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♥ 20041231

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\\In Memory of the Deceased in Asian Tidal Wave//

The news struck me hard. Couldnt believe its happening to our neighbouring countries. What a way to end the year..

I have been concerned with the situation ever since e first day i heard about the tragedy. Looking at news everynite.. more death toll reported.. now is 118000 pple altogether.. some are still uncontactable. Some survivors were lucky and blessed to be able to return home whereas some pple just lose their loved ones over nite.. the majority deaths are the helpless women and children. Corpses everywhere..mothers hugging their dead babies tightly..

I just feel like life is so fragile.. i know i always like to complain abt how bad life is.. i m sure everyone does..but.. i m sure compared to those victims.. we are the most fortunate lot isnt it.. we have food to eat.. shelter..bed to sleep on.. they din even have proper attire to keep them warm.. sometimes its good to feel alive...

I am currently quite concerned abt a friend of mine.. she is now at Thailand.. according to her situation was ok there.. wasnt at the affected area.. certainly hope she will be safe and sound..

My deepest condolences to those who has lost their loved ones..good luck to those pple for are looking for the missings..all the best to all volunteers helping out..

Just today i have donated 20 bucks to Red Cross Society through my class donation.. i have done my part.. even tho its small.. but i certainly hope it helps..

Are you willing to share a part of your wealth to help those needy and helpless.. according to what i have heard.. even a dollar is sufficient for 2 meals.. dont think tt its not gonna affect you or its not your biz.. imagine u are the helpless one waitign for pple to help you..

For those interested to donate, the following are some ways u can help:

By sms, thru ATM machine..if by cheque, make payable to Singapore Red Cross Society- Asia Tidal Wave or call 1900 911 1110 for $5 donation.

If you want to donate other things other than money, you may proceed to SPH Building. There is a counter near that side collecting the donations or you can even volunteer to help. For more info, pls check out e newspaper. From what i know, what they need now is more food, milk powder, milk bottle, blankets and even slippers.

Its a few hours to a brand new year, what good deeds have you done this year..? iF u haven.. pls help.. any amount will do..

I have done my part, have you done yours?

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1:32 AM

♥ 20041230

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All my Khakis are quitting clubbing..Mery, Ziyu.. Aww.. sian...

It was a super bad ytd.. extremely packed n crowded.. keep losing my friends around..spend most of my time findin my way around cos i had a few grps of friends there last nite..

Met up with weiling n Mery at orchard for some shopping.. was supposed to be at CB.. but the Q was damn bad.. so we gave up since we tot weiling could have skipped the Q u see.. so we went Zouk..

Q at zouk was crazy too.. but weiling told us she doesnt Q no matter what..so we just went to chill at Wine Bar..waiting for her friend Colin. Met her close friend, Nick and another guy name Steven.. who happens to be weihao's sec school friend.. tot he was familiar.. but couldnt remmeber him until he asked me.. well.. thats one of my achievement last nite.. making a friend out of an "enemy".. cos apparently we had bad impression on each other ba.. ah well.. but guess everything is ok now..

Met ben and his friend at Wine bar..apparently they join the priority Q la..so he din have to q lo.. chat a little while and they went to seek their own fun..

Tot Colin could have got us in using his members card.. but well.. we cant..so he had to get his friend to cut us in.. but we still Q anyway..but anyway.. thanks to him and weiling tt we can actually get in la.. heh..

Had a few acquaintances.. but cant remember the names..ah well.. wats e pt? since i wont be going clubbing soon.. all my khakis has declared to quit..

And our dearest Mery pangseh me to go meet her Pangsta at 1? haiz.. she promised to stay till 2.. ah well.. and i lost weiling as i needa go find maomao.. it was so crowded tt i had problem finding her despite knowing each other's exact location.. she was with her friend Katherine, i think..

Went over to Phuture with Ah mao..it was like hell.. u can barely stand properly.. let alone move.. pple were pushing ard.. songs were nice.. but.. siGh..ah mao suggested finding ben over so that we can be "protected"..so that we wont be pushed ard.. left ah mao to look for my poly pple after a drink.. had to go find that cos we always know each other were around at club but we nv get a chance to say Hi nor dance together..

It was hard to squeeze out.. and i managed to find them.. but my friend left me with some guys i dun even know! They got me some drinks n yeah i got bit dizzy by then.. wanted to get back to ah mao.. but it was way too crowded to make my way back..

Met ben again at the bar..guess he had a little too much too. He and his friend thus accompany me to get my keys from WEiling..cos i could already feel the heat in me and i left around 2 plus.. and i shared a cab with one of my poly friends..luckily..he lives AMK..hehe..saved a bit..ah well..

ANyway.. before i end my entry.. i would like to apologize to my Maomao.. haiz.. i think i neglected her the entire nite.. and earlier in e day she couldnt get me by phone.. for some reasons i can only hear my sms.. and my phone is function in such a way tt if i have a miss call and a sms.. i will be able to read my sms.. and after i read the sms.. the miss call will change into a little icon at the corner of the phone which soemtime i missed esp when i m outside.. So sorry i din picked up.. n i couldnt help her cut her Q..i accompany her for less than an hr and had to go find my poly pple.. luckily her friend is with her..and after tt i have to leave without even saying bye to her.. haiz.. i m so sorry.. Promise no more next time le lo ok..

