he say "there is no one else that i wanna walk this road with.."
it was a bad vday for us. 2 prideful person refusing to give in.
exchanged some fiesty texts in the noon, followed by cold war..finally managed to make up at 5am this morning. drama.
i forced myself to slp at 12am, didnt take long for me to wake up, thinking abt him. tot i try my luck to text him. he replied within seconds. so happy to be seeing 'typing...' on my wapp screen. apparently he just wake up too.
he apologised, so i told him i was sorry too. because i know this time round, i am at fault. but at the end of the day we both figured that, we both have our reasons to be upset and yet we are not wrong at the same time. complicated. hmm.
hes prob right. we prob quarrel just to make up. and wasted tt silly 10+ hours feeling upset abt smthing so insignificant. both of us didnt want the fight, and regretted whatever we have said once we both cool off our head. however, alot of mean things can be said when we let rage take over our minds.
everytime we fight and made up, we will talk abt what was going through our head at diff point of time when we are not talking. always interesting to hear.
like there was once, he told me he wanted to talk to me after an argument, but he was afraid i didnt want to talk to him. so he stalked my wapp status and waited for me to go online, even tho he could have just leave me a offline msg. so silly.
and ytd, 2 hrs after we ended our last convo, he actually text me to explain certain things, but i was too fedup and deleted my wapp right after the heated text exchange, so i didnt receive the msgs, and keep tinking he didnt look for me. lol. denial.
so he told me just now, next time he will just sms or call. hahaha. we will see.
he flew off to amsterdam tonight, met him for dinner and sent him to airport. always nice to see him after a fight. hugs will really make me feel alot better than just texts alone =)
on our way to airport, he said his chain of thoughts have improved, not so emotional like last time, which was why he can recover faster than before. happy to hear tt. =D he went thru the convo ytd and understood why i misinterpreted his meanings.
see, so its all misunderstandings! there goes our first vday!
nvm, not impt, there were so many pple out for dinner ytd and i tot its quite stupid and not romantic.
my ideal v day will be smthing like.. a picnic at a park/beach with some home made food, cheese/chocolate & wine/champagne. play some card games or board games with some nice music. tt will be perfect =D and ideal present will not be flowers (one stalk is cool enuff! just for the fun of it, not bouquet, i can eat hell alot of food for tt money) or chocolates or teddy bears, it will be something, hand written/self made or even a e-love letter!
but well, my past vday have been quite standard - dinner & movie, so this yr for a change, i had ktv w hanzi n grace! Loves!
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spoke to mery today...
she told me i seem v clear of what i want and what i am doing now. which is good. so i shdnt be bothered abt wat pple see/think abt us. have faith in him n be more encouraging.
if hes what i want, i shd get it no matter wat.
i m quite certain like him, that there is no one else i would rather spend the rest of my life with. altho the road may not be CONFIRM WILL NOT BE smooth sailing. hopefully our love is strong enuff to withstand whatever tt comes in our way. so far seems like whatever tt comes in our way is our strong character. hmm..
sometimes i do wonder if i m over optimistic abt this rship. but mer told me, there shd not be anything i need to be pessimistic abt. i prob know him better than anyone else, if i can trust him, the rest dont matter..
anyway, always feel good talking to her. cant wait for her to come bk in april so tt we can spend some girly times together!!
