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♥ 20041130

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Feeling kinda weird rite now.. supposed to call weihao..but i guess some blogging will be good to find some peace..

I really hate myself sometimes.. SiGh..*slap*

*Inhale* *Exhale*

I hate myself for being so useless..timid..forgetful..emotional..fat..poor..other girls in school can be a glamour queen.. but here am i.. only a ugly neighbourhood girl who knows nothing..seems like i haven change a single bit ever since i graduated from secondary school.. o yes.. that is other than being a big spender and eater.. SiGh

Met up Mery and Stella today.. for some shopping spree.. tot i could buy myself a little something to cheer me up.. but however.. my bloody pay was late.. or rather.. i tot that it would be early.. thus agreeing to meet up.. bloody.. and i have to borrow money from Stella to buy a top.. GREAT.. still owing mery some money.. i am a bad friend.. sigh

Din really feel like toking today.. but then.. din wan them to worry or spoilt their day.. so i tried controlling my emotions..

u know.. sometimes after i speak.. i would feel idiotic and ask myself "why the hell u say tt?" kinda thing..sometimes i just feel like i die .. or be left alone for my entire life..

Ok. Quit Bitching, Bitch..

tried lots of clothes with them.. had some laughs..some girls talk..etc etc

sms chatted with Junqiang for a while.. he always make me so happy talking to him.. lol..cos i dun feel any barrier toking to him.. cos i simply go all out.. and say anything.. no beat-around-the-bush kinda thing.. n he was telling me tt he is going to be a GAY! haha..no la.. he say if he still no gf.. he will be one..dont forget u still got me!! Lolz.. just jokin ok.. i m now living "happily ever after".. hehe.. but can be ur fling la.. OOppz.. hahaha...

i m looking forward to clubbing this wed.. hoopefuly it to be fun..

i needa getaway.. i hope he can bring me for a holiday again soon.. if not i will go crazy..

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1:32 AM

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I am an anti-social freak.. sigH..

Was out party-ing with ah mao..cos i tot it wasnt nice of me to keep turning her down or flying her aeroplane kinda thing.. so i agreed upon knowing theres only me, her and her so-called "heartbroken" friend.. so i met her after dinner with weihao.. feeling guilty cos need to waste money again! and we joined her friend at the Q at chinablack..and there was her friend.. looking ever so jovial (btw..her friend is my primary school mate) with a group of pple.. very funny one.. mao always say only she and dunno one or 2 pple la.. but i will end up meeting a lot of unofficial friend.. so once again.. yup.. there was a lot of them..

I am shy, u see (thats in a nicer way, another way of saying it is anti-social). so there was her friend and her friend's friend..which i totally ignore throughout the entire nite.. ah well.. i guess it doesnt really matter to them anyway.. as we enter.. the first hour to 12 was super sian.. music sucks till i wan to jump down..and there wasnt pple i know around.. except stella n her smu friends..just met and say hi and off she goes..

finally it was 12! and rnb starts.. and it wasnt like i expected.. chinablack was never like tt... ok.. i dun frequent there but..tt time i went with mery and stella..the music was super great and makes me dun wanna go home.. it makes me wonder..is it the music? DJ? crowd? Clique? or.....

The rnb goes on for 15 mins.. and its back to house for a long time and back to rnb for a little one.. only a few song is good..there was no SUPERSTAR, YEAH, SURVIVOR etc! i had joined another group of mao's friend's friend then.. o.. nothing ggreat abt them.. and realised stella was just beside! So i went to dance with her since i was so sian.. and a min later..realise mao and her grp is gone! with my phone.. argh.. and i have to be thick-skinned and stick to stella even tho i dunno a single pple over there.. maybe they are all from smu.. so they are all quite nice pple?? yup..

stella's guys friend had no idea i was stella's friend initially and push me away from the circle they formed.. n i felt so outcasted!! *sad.. and i finally saw this familiar face.. ZIkai!!!! OMG.. feel so good to see him.. even though wasnt quite close with him.. just when i feel lonely and needy.. he appear and gave me a "nice-to-see-ya" look! Lolz..he said hi and went off..