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10:14 AM

♥ 20041229

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Whats up with these shit i m getting myself in??

I felt angry..upset..disappointed alrite...

THese things is not getting us any where...

So just phuck off will ya?? Go live your own life...

I dun wanna be your TOY! Son of BItch~

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1:50 AM

♥ 20041228

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Tsk tsk.. its coming back.. the mix feeling of guilt n happiness n satisfaction is back.. OMG..yes everyone.. i have sinned again.. i went shopping with my girls today.. n i bought things.. nothing compared to what Mery bought.. but.. i felt guilty.. Mm..

Review of recent purchases:

- Butterfly clip - 15 bucks
- Phuture Tank Top - 9 bucks
- Phuture Halter - 19 bucks
- Mango Cardigan - 23 bucks

Actually i dun really think its too much isnt it.. i haven buy anything the past few shopping trips.. but when u shop with ur besties..they will tell u how e top looks good on u n persuade u to buy since its sales!!!!!

DEvilish...EviL..n i bought it! SiGh..

So each of us came out of Mango with a Mango bag and came out of Phuture with its bag as well.. i guess they have little resistance just like me.. Lolz..

Just as i tot i am so totally broke..my mom gaf me money again!! Aww.. lovely mommy.. she told me to get some new clothes for NY.. hehe.. so handed me the money.. hehe..just now when we were outside i was telling stella i felt so guilty towards my mom.. its like she hasnt seen me for like entire week?? So i wanted to come back early.. and i called her when i was shopping.. to make myself feel better lo.. HaIz..

I have to be good girl today .. cos.. i m gg out tml nite again! n friday is countdown.. mm.. so yeap! i m going to sleep early today.. hehe..

Thanks mommy love you.. although she won see this.. but i appreciate her in my heart.. not becos of the money though

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11:21 PM

♥ 20041227

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Mm.. punk rock.. dun be surprised.. i am growing a liking for it.. =P

I've tried so hard and got so far.. in e end.. it doesnt even matter..

day was kinda bored.. met up with mao.. nv really talk thruout the whole day.. except the part when we talk abt out crush la.. i think shes troubled or sian or watever.. i din feel like talking too..due to the NYE thingy..

Sale is everywhere.. Mango, Fox.. practically everything..sale sale sale.. but why is tt i dont feel like buying anything??? My passion for shopping has decline greatly..

something just seem to be bothering me inside.. whats wrong with me.. i felt.. kinda.. a little..lost.. walking ard aimlessly..

Feeling still feverish all over now.. listening to Numb, Linkin Park.. hope i can get well soon..

Looking forward to wednesday.. i m gonna get myself drunk.. throw everythign aside.. ah well.. its mao with her friends i dunno again..

btw.. did i mention tt i got a $9 top from Phuture London to cheer myself up?

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11:56 PM

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I am ready to expose myself to more new music.. new pple.. new life.. new books..

but i will nv change into a person whom even my closest friends cant accept the way i talk and the things i do.. bear tt in mind~

i always wanted to mention abt this guy a few entries back... but i missed him out.. ah well..

this nice guy.. Junqiang..someone i wish to see during xmas.. but i din get to see him in e end..heard he kana guard duty and forgot abt my pressie! Ah well.. cant blame him la.. i m a understanding girl alrite! But dont u dare to forget..or else i confiscate ur pressie ok! Lolz..

Ah well.. want to thanks him for all his time this entire year.. i know its bad.. but i always trouble him when i m upset..whenever i m down or unhappy hes always the one there for me.. someone who will respond to me almost immediately..where to find such good brother?! Always tired after a long day of work out in camp.. but always have to entertain me.. and my troubles always made him sleepy.. but his msgs always make me happier..so much better..

Wish he can find a Gf soon.. but then once he finds one maybe he wont be so attentive to me liao.. hahaa.. so better dont find one so soon la..~ *huGz* u are the best!

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3:29 AM

♥ 20041226

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Well well.. clubbing session on Xmas night!!

Was supposed to join Mery and Stella at Coco Latte.. however, guess stella was too tired to come.. and Mery decided to spend the xmas day with her beloved Pangsta.. ah well..

I wanted to go rather badly.. but recently Chinablack has gave me a very bad impression! Was in a dilemma cos i din really want to waste money! but in e end i still went.. cos i made mao gian and it wasnt too nice to turn her down last min..

And a very little part of the reason tt i went is becos of my crush!! My crush.. *lalala* hohoho.. so long nv see him lo.. ah.. miss him so much.. hehe.. hes still as cute as ever!!! He made me blush.. and my heart beats faster than ever! Lolz.. wth.. hes just a crush la.. no big deal.. someone to occupy my mind?? =)

Knew some new friends again!! All thanks to mao.. nothing to be excited abt cos most prob we wont be seeing each other again.. but somehow e tot of tt brightens my day!! Unfortunately.. i dont really catch their name.. issit Kenrick? or Jerrick? Darren or Jarren?? Mm.. lol.. but they are 2 friendly chaps.. + Ming.. woo.. great entertainers.. just look at the way they dance.. Gosh.. soo cute!! Kept me luffing for quite a while..

