are u rushing things???????????????????????

just stay away from me.. everyone knoews i m an emo girl.. by now.. u should have known... so just.. step out..

why cant we just be friends right from the start??

One is for me to learn.. 2 is enough.. i m sick of the 3rd.. pls do not let me meet the 4th.. FARKED..

Never..

Never am i gonna be fooled by this dumb thing called "INFATUATION" in men..

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2:31 PM

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My first day at work.. it was a breeze.. finally .. i feel like i am a human being.. not a spoilt brat slping at 4 and waking up at 4 pm .. well.. hope i can maintain this lifestyle for long..

of cos.. theres cons.. i din get to see daryl today..i can feel that theres a chemical change in us.. he msg me a few times.. but i don feel its enough.. issit just like wat others say? i m demanding more?

Is that longing feeling for him to call me, 'missing him'?

I dont want it to be that way...my life is in a mess..

Whos who?

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12:59 AM

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Back from the Movie, War of the World.. review wasnt good but me, rick, daryl and yu insisted on catching it.. well.. it was a treat from me.. cos.. rick has been driving me around for the whole of last week.. so ya..

I think it was good.. kinda scary tho.. its something like the day after tomorro... but its more on alien invasion than natural disaster..

More and more i feel attached to Daryl.. haiz..

we were supposed to be friends... siGh..

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3:15 AM

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For those pple whom i hasnt been seeing.. i have gotten myself a temp pxn in Singhealth.. starting work on Fri.. i will be desk bound for 3 months.. haiz.. it may be good.. got no time to think abt things..

I have just started my school.. rather fun.. cos back to study.. nothing much also..

ANd also.. everyday i have got Rick and Daryl to pick me up from school.. i m so spoilt nowafays.. mm..

Something unhappy happened between me and Daryl today.. siGh.. was supposed to settle with him thats why wanted to meet him after my shcool for dinner.. but RIck last minute came over and brought us to Macpherson for dinner..

Then went for spinning again.. From macpherson.. and went looking for Telok Blangah.. then Labrador park..then petrol station.. PSA.. then Mount Faber. then finally home.. i m enjoying the time spent with them.. but i don think i should reply on them too much.. yup..

I was tired in Rick's car.. almost fell aslp.. but luckily he kept on entertaining me with stories and jokes.. find that he is a nice man.. and so much better than Daryl..

SigH.. wth am i doing..

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2:46 AM

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was talking to Steven on MSN.. weihao's gd friend.. and i know he knew alot of things tt i din know.. or rather.. everyone knew a lot which i doesnt know.. but yet.. no one is willing to tell me.. but i guess it doesnt really matter now..

hes rite.. " if i were him.. i wont even be bothered with you..".. very true..

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12:31 AM

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Haiz.. i dunno what have i got myself into..

i love talking to him on the phone.. and hes so cute.. but.. i havent met him before.. and his life seems complicated..

We exchange sweet sms like couples.. but its only thru technology..

i guess i am losing my mind.. falling for a cyber friend.... siGh..

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4:23 AM

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Ben told me.. the more he see me .. the more he thinks i resemble him nowadays..

and he doesnt know if its a good or bad thing..

Well.. me neither..

I think i m playing with fire.. first, Zhaoxin.. now daryl.. and very soon Eugene.. but like mao say.. must play while we are still young.. if not wait till 25 meh??

Last nite was fun.. met up with Daryl in the evening..haha.. was lazy and wanted to share cab down.. picked him up around his area and headed to bugis.. there was a long jam.. fare adds up to 15 bucks.. and he paid for it.. haha..

went to see phone and shop around.. and then met up with mao in town after her gym.. and the 3 of us headed to MS, Madam Wong..

My virgin visit.. the place is kinda ah beng... wanted to ask ben to come since he frequents there.. but remember he was having family dinner..even though the crowd sucks.. but the Music was great@ Surprise surprise!!!

Just me and mao .. but yet both of us were v high.. nice hit after hit..Woot!

Rick and Daniel ( Daryl friend) came to join after tt..had some drinks.. boogie our way.. around 4 and rick send mao home..

On the way home.. we actually decided to ton out .. cos mao will be sending her friend off at changi.. and since everyone onz.. i alos onz.. haha.. but got scolded badly by my mom..

so we send mao home.. and waited for her to pack her stuff on the way to the airport.. in the car.. daryl tried to do something funny to me.. haiz.. MEN..

Sat at Bk and talk cock with daryl and company.. although theres age gap.. but they are rather nice to hang out with.. funny bunch of pple.. i enjoy their company alot.. haha..

As for daryl.. we will see how things go.....................

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2:00 AM

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In the day... he can be out of my mind..

but why is tt in e nite.. i will dream of him..

in the dream.. we got back together.. hes still as nice as last time.. everything was a blur .. but i knew he love me so much.. walking around..fingers clutched.. i was hugging him........

everything was still fsmiliar......cant believe i lost him.....................

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4:14 PM

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Just back home from a ride..

well.. basically these new friend of mine, Daryl, we went to watch Initial D.. it was a last min decision..the show is at 10pm.. but we were still chatting on MSN.. Lol..

after the movie.. went for a stroll along middle road..

back to the car ride.. his friend Greg.. he is working for this car company.. he is paid 15 per hour.. to test drive mercs.. haha.. so he came to pick us up..

A ride from town to Changi airport and back to my place..

Well.. my lifes changing.. somehow or rather.. i know i m enjoying my life and my singlehood..

BUt why the emptiness?

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2:16 AM