stella's group left early so i went to find ah mao.. then we become follower again.. following his friend around..we been doing tt the whole nite.. i got no idea where i was heading everytime.. just followed aimlessly.. and back to dance floor.. music got better.. and plenty of room for movement.. so yeah i was high again!! only time in the nite tt i was actually dancing.. saw Zikai on the platform.. with a girl .. they were gliding and.. lol.. the girl wasnt the type i would expect him to be interested in.. cos shes a little bit.. "not-slim" .. Oopz.. i know i m in no pxn to say tt.. but its true.. appear to me tt he had just picked up any girl on the floor.. Mm.. hes a great dancer..he can still flirt when gliding with tt girl.. superb huh! Lol..

So finally i really want to go home.. but i cant find mao's friend who was holding my locker tag.. so i waited and waited.. fianlly able to leave CB at 3? Tired.. couldnt take NR.. and i wasted my money.. sIgh..and here i am writing abt the interesting night!!

Mm..but something interesting did happen upon reaching home.. i took the lift at my block and after i enter i back-faced the door to see the mirror..and i got shocked when i saw a man standing outside the lift! then i turn around.. luckily its human.. hehe.. then this guy presses 14, i live on the 13th ma.. he was wearing a tight white tee, quite built.. i tot i had a cute neighbour for a moment! but then he stood in front of me.. and his low-cut pants revealed a black G-string with diamond chain leading down his ASS!.. OMG! is he a gay or something.. and he asked me "out party? so where did u go?" i told him i went chinablack but i din dare to ask him which Gay pub he went to.. Lolz.. and he said GOod bye to me .. interesting encounter..

Meeting stella and mery on monday! seems like i needa reschedule my tuition again! and clubbing on stella birthday on wednesday!! yeah!~! hehe..

* I have taken away my tag board for the moment.. cos i dun feel like it belongs to me.. heh...

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4:09 AM

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Hasnt come online for past 2 nites.. Mm.. surprised to find my tag-borad "flooded"... and mery has stopped blogging~ Mm..like tt i will have lesser updates from her.. sigH..

Anyway.. today is stella's last day of exam.. this party animal will be un-leashed after todaY! Welcome to the carefree world! *huGz

Was watching a variety show.. featuring xmas feast! and it occur to me tt i m still not "chopped" on xmas eve! whoever got programme pls "chopped" me!! Mm.. feel like gg for a feast.. but all restaurants will be packed.. Ah well.. wats new..

Mery is asking me to go for the class gathering on sunday.. not pretty sure.. but then.. its a waste of money isnt it? As in, having a feast at restaurants..really a luxury for me NOW..u can nv imagine how pathetic me and weihao are.. lol..

Mm.. but i noe money is gonna come in after the 29th.. yeah.. lots of money.. hehe.. then i can start shopping~ and clear my bills..went window shopping yesterday.. went to look at "my" PC wallet, eyeshadow.. at OG..but see see only.. haha... and after see see.. i will ended up having a longer wishlist..

mm.. and i realise recently i m hafing this bad habit.. like when passing by any shop.. first thing i will look at is.. is there any notice on the door that says "Part-time vacancies available" or things like tt.. it has become a habit!! mmm.. tts why i manage to see tt Genki-sushi is looking for part -timer.. hehe.. wanted to go for an interview..but cant wake up today..i m so proud of myself then.. i will cope with 3 jobS~ actually the fact is job at bishan is too part time le.. i practically cant get the schedules i want.. thus.. lesser earnings.. so i thinking of getting another job and quit that stupid place..but i lazy to go down lo.. told my mom tt i looking for another job and i got a dressing down.. SiGh.. she say i will die if i work so hard.. i was like.. no.. working for ur own money is meaningful! esp when the money gets transferred into ur a/c.. hehe..