But Ming is really a great dancer.. hehe.. he even tried to mimic the way Uncle dance on e platform..Lolz..

Speaking of uncle.. me n yu has agreed that Chinablack is welcoming lots of Uncles recently.. Mm.. and some of them are middle age Malaysians.. nothign against malaysians but.. er.. they just seem a little funny.. just look at the way their dress to clubS! n check out the way they dance.. !

Had some liquor..Lychee Martini and some Vodka Orange..O yes.. i m still sick just in case anyone is wondering.. but it was a rather worthwhile trip.. even tho its kinda short.. it was not crowded in there.. mm..slightly less crowded than noraml sat.. probably becos its Xmas night.. every one's tired after the countdown last nite~ n the music was nice! Mm.. at least better than the last time i went.. but maybe its becos of the pple u hang out with..

Clubbing is fun isnt it??????? yeah!

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2:51 AM

♥ 20041225

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aLRITE..so the long awaited Xmas eve is finally over.. so this is a summary of wat happened:

Woke up in e morning.. kinda eager to get out..change into new spag top and skirt and off i go!!! wanted to go eat Jacks place with wh.. but the freaking place closes at 330.. so we just picked a Ulu restaurant 4 our lunch..big mistake.. e food is so normal and it cost both of us 30? an ok price.. but just not worth tt money alrite... ah well..

So we set off to Orchard to look for my beloved mao.. kinda sian at town.. took some neo print..

we just jalan ard..everything was fine..until it gets kinda boring.. you know.. walking with 2 guys tt doesnt raelly talk.?? So mao become v pek cek.. cos theres completely nothing to do at town! OMG..and everyplace is so crowded..n she had some little misunderstanging with norv as well.. so things went a little bit.. too quiet ..

TOt we had appeased her by going to Marriott Hotel to have the Green t tiramisu..and the 4 of us just sat on the sofa to rest.. n mao start to get really agitated when all of us were so dead.. Ah well.. so we sat there for like 1/2 n hour.. till Stella came..and we left the hotel..

So weihao went home.. mao went to her friend's potluck party..norv went to join his friend for Movie..and me n stella proceed to Clarke Quay - Gallery Hotel, tts where pw book the hotel 4 e nite.. some girls talk at e mrt station.. den meet up w pw..

The plan was: All of us were supposed to stay at Sound Bar until PW picks up Mery..and me and stella were supposed to hide in e room and gif mery a surprise..cos she tot tt me n stella both haf got something on..

everythign went as planned.. we sat at sound bar for like an hr with Pw friends.. its good to still be able to recognise tt some are ex-ctss pple.. =) It was really a nice place..cosey sofa.. nice music.. nice breeze.. nice liquor..

I din drink much.. cos i can feel e heat inside me..i was sick.. running a fever.. so i just tried some Lychee Martini and glupped down plenty of water..

It was around 1140 when Kelvin recv a msg from Mr Pangsta that they will be reaching in 10 mins.. we were like WHAT?!.. so fast.. cos mr pangsta was supposed to call Kelvin.. so we hurriedly went to pick up the cake n proceed to the room.. waiting for our Princess Mery..

So around 1205, Mery reached the hotel room- blindfolded.. so me and stella were supposed to keep quiet and hug her or something.. but b4 we could do it Mr Pangsta told her to lift her blindfold.. ah well.. anyway.. e room was dark..she was real surprised when she sees the both of us..Lolz.. its good to see her again! It was such a touching moment.. almost made me cry... Lolz..

And i have to apologise to them.. cos .. erm.. i look a bit sian..partly due to my fever.. partly due to my troubles.. and i cause them to worry abt me.. and they proceed back to the room early so tt i can rest~ SOrry2..

Back at the room.. called ah mao.. this girl having fun at her party.. but she got herself into some trouble as she send a wrong sms to his bf.. ah well.. dun be too rush in ur decision alrite.. Mm..hes a super nice guy~

So the 4 of us squeezed into the bed 4 e nite.. it was quite big la.. so there was no problem sleeping.. talk cock a little.. hehe.. o btw..Mr Pangsta really checked in alone la.. haha.. no Stella with him.. Lol..hes innocent alrite.. Lolz..

Not to say it was a wonderful nite.. but its definitely great to see my friends.. but..i din really get to talk to Mery.. got plenty to tell her..cos i know stella is obsessed with the Barry guy..Hope our Princess Mery is happy.. i bet she is.. given the amount of effort Mr Pangsta put in for the entire evening.. hehe..

Eh Mery.. meet up soon to catch up alrite.. anything next week except friday alrite.. and our clubbing, shopping session!

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1:34 PM

♥ 20041224

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3rd entry tonite.. was talking to ah mao online..er.. not exactly.. cos shes wrapping her pressie.. heh..

I just wanna share something....i just found a song tt clearly describes my feeling towards my life now.. OMG..

To all my friends: Find me hard to understand?? Well.. read on..

Welcome to my Life

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

NO YOU DONT KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over

Are you stuck inside a world you hate? (Yes)
Are you sick of everyone around? (Yes)
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No one ever lies straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok

Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you

No you don't know what it's like

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2:56 AM

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Sick.. i am feeling sick.. help..

