10.50 pm - he told me he wasnt feeling well. so i asked him to go to bed. and i will. since i was quite tired.
11.02 pm - gave up on trying to slp. tot i was prob hungry. crawl out of bed to cook myself some noodles. hungry cos i skipped dinner.
11.20 pm - upset over some stuff. started to think about my priorities. pple i love. and pple who loves me. felt even more upset after surfing FB.
man, i hate FB.
11.29 pm - desperate for some company.. shut down my computer. changed into my wrking attire for tml.
11.37 pm - went downstairs to flag a cab, crying.. woke him up to ensure he could wake up to open the door for me later when i reach. over the phone, he sounded tired and worried cos it was late..and i had to travel to the other end of the island..
11.50 am - Mery dropped me an sms. told her i wasnt feeling too good and heading over to his place then. as usual, she told me she will be there if i need her. hugs. u guys prob have no idea how much this sister means to me.
12.08 am - he called to check where i was cos i was taking longer than usual. told him i could go up myself but he insisted on coming down to fetch me since theres a lot of ahmads downstairs.
12.10 am - he greeted me with an unlit ciggie in his mouth. dragging his feet but he tried to hide his tiredness behind e familiar boyish smile. we walked over to 7-11 to get a drink before heading home.
i only slept at 5 + am til 7 am to wake up for wrk. i kept tossing and turning the whole night and i think he hardly sleep well too..
But i can only find peace whenever i am with him.
if i hadnt pop over ytd, i dunno hw much i m gg to cry before falling asleep.
i find myself thinking alot lately. and when i cant sort out my thoughts, i feel angry at myself. i can have 1,000 mixed feelings in me all at one go. i gets despressed and irritated at the smallest thing.
no, i m not troubled by love. its more of friends, family, work and a small part on $$$.
hoping everything will be in a brighter light after my bday. .
meanwhile, i shall keep my reservations for certain people.
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On a lighter note, i spent almost 300$ ytd at Far East alone. Mery brought me to some of her favourite shops. nice leh.. shld shop more w her.. hehe
MAN. its quite alot for me since i havent been "physically" shopping for quite some time.
breakdown of spendings look ok. didnt spent alot:
72$ - Hair roots touchup & cut
50$ - Korean Style Dress (SALE!)
70$ - Very nice handbag!!! I bought the one in Pearl and Mery bought the brown one
xx$ - Vintage Colorful Bag from 2 cm for lala's bday
i know i have said it many times before, but i am really determined to stop online shopping.
seeing thousands of blogshops selling the SAME things that can be found EVERYWHERE at Bugis Village and FEP is really pissing me off. Sometimes the stuff can be very ridiculously marked up, for a badly manufactured apparel. AND THE WORST OF ALL, u see people wearing the same things EVERYWHERE IN ORCHARD ROAD. . *horror*
Still have to wait for the parcel to come and pray it doesnt get lost. Have to wait for seller's reply somemore! STOP! i gotta get myself out of this plight.
I am going to grow out of online shopping. But of cos i wont completely STOP buying stuff online. I shall stick to the few trusty blogshops, whereby the designs they bring in are still very exclusive. And of cos, forever21.com, gojane.com etc. :)
i m gg back to my physical shopping spree!! i think i feel happier being able to touch, try & pose in front of the mirror. hehehe.. :)
for some reason, this reminds me of a sex doll =X