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3:43 PM

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Spend the earlier part of the day @ work.. was still sick when i woke up in e morning.. but managed to drag myself out of bed in e end but was still late for an hr in e end..but..needed the money~ heh

Later in e day met up with Mery for some shopping for Stella's present~supposed to be a secret shopping but we really had no idea what to buy for her.. spending hrs looking at shops from Wisma, Taka, back and forth.. and we finally gif up..so we called Stella to asked her what she wans instead, in casewe buy smth tt she din like.. in e end we decided on a bag for her.. but it wasnt easy either~~ bags now are so flashy and find it kinda hard to match.. again we spend hours.. as we were walking we discussed abt wat we want for our bday to save this kinda trouble when shopping with stella .. hehe..Mery think tt it will be easier to buy a wallet so she wanted to reserved tt on my wish list.. but gal, if u 2 wanted to change ur mind and see something nicer its really ok noe.. hehe..i really trust ur taste~

SO it came across to me now.. at our age.. i think everyone find it hard to buy presents for bday girls lo..either dunno what to buy or scared buy already they won like.. esp for those long time friends..buy every year until dunno what to buy le..mm.. so they rather ask the person what they want..no longer a surprise-surprise kinda thing~

went for dinner at delifrance..sat at out favourite sofa seat and started chatting again~ Mm.. some meaningful talk.. abt our secondary school life.. I Love Ctss DayS~ abt school, guys, friends, results,band, changes in us etc.. hehe.. its always sweet to chat abt out younger days~also mention tt i have stop to really dress to impress after something happened..hehe..and i manage to find out the reason too! Mm.. so in order nt to disappoint her.. i shall start to dress to impress soon??? provided i have the capital for tt~ Lolz..

Had lots of laughs.. thanks girl~

Stella is finishing examS~ yeah~ finally 3 of us can have a chat together .. i think she is really expectin a diff me.. but nope.. i am still the serene.. inside and outside..no changes.. no time and no capital.. Lolz..

PS: oh ya.. btw.. i bot a bag from Forever21..i kept it from weihao.. when he read this he will find out.. but i dun wan him to noe so soon~ he will be disappointed with me.. ytd a 48 bucks Foundation.. today anther 18 bucks bag..but its raelly nice u noe.. SHit.. i think i m having symptoms of the shopaholic~ okay mery..stop laughing..

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10:44 PM

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I am half-dead when writing this.. time now is 11 pm after a short nap... I din go to teach tuition.. Cos.. i am sick...

Earlier in the day went to Orchard to return my uniform to HD.. finally a load off my chest.. after which to meet han and mao for some shopping~ So long nv see HanzI~!~ her her.. also nv see grace cos she just started her exams.. wish her gd luck ba.. anyway.. both of them were late~ and i just idle around.. and.. something bad happen.. i was roaming Isetan..passing by counters of cosmetics..then i was stopped by the sales girl from Clinique.. and great i asked her to recommend foundation for acne and oily prone skin.. and she recommended me the foundation as well as a concealer, moisturiser, lip gloss etc.. good svc i should say.. and i bought that bloody foundation!!!! (note that i have strike off the Sheer Cashmere Foundation from my wish list) Din know how to turn her down.. so i bot the cheapest one.. and it cost me 48 bucks.. frankly speaking..it wasnt that ex for a foundation.. but its really a heartache when i m so broke at the end of the month! and i really regretted!~

SiGh..and mao and han were so "enthu" abt the 48 bucks (not the foundation) and they kept reminding me the mistake i made throughout the few hrs of shopping~ sIan.. this is supposed to be my money-saving week! and i promised weihao..SigH..when he know of the existence of tt foundation, he sounded rather disappointed with me.. SiGh..Dui BU qi..

So 3 of us went around shopping for mao's clothes.. seen nice2 things! accessories and bags etc.. and i was sick..initially i can still tahan.. but i start to feel feverish at around 4~ so i decided to go home early to get some rest before i teach tuition.. but in the end i couldnt get up.. ah well..needed the rest..