Tml is Xmas Eve.. i do not want to be sick now.. but i cant help it.. i can feel like my throat tearing apart.. it hurts..

I just feel like as if the entire body isnt mine.. i have a tired body .. as well as a tired mind..

ANd to realise.. i m the one messing my life up.. phuck..

I hate myself..just like i hate you

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2:35 AM

♥ 20041223

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Sometimes i wonder.. is it worth it or not??

Anyway.. he tot i was not hurt.. he tot tt hes messed up tts why deserved to be left alone.. which is not true.. e fact is.. my life is messed up tts why I need to be left alone..

I certainly know its a bad time to be talking abt this.. but .. when i comes to this kinda thing.. can i stop it from coming just becos its Xmas eve?? Hello?? Wake up ur idea alrite..

N I feel sucky when he got so turned off by the decision i made.. since he himself did made the choice back then..

So what the..??

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10:38 PM

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Like i said.. went for my lonely xmas shopping.. trying to look for some xmas presents.. but wth.. my budget is just too little.. nice shirts for guys cost around 50 -60.. isnt tt ex?

in e end.. i only manage to get Jason a super cute ash tray.. doubt he will use.. but.. haha.. i must remind him of my Hongbao..

*staring at the screen... trying to think of wat to write..

Feel down.. feel depressed.. but well... tts my life~ Mery is coming back tml.. got plenty to tell her.. stella has always been bz to meet up... siGh..

No idea whether its good or not.. but.. i have pple commenting that i have changed..in a way or another.. but like he say.. its ok as long as i feel tt i m still the serene inside..

Kinda lost now..lots to write and lots to think.. but i think it wouldnt be too appropriate to put it here..

I felt like one part of me is taken away.. And i m still feeling sick..

Mao was eating cockles at LPS ytd.. but the sight of it turns my stomach.. and thus i din eat the whole nite.. which means i completely din eat anything 4 e day..

I guess i am immune against all temptations now.. i din buy anything for myself for 2 days.. n i just have a feeling tt its gonna get better...

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1:34 PM

♥ 20041221

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The song is sad isnt it.. and i have been crying.. hah.. finally i dont have to hold it back anymore.. its good to cry once in a while isnt it.. hehe.. i am fine now.. =P

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3:23 AM

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Ever had tt kinad feeling u feel like writing.. but just dunno how to put it down into words.. Mm...

I am talking to mao online now.. haf a feeling this is gonna be a long talK.? provided she don sleep early la..

I din feel well today.. felt numb all over.. and kinda depressed.. ah well.. i gets this kinda thing quite often.. and i felt cold.. dont feel like moving etc.. had some Maggi mee.. the my all-time-favourite flavour.. normally i could eat it with an egg.. but now.. i feel like it is fighting inside.. i feel like puking.. i feel like crying.. couldnt really find a good reason to cry nowadays.. life is so dry~

O yes.. and once again..i m broke..

i need someone to talk to..sms-ing a close friend oF mine and he seems damn bz.. ah well..

I dont think i will feel like eating tomorro..

Supposed to meet mao or stella tomorro.. in e end both of them couldnt make it tomorro.. ah well..figured i will be staying home tml or go my lonely shopping~i meant xmas shopping~ nothing for myself alrite..

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1:15 AM

♥ 20041220

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It a wonderful evening.. even though its kinda cold out there.. i still think its such a beautiful and lovely nite, isnt it??.. just look at the sky! You see angels ? They are celebrating in the skY~

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3:00 AM

♥ 20041219

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So.. things is getting a little bit out of hand.. this is wat happened today:

Went to work.. supposed to go down to wh workplace to meet for dinner.. i finshed work at 430.. and weihao finsihes at 6.30.. so instead of going down after work.. i went shopping @ BishAn~ O great!

I tried some skirts and tops but doest really look nice..so i tot i might as well save the money~ and just as i tot i can leave the daner-zone.. Something caught my eyes at E base.. it reads " 30% and 50% of for any 2 pieces onwards!" .. and i went over to take a look.. REGRET..i started seeing things i like.. so in e end.. i bough 1 tube top and 3 tops that comes together in a bag.. and i m entitle to the 50%.. so in total 4 tops only cost me 29 bucks.. isnt it a good buy! N i love the tube.. its so Xmas-y!

Anyway.. i tot i had enough for a day.. and went down to BUgis to look for weihao...after which we went to Orchard road for some jalan session.. and it was a mistake to go into Far East.. despite it was rather late but i still manage to try on something! IN the end i bought a denim skirt.. which i kinda like.. a good buy but.. OMG! I shoppped again! Just before tt i met stella at hello!Singtel and i was telling her tt i will try to stop myself.. nv expect tt i will actaully buy again..

And e worst part is.. after i bought the skirt.. and about to leave FEP..I saw tt Future state is still open! and i wanted to go in.. and guess what wh did to me! He pulled me away.. no joke! pulled me away.. and keep telling me to "go slow".. OMG.. my bf now thinks tt i m a shopaholic! n had to resort to force.. ArgH.. tts bad..

But i understand the situation perfectly..total week:

- 5 Tops - White Sleeveless, Green Halter, Black tube, Green t-shirt
- 1 Jacket
- 1 pair of sandals
- 1 pair of pants
- 1 denim skirt

Er.. is tt alot??