Tml i m working morning~ after tt meeting mery to go shopping again!~! Hehe..although i just met her like ytd? Mm.. we went to taka for her free makeover.. looks good! but she think the hair is weird.. but i think its nice.. well.. everything looks good on her~ bet it wont look as well on me~ and we sat at delifrance for a girl's talk as usual..

O ya.. before i forgot.. if stella is reading this.. me and mery is planning for a shopping n stayover after ur exams and b4 she returns to indo~ but u are so busy girl.. let us know which day is better cos i noe mery is free also everyday.. haha n shes bored stiff~

Argh.. i m feeling the effect of the Panadol.. i m gg to sleep.. tata

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10:59 PM

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Its late in the nite.. and i m tired.. *YawnZZ*.. however just feel like i need to blog.. hehe..mm..

tag baord been down for a few days~ finally its back working.. Yeah~ so tt i can see what my friends comment on my life~

One thing i saw is that stella was worried tt i take drugs!~ OMG.. its kinda funny but kinda sad.. cos it shows that she dun understand me well enough.. other than taking cough syrup when i m sick.. I will NEVER take drugs ya?? so u understand now stellA?? hehe

And abt the boy cotting thing ar.. hah.. i got nothing to write then i write one.. i know u girls very nice to me la.. Lolz.. And stella i also noe u have been tagging alot to keep my tag board alive la k.. *Hugz* Faster finish ur exams leh!~! things will never be complete w/o u!~! u girls can go clubbing w/o me.. but me and mery cant go playing without u~!~ see ur importance!~! haha

Anyway.. tonite is so interesting.. Apart from some unhappiness due to some friend of mine always trying to do their things their own way...

ok..so i was supposed to stand by for my work.. in the end.. i was not needed.. ah well.. so i went down to meet weihao and mao for dinner~!~ to see a new boy!~! eh.. i m not referring to a baby boy la.. but someone's new fling! Oops.. i mean boyfriend.. lol..

shall comment abt this "dolphin" i met.. i guess my friend is v interested abt this.. so read on..

i gif him 85 to 90 marks leh..rather high.. he is a friendly and easy going chap.. (1st impression).. sunshine boy (as what weihao describes him)..gentle??? and he is a good man.. (1st impression).. doesnt look like a guy who doesnt club.. and i dont think he is sorta like weihao as what she describes him as.. cos.. dunno.. just doesnt give me tt feeling lo.. hehe.. doesnt look like those unfaithful sort.. but pple change, doesnt they?? oopzz..hehe.. overall, a GOOD catch!~!

and i m feeling happy for my galfriend tt she has found someone for her.. this time.. like she say, hopefully its the right one.. yup.. i believe so..but hopefully.. u really have forgotten what u need to forget.. or just try not to remember.. siGh..it will be hard.. but u can do it.. cos if hes so nice to u.. u will go "goo-goo-ga-ga" over him.. haha.. got them 4 of us must go out together~! Mahjong is a must.. and we will make him lose lots of money!~ haha.. Cheers to your happiness!~!

So the 4 of us went CCE @ Wisma for some drink and dessert.. and played "7-11".. and finally realised tt.. my maths really sucks.. loser has to drink a "yucky" drink.. wasnt tt yucky after all..

left round 10?? cos her boy gotta flight to catch laterin the morning.. poor girl.. just got together and has to seperate for a week.. haha.. but she will get a lot of presents.. so i think she wouldnt mind la.. haha..

WAtch Shutter.. wanna catch the 1130 show.. but only left first 2 rows..so we catch the 1.25 show.. OMG.. it was 10+ when we bot the tickets..and there was nothing for us to do for the whole 2 hours~ so we just sit around..and wait for time to pass.. and a tragedy happened!~!~ He stepped on my heels!~! and the strap broke!~! GREAT! my second footwear with a broken strap this weeK~ and i din plan to buy one until i get my pay.. i was planning to buy the flaps is saw at C&K.. now i gotta buy the heels and flaps.. sIgh.. and tt was my favourite heels! =( anyway.. i knoew weihao is pretty upset the broken strap.. okok.. shall forgive him..

Shutter was ok.. a little better than i expected.. a little bit of story line.. i especially love the ending .. hohoho.. gif a rating of 7.5/10..a bit of surprises here and there..

Mm.. and i really want to comment something~ have u guys realise that the ghost in ALL horror movie looks the same! exactly the same.. theres no originality @ all!~! can u imagine seeing the "ghost" of "Ju-On" appearing in "Shutter".. i m starting to find its so ridiculous and sometimes a little hilarious.. and the way they appear the same way in all movie can.. ever since the "sadako" crawls out of TV.. all the other "ghost" is doing the same! All the "ghosts" are long hair..wears white..they crawl with head down..in scenes with bath tub/sink/well, their hair will flow from the sink or whatever it is (just like the one in dark-water) and have dark eye rings.. i m beginning to wonder..issit only long-haired girl is eligible to be the "ghost"..??

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4:06 AM

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Mommy's bday today..o.. to be exact.. its yesterday..so to be a filial daughter.. i brought her for seafood today.. glad she enjoyed it..

Nothign much happened these few days.. been drinking lots of water.. hopefully i can get my body working again..

Watch Shark Tale on saturday.. Ok show..wasnt as good as i expected.. but i definitely needed a laugh.. next show i am gonna catch are Shutter and Saw

Been so boreeed..nothing keeps me going thru the days.. ARWww..

Mery keeps boasting about her no longer a shopaholic in her blog and stella's tag.. i dun think shes cured actually.. she simply just passed the virus to me.. OMG.. cant torture me this way! i haven got the 'capital' to be a shopaholic..

And btw..mery been leaving tags at stella's blog.. and lots of it.. but my tag board seems blank huh.. other than Mao's "frequent" updates.. thanks to her that keep my tag board "alive and kicking"

Eh eh u two.. trying to boycott me huh!

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3:36 AM

♥ 20041112

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Another day slacking at home.. AWw.. I feel like a spoilt brat.. SiGh.. FrEnz are having their exams and others are working.. and my wallet is drained from all those shopping i have done last week and i cant shop anymore.. =(

Super sian.. and also i have added more to my wish list.. OMG.. i have got lesser money to buy but more things to buy.. ArgH..

Kinda miss my HD pple.. Hannah, Kelvin, Kk, ET, Celia, WAnLin, Wani..SiGh.. actually i know a few pple want to know the reason tt i left.. the real reason is tt i am not happy working there.. and it wasnt a sudden decision.. becos i've gave my manager some feedback 1 week before i left.. however, nothing was done to resolve the matter.. instead it got worst..and all the manager told me was tt its my fault for not able to adapt. k Fine.. maybe its raelly my fault, however i am not guilty at all cos i have tried whatever way i can.. having paid $5 just like others means tt i have to work harder than the rest is not a logic i can accept.. i dont mind working doubly hard.. if someone ever OFFER to help.. just offer will do..I have never slacked..and i put in my effort to earn my pay hour by hour.. y should up cover up others work load for them to get their pay???

K fine.. i m getting frustrated as i write.. thinking of what happened everyday.. nevermind.. i have already left..

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2:00 PM

♥ 20041110

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A day without electricity

Ever tot of what will happen when theres no power supply in ur house for one bloody day? or even an hour?

OMG..power supply breakdown in the morning could be worst than its breakdown in the nite!!!

No fan when its so humid
No aircon when its bloody hot
No TV when ur whole body is so warm
No phone call to someone to talk since the charger is down
No cold drinks since ur fridge has malfunction
Worst of worst.. u cant sleep!!

i was awaken by the surprisingly rise in temperature ard 10 am.. and i tot someone had off the fan.. so angry as i was perspiring already..i reach for the remote and no cool air come out of tt bloody "box"..wat a bad morning.. siGh..