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2:47 AM

♥ 20041218

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I am starting to panicked.. worried abt what is gonna happy to me 5 months down the road.. upon my poly graduation..

Those who knows me would have known.. just 2 months ago i still refused to face the problem.. only in recent weeks i m starting to feel panicky..

I would definitely want to further my studies. Initially i tot SIM would be good enough.. however, there has been lots of friends encouraging me to try SMU.. SMU is my wish.. but it always occur to be so far-reaching for me.. since my academic results arent so good..

SO recently i was doing research on the admission criteria in SMU..SAT is not necessary anymore..but it gives me an advance standing! Of cos i shouldnt let go of any chance since it further my chances.. however.. i hate doing last min thing.. i want to take my tests on Jan, which is gonna to be the old series so tt i can take the results for admissions 2005. ANd if i want to do it on Jan, i have to register it by 20th dec, which is like 2 days from now..siGh..

And so this whole afternoon i was in a dazed mode.. i asked around for opinions.. my friends..btw i would like to thank some of them that were v nice to give me suggestions and even want to lend me their notes.. all of them support the idea of going for the admisson 2005 instead of waiting for admission 2006 and wasting the year's time. Now it all appear clearer. N now i've got my priorities rite.

I hope you guys will pray for me, that i can get into U as i wish..And i will be grateful and satisfied as i will ever be..

please..angels..bless me ..

I am also pretty worried abt my family.. my parents.. they are old and i really have to do them proud.. so that they can have no worries even after their retirement..n i feel so stressed.. since i m the only child.. if i cant support them.. who else would..???

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2:24 AM

♥ 20041216

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ArGh..what the.. i wasnt supposed to spend money today..as in too much money.. but heres the following that i had bought:

- VNC Sandals @ 19.90
- One Abercombie(whatever u spell it) white jacket @ 34.90
- Abercombie Top @ 24.90
- Kenneth Cole Top for Dear's Xmas present
- Roxy Shorts @ 19.90 (which is free becos of the last 3 purchases)

Cost me about total 100 bucks.. but i only paid 20 bucks for the VNC sandals.. the devilish mao offer to pay for me first.. and she even want me to pay her back by instalments! which is such a good deal.

Walk the entire suntec today.. mao has got so much things tt she wanted to buy..but it is all so expensive..and when she heard tt there is gonna be a sale from 17-23rd .. she only AIMS the things she wants to buy..

We din manage to get anything for 2 plus hours at Suntec. We looked at plenty of things to buy for over loved ones.. but we all hesitated..and after our dinner.. i suggested going for the exhibition halls since theres always sales around.. so we went to look for some fair that hopefully can get some cheap stuff..

We went to this women's fair and din raelly sees anything but we got some sales pitching from this Prudential Agent who manage to talk mao to switch her current saving plan and change to the one he promoted.. it seems like a good dael to me too.. and as usual.. i am aiming at the free gift.. which is a Digi-cam or a Dvd player.. but i din sign on the spot since i have to pay the 1st 2 months principal sum the moment i put my signature on the contract..and i certainly din have so much cash with me.

After tt, we managed to find our way to this "Branded Goods Sale" at level 3. The brands includes Abercombie as mentioned above, Victoria's secrets (which drives mao crazy upon seeing the name), timberland etc..but its kinda disappointing when we enter.. its kinda small place and not much to choose from.. and only after we walked for like half an hr then the lady boss told us the sale was supposed to start tomorrow, but since everyone is coming in so might as well she starts today.. maybe thats the reason why theres not much stuff to choose from. Theres Raphl Lauren Polo Tees, Hollister Sweater, Lacoste Shirts, Timberland shirts etc.. wonder why they are having this branded goods sale? From my point, i think tt its becos there isnt much size for u to choose from!

For example, a DKNY ladies top is super small until only children can fit into it, when it is stated at size "L". Whereas a timberland shirt for men i saw, is big enough for Triple H (for those who is not familiar with WWE, triple H is a big size wrestler, which means the shirt can fit in 2 Serenes), and it is labelled as "M". And available sizes are from "M" to "XXL".. which means Godzilla could probably fit !

Me and Mao was supposed to share, since buy 3 get 1 free.. but in the end we decided that buying 3 pieces is raelly worth it..and once we leave the Exhibition hall, she was so excited abt her great buy and keeps stressing that " I bought a Abercombie Shorts for $59 bucks and now the jacket and the shirts cost me only $85!" and she keeps telling me how much the abercombie jacket cost.. Ah well.. she must be pretty happy about her great buy that she blabber non-stop on the taxi.. for me.. i am happy too.. but more of guilty.. since i shouldnt be spending so much ya..

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3:50 AM

♥ 20041215

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Something's wrong.. i dont have the urge of blogging..or keep my friends updated..its been 3 days since i came online.. pretty unusual.. time now is 4.06am.. i am waiting for a call..

Life's pretty ok for me.. other than the old issue of "no money"..whenever my friend tells me that they are broke.. i would tell them tt i am not broke.. but declared "bankrupt"..basically i know they still have savings, even though their a/c is left with 50 odd dollars.. but i dont.

Been working and i love my new job. Kinda tough. But rather fulfilling..weihao keeps asking me why get so happy about 50 odd bucks a week?? Just wanna let him know.. it makes a difference..can get me a top, or a pair of nice heels, sushi buffet for 2, a Lancome foundation, skin care product..see the difference??

Something interesting happened at work last week.. there was this baby-faced boy who always buy snacks from the stall talks to me.. asked for my name and ask me what time i finish work.. he appears so young that i asked him his age.. he told me he is 21.. but he looks like 15 tho.. anyway.. i din answer his qn.. guess he must be too bored..and i was working.. couldnt get distracted ya.. guess he work around.. cos i always see him pass by..ah well..

It was IRN's (my ex-company) DnD last nite.. mm.. wasnt exactly a DnD.. more of just dinner.. v different from what i expected..cant rememeber the name of the bar/restaurant. They are mainly serving Mediterenean cusine, more of a Spanish Rest. according to Mao in her blog. Nice atmosphere, nice music they play.. something liek Hotel California..and the whole place was dim with only candle lights. Somehow i dun "agree" with the food, its either its too hi-class for me to appreciate or it simply sucks. Appetisers made me wanna throw up.. first dish was salad, green pepper, red pepper, veg with some cheese cubes..weird..followed by pan-fried prawns..just prawns..and next is the weirdest! its curry..and it comes with something tt i really hate! Ok.. so after tt..the last and best dish.. is the kebab (mutton, chicken) and some seafood rice.. and not to forget.. the tiramisu!@@! its bloody delicious!@~ had plenty of red wine and some Heiniken ("probably the best beer in the world.")

At e end of the dinner, the waiters came with some plates and started smashing together with the music.. according to Mao, its to show that their food were nice.. maybe tts why i din smash any plates.. and i think 100 over plates were smashed.. GoSH!~

Met up with Stella today to get Mery's present..supposed to go VNC at Suntec but we figured it was too late then.. so we went Wisma instead.. and on our way there we pass by Espirit and Stella wanted to look for some glitter..the sales lady put on some makeup for stella and according to stella.. the makeup is too much! Cos the glitter that she left on her eyelids cannot be washed off completely and now she had glitters in her eyes and all reddish.. hope its fine by now..

Cosmetics is not a must! But i bought some anyway.. haiz..with tt money i could have got a top or something.. i shared a lipgloss set with stella..its 4 for $12 so each of us chose 2 colors each.. she bought e glitter and the blusher.. n for me, the mascara and lip gloss.. *guilty* and i am meeting mao for xmas shopping tml!

Peace. May i not spend too much tml!

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3:42 AM

♥ 20041210

My Simple Life ♥

What a un-exciting week.. basically i spend most of e time.. sleepingg.. it feels like i hasnt been out for months..

Things are getting a little better between me and wh.. @ least we had a wonderful time on train today. Ah well.. he always say i dun mention him often.. its always abt me and my friends in this blog.. hahah... Btw..great news.. he is finally looking for a job.. good luck to him..life would be normal once he got the new job i hope..

Tot of sleeping early so tt i can wake up early and turn up for work early tml.. because i din turn up for work today.. haiz.. i m really not disciplined .. siGh.. and when manager called.. i just fake a story tt i forgot i was supposed to start todaY! And she was like " I purposely told Trenis to put more schedules for ya.. but if you are like that.. i am a little afraid you know..?" Makes me feel guilty.. yes.. i m one who always run away from problem.. SiGh..

For the entire week i just felt like staying at home..but then.. i feel lonely when i m in the house.. what a irony.. so has been a few nights tt i goes out in e evening time..ArGgh.. i hate the word lonely to appear in my blog..

For some unknown reason.. i am actually looking for school reopening~ hoho.. cos i raelly want to get it over and done wiTH!! i will end my poly life on March 27.. Hehe.. which is like 3 mths from now! Yeah!~ cant wait..! but i just seen my timetable and it sucks..ah well..

Not raelly looking forward to Xmas or New year.. cos nothing to look forward too.. it was supposed to be a gathering for hanzi, grace, mao etc.. but who knows.. hanzi called me last nite for conference and discovered tt we will be meeting for that eve thingy becos grace couldnt make it! Great.. so now what? Mao will be joining her clique, grace her JC pple..hanzi i dunno..I think mao is a little pissed abt changing of plans just overnite~ hopefully theres something from Mery and Stella tt side~ But i doubt so too.. i dunno much of their friends.. ah well.. used to look forward to such occassions.. not now anymore.. guess not anymore.. i am old now.. i m 19.. heh..and mao is gg to be 20 soon! looking forward to her bday!

But whats there left to do in xmas ar? restaurants are forever full.. clubbing will be so idiotic cos i doubt u can even move in that damn place! A overseas trip will be nice~!~

Speaking of overseas trip~ Mom just mentioned tt we will be gg overseas this Chinese NY!! FInally.. last time we went overseas was like 2 years ago.. It would most prob be china~ Who cares man.. CHina may be fun u noe.. as long as its away from Singapore.. even India will be nice i supposed!~

P/s: Shall meet up ah mao and stella for some xmas shoppING~ Hehe.

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2:46 AM

♥ 20041208

My Simple Life ♥

Has been wanting to blog for past 2 nites.. but i think something is wrong with my i/e.. well..