Anyway.. clubbing is cancel today.. ARGH.. hopeuflly i got the mood to join ah mao ! hehe..

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5:22 PM

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Luckiy i nv suffer frmo any hangover.. Mm..

these few days been shopping alot!! OMG.. spend lots of money.. sigh..these are the things i've got..

- Jacket from Samuel n Kevin (@ 50% of $39!)
- Bracelet (tts from wh)
- Skirt from Forever21 (i love tt skirt!)
- Eyebrow powder frm Sasa
- Organiser 2005 ($17)
- Scent from Cine

mm..actually not too much.. but i just feel like i been spending u noe.. =P

as is shop.. other than spending a lot.. i have added more things to my wish list that i din buy but intend to buy in e future.. AWWWW.. sinful.. and not to forget.. i bought a pair of shoes for Wh's belated bday present.. hope he likes it.. nv understand why guy's shoes are forever so ex.. tsk..

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1:54 AM

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Fark.. i am bloody drunk... ..

its been so long since i had so much.. and i am bloody drunk..OMG..

was at jason's party at BQ..hes 26! Hes my papa, of cos i must go lo.. but it was kinda boring.. he was entertaining all his friends..but as we are the youngest there.. he din really wan to drink w us.. =(

Me wh and another frined shared one bottle vodka..wasnt alot.. but maybe wasnt doing anything so i was 'gone' w/i 2 hrs.. there i start to feel "dreamy" and everything like so 'unreal'..

finally left around 2? and before we left jason finally came over.. he said a lot.. but like i say it was so blur that now i cant remember it.. mainly abt my character v the work, me v michelle etc.. yup yup.. and he was telling wh definitely must send me home.. cos he know i was drunk already..so sherman and him see us to the..er..stairs.. and we manage to drag ourselves down..

and w/i a few moments..i was throwing up in the back alley.. alot.. and i told myself that its a feeling i will nv wan to have anymore..ARGH...and poor charles has to see us back with his bike.. hes on bike.. me and wh on cab..and he just followed the cab to make sure we are ok..

after an hour rest on e bed..woke up and wash my face.. couldnt even walk properly cos my head was so heavy..but i felt better.. so here i am .. writing abt my night.. Hmm.. gotta go.. ciao..

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3:44 AM

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I just wake up from my deep sleep.. .. mm.. officially left my job at HD..din know why i made that decision.. but well.. no pt regretting since i made the first step.. =)

So now adays i sleep late.. wake up late.. watch VCDs..like Meteor GArden~~!~ ive been watching the series over and over for almost 5 times .. but its still so interesting.. love Jerry.. =P Hes so sweet and gentle.. OMG.. will faint..other than VCDs.. went shopping or hi t with friend.. and just last nite went Mery's house Girl's Talk..

it was a very interesting and heart-warming girl's talk.. HEHE.. but mainly i am listening.. cos mery got a lot to say.. Lolz..i just kept laughing.. mm.. i always like to have a girl's talk like tt.. like me and my friends hide in the blanket and talk abt everything.. things that are emotional ..happy and even unhappy.. its always sweet to haf the 2 girls ard... thanks thanks made me feel good after a few days of facing the 4 walls.. Lolz..and kept me real ENTERTAINED.. haha..but rest-assured.. all secrets are w/i the 4 walls.. and i will keep it 'safe'...

but i din really contribute to the entire conversation lo.. cos.. there are things that mery know but stella doesnt know cos i wasnt really close to stella back then..so i was a little bit stunt when the topic came back years later... so i kinda avoided it.. i really really hope i din make stella feel that i din wan to share with her and stuff.. i really do..but i m afraid that she will get a wrong idea of me..and i m afraid tt my best-est friend start to judge me over things that happened dinkey years ago.. Sigh.. but as i was on my way back.. i find that i think too much.. and i really hope i din made her felt left-out..I am sorry girl..

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5:36 PM

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Tired of watching pple around me change.. I am going for a revolution.. hopefully i will be a different girl in 2 mths time..

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4:01 PM