Monday: Met up with Yinghan, Grace and Mao at orchard for some shopping.. it wasnt a quite pleasant one.. as there were some conflicts initially.. but we managed to laugh it off.. wanted to make use of the voucher han gaf me but i couldnt find something i really like or worth buying.. so i din use it..however, i did buy smth to cheer myself up a little: A scarf and a pair of sandals.. the sandals was a good buy! only 10 bucks and i think its really nice.. tried on a tube dress.. i think it doesnt flatter me tt much.. but grace say tt its looks good.. but i din buy it anyway.. was kinda ex.. =P

Tues: Due to the weather.. (it was rainy u see) .. i had a very bad mood.. sIgH.. initially i wanted to go find wh.. but then.. had a big arguement and ended up going to Edo Sushi with Ah mao..after tt we stood at Somerset MRT for nearly and hour.. girls talk.. kinda tiring for the leg huh.. and finally left town at 1130..

I passed by tt road the other day.. the familiar road.. Mm.. and i choose to take a detour.. cos i dun think i have to courage to even stepped near..

Been feeling kinda unstable lately.. becos of the weather perhaps??! Rainy season makes pple lethargic isnt it?

And so i was wondering the whole day.. Is it possible for some one who knows you better than yourself?? If its possible.. i hope someone who understands me quickly appear in my life and tell me whats wrong with it.. cos i myself has no bloody idea what i m thinking.. theres a lot of things i cant differentiate.. SiGh..

Rcv news that my crush is attached recently.. AwWw.. =( not really attached but patched up with ex? But hes just a little crush.. not much special feeling.. but feel rather happi for him.. cos, even though i dun noe him tt well, but i noe he love tt girl alot..

me at pacific plaza on birthday

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7:47 PM

♥ 20041205

My Simple Life ♥

Been feeling lost for the whole day..

Yesh.. its my birthday today.. but..

- my bf is working
- Parents are angry with me
- Stuck at home
- Good friend in Indo, the other one probably busy..

and someone a talked to just simply dun care~ great~

Watched SChool For Seduction. Interesting movie. Learnt a lot of things actually. Not seducing man, of cos~

THe Art of Seduction is not about pleasing man, its about pleasing yourself. THe key to seduction is building confidence~ A confident woman is a powerful woman. Be a woman you want to be and not a woman others want you to be.

QUite true rite. But its definitely hard to master. I am lack of self-confidence. however i am trying to build it up slowly. but i always get pple stepping on my pride and confidence. therefore, i am afraid.

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6:41 PM

♥ 20041204

My Simple Life ♥

Mm..just wake up.. shagged frm the party last nite! but i had a great time.. hehe..

My party was flooded with babes, food and hunks! but most of the hunks were attached lo.. my girl's bf.. hehe..

It was quite a success i should say.. food was ample.. and most of them were entertained.. esp. my secondary school batch lo..cos got mao grace and han ma.. then they were so noisy.. but i think my crm pple was rather sian.. they just play cards n nv really eat also.. feel bad~ Mm..

A little upset.. cos there were a few of them who chouldnt make it to e party! Jerlyn, KaiLin, Eric, Michelle, Jason.. =( michelle is v sick when i called her.. poor girl.. hope she takes care of herself..

it was drizzling when i left e house round 4..and passing clouds when i reach ecp..but luckily it din rain!

Supposed to meet hanzi and group @ 4 lo.. they were supposed to help me look after the food while i top up other supplies.. and they were late! so the very late! Haiz..when i rch they were still at suntec lo! but i heard they waited bloody long for the bus.. so its forgiven..

And to my surprise.. Stella and Mery reached the earliest! *huGz*..luckily they came so tt i can top up my supplies..n another surprise.. they can find their way here! mM.. maybe i underestimated them..heh..n the sweet ladies bought me a cake! So nice of them Ya? really tot no one will remmeber the cake lo..not forgetting the wallet! its so nice! thanks thanks! HugZ*

then Hanzi, grace, mao reach round 6.. haiyo.. and once they reach rite.. so noisy lo..started bickering amongst themselves..Hanzi gave me a Sunflower.. she says it suits me.. while Grace and Mao gave me 3 daisy? i dunno what flower is it.. but its very nice..and they were trying to convince me which one is nicer.. hahah.. but anyway i did a poll at the party la.. and the Sunflower won! but the votes were very near.. hehe..

Hanzi gave me a Heeren Voucher.. shes afraid i think she bo xim.. but nope.. its really nice cos i can choose what i want! Mao and Grace bought me a bag, a necklace and a pair of nice earringS! And Mao herself gave me a very interesting card.. and what she writes inside is so heart warming! Lolz..

Special thanks here for those who helped me set up the fire! To Cheryl (and her charcoal), Jaslyn, Alex, Dear (its ok if u din do well!), Cheryl's brother, Norvin!

Joyce reach rather late as i guess she went to buy my present? hehe.not sure.. and i cant possibly ask rite.. hehe.. Jaslyn, Cheryl, Joyce, Alex, Aston gave me a bag, 2 pair of earrings..the earrings are very nice! And now i have got 2 school bags! hehe.. guess joyce chose the earrings lo.. cos got one pair is the snail.. so cute..

Katek and Jeff came too! they gave me a chicken wing for my present! hehe..bbq by jeff! BUt its the tot tt counts! At least they came! and jeff was wearing a shirt.. so nice of him to turn up..but they left early too.. ah well..

And the last who came was ASton loQ! He actually forget its my party last nite.. so he was at his friend's chalet.. mm..but at least he came..so i shall be forgiving! N tt idiot! crazy one lo! take advantage of me rite! hold my hand and tried to hug me by force! i think he is crazy lo..

Pangwei turned up too! but i dun considered tt as "turning up" cos he came to pick mery up.. tts all.. hehe..and he wished me happy "belated" birthday.. Hiakz..

Took lots of videos and some photos using mao's digi-cam.. hehe..

However, when the party ended.. felt somehow empty inside.. like suddenly everything is gone.. haha..ah well.. and i m feelign like this now too.. cos now i am stuck at home.. still not knowing wat to do for the nite.. if mery hadn't go back indo.. i would ask she and stella to go clubbing together.. to coco latte.. mm.. so what can i do for tonite leh! Haha.. when the clock strikes 12.. i will be 19! and i m nearer to the 2* category.. haiz.. time flies isnt it..

Lalala.. but watever it is.. special thanks to all guests tt turns up.. and to tt special one who still remembers my birthday! hehe.. hope mery takes care of herself back there.. the parting hug last nite almost made me cry.. cos i noe its gonna be like 2 weeks not seeing u! dun miss pw only k.. miss us as well huh.. btw.. keep me updated abt xmas alrite! *HugZ

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4:15 PM

♥ 20041203

My Simple Life ♥

Wake up early today.. to buy some stuffs for my bbQ later.. YawNz*..

I m now killing time here..waiting for my chicken wings to thaw.. heh..

Feeling kinda depressed.. as.. hmm.. alot of things.. like wat stella said the other nite.. like she laughed too much at the club and she had a depressed feeling after everything is over.. but i believe its becos its of her big day.. was so happy ealier on and then everything is gone once the clock strikes 4.. mm.. i m afraid to have tt kinda feeling too.. haiz.. i have sea-phobia.. everytime i look at it.. so ever calm and peaceful..and i feel very sad..but i love the sea..

also afraid tt it won be fun.. my friends come and find it boring.. argh..

Sigh

I am a bad friend

Shall update later..

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1:10 PM

♥ 20041202

My Simple Life ♥

At mery's hse posting this entry~ just wake up..din turn up for wrk..feel tt i haven have much time to do lots of things..tml is my bbq party..but i still felt lost..

Ah well..hehe..was out clubbing with the gals last nite..its stella's bday~! hohoh..was at zouk..mm..music was ok..the first nite i stayed thruout in zouk..and they have interesting songs lo.. like one nite in beijing? Lol..

It was a crowded nite for some reasons ..luckily we rch early..so we din have to Q at all.heh..Q was damn long at round 11.. Poor Ben has to Q for 2 freaking hrs all by himself outside..he manage to enter only at 1? Lol..can u imagine Q-ing alone for so freaking long?? I will just take a cab and go home.. ah well..

Stella n Mery was mostly with stella's smu pple.. felt kinda out..and both of them were like so happily dancing..like a non-stop dance machine..Mm..whereas i wasnt good at dancing when i m not high enough..

Met weiling at the members area.. hee..and there were 2 trans dancing so well on e platform.. and damn! they are so pretty!! and they way they dance.. OMG..Haiz.. the party ended a little after 3.30..quite fun! better than china black.. heh..of cos the girls have interesting encounters as well.. Lolz.

After which we went to Mery's house.. but before tt, Pw suggested gg to greenridge to have supper.. but then when we reach there.. there was nothing except the drinks stall..so we just bought some drinks from 7-11 and sit down at the food court..and i din realise it was so late already.. almost 5.. mm.. after the drink and some slacking we headed to mery's place..

Like wat mery says stel+me+mery = endless conversation.. once we reach her house.. we din slp immediately despite we were freaking tired.. we had some girls talk until like 7.30 in e morning..trying to recall what happened during the nite..heh.. until we were all lying comforatbly on the bed and fell asleep..mm..

I dunno leh.. they were all saying until i very pathetic like tt.. mery say i haven change a single bit every since secondary school.. esp e way i think.. really!?? i din noe tt.. i always tot i have become stronger in a way or another!? Mm.. and she was saying tt i always think too lowly of myself..blah blah blah.. hehe.. say i lack of acquaintances.. say until i like no friends wor! haha.. but i noe they care lo..

SO i finally told stella abt the issue tt i din want to talk abt previously.. mm..hope the 2 of u take my advice seriously.. and hope the issue din really cause anyone to judge me! lol..

and while e 2 of them is toking.. stella will just out of no where pop out " serene..tell me what u thinking now.. say out la.. dun always keep to urself.. only smile smile say nothing..very scary leh.." Lolz.. i was like -_-|||

Ah anyway.. Mery is gg back on saturday.. means its gonna be like 2 weeks i m not gonna see her!! but at least we fulfill our promise of tonning at her place b4 she leave for indo.. heh.. hope she take care of herself back there!

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3:05 